After graduating from university, I was assigned to work in the power supply department of the Municipal Machine Tool Factory, and Gao Jiangjiang was assigned to the political engineering department of the Municipal Industrial and Commercial Bureau.

When I reported for duty, my brother Song Dongli, who had already gone to the sea to do business, had two batches of banquets for the large and small officials in the factory and Cory who could manage me, and in the kind of hotel where they put down their chopsticks and entered the middle of the venue to dance ballroom dancing while eating, the officials were all drunk and crooked under my brother's push cup, and they patted me on the shoulder and let out bold words, "Dongqiang, do a good job, the future is on me!" "Dongqiang, don't see outside, if there is anything you don't understand, just say it!" It reminds me of the warm scene when I was a child at home to my brother and my second sister to learn martial arts, although now it is centered on me, but I still feel that I am the same as when I was a child, I can't fit into this atmosphere, I found myself out of place with them, I just stepped into the first step of society, and I marginalized myself in my heart.

As the only undergraduate college student among the technicians in the power supply department, plus my brother Song Dongli's up and down dots, I naturally got special care, as soon as I joined the factory leaders under the leadership, I was called "Song Gong", and the factory respected me very much from the leaders to the workers. All the construction drawings, the workers have to find all kinds of excuses for me to re-review, and the site also asks me to do theoretical guidance, of course, I will be serious and responsible for strict control.

This highly respected situation made me feel awkward and a kind of high pressure.

But the low profile didn't stop me from getting ahead, and two years later, the technical director was promoted and I took over.

Before and after I took over as the technical director, I did make corresponding contributions to the factory, under my joint suggestion, the factory installed power capacitors on the substation, improved the power factor, reduced the electricity expenditure, recovered the capacitor cost in three months, and saved more than 200,000 yuan in electricity throughout the year, which was highly praised and rewarded by the factory leaders. I used more than half a month of overtime work to add a small map of the partition on the basis of the overall layout, and redrew the power supply system diagram and line diagram, which greatly facilitated the command of power dispatching and the construction of workers, and was well received by the whole plant.

In the year I was promoted to technical lead, I got married.

The reason why we got married two years after graduation was because Gao Jiangjiang's sister died of tuberculosis during our senior year. Therefore, although I have to work every day, I have to constantly rotate between my own house and Gao Jiangjiang's family, and I can't stop busy, and I have to wait until the end of Gao Yangyang's mourning period before I can justifiably let Aunt Fan's family live with me in my new home.

Unfortunately, when I finally became Aunt Fan's aunt, she could no longer know.

After Gao Jiangjiang and I went to college, my Aunt Fan developed from initial depression to mental illness, became a psychopath, their home completely collapsed, and Gao Yangyang, who was not self-reliant, not only escaped from her mother's care, but also had to take care of her crazy mother. After struggling to support for a while, I unknowingly contracted tuberculosis, and when my mother found out that she was coughing up blood and took her to the provincial hospital for examination, she had seriously missed the treatment period, because of the lack of care and the sense of self-protection was too low, Gao Yangyang was only 25 years old, and died due to a delayed illness. Later, Aunt Fan was sent to a psychiatric hospital by Aunt Gao Jiangjiang for perennial hospitalization, and Gao Shan stayed in their house alone to continue his junior high school because he was unwilling to live at his aunt's house, and my mother and two sisters took on the responsibility of taking care of him, and at the same time, our family paid all the school and living expenses of Gao Shan and Gao Jiangjiang. In fact, Aunt Fan herself also has a salary, but my mother considered the needs of Gao Shan to start a family in the future and a series of other matters, so she asked Gao Shan to save Aunt Fan's salary completely and not to touch, and all the expenses of him and Gao Jiangjiang were paid by my mother regularly.

It was the early 90s, and because of the prosperous careers of my brother Song Dongli and my second sister Song Yuqun, our family had already become a well-known and wealthy family in the mining area. It's not a problem to support two more children, not to mention that my mother is the one who puts righteousness in the first place, after all, Aunt Fan was the one who saved my life back then.

Although my mother could do everything she could to save Aunt Fan and her children, at the instigation of her neighbors and friends, she also selfishly planned to repentance of marrying me and Gao Jiangjiang. Even though we don't have a paper marriage contract, years of verbal agreements have indisputably bound me and Gao Jiangjiang's lifelong events together, and everyone knows about it. Therefore, if we are separated, it can be characterized as a repentant marriage.

My mother's worries are not unreasonable, if we get married, then I will have to carry Aunt Fan and Gao Shan for the rest of my life, which are two burdens that drag down without limits. What my mother means is that my family can always sponsor Gao Shan, and I can always take care of Aunt Fan, and I can also always provide full support to Gao Jiangjiang when he needs it, but it is better not to become a responsibility and obligation in the legal sense. And since I graduated, there have been too many matchmakers who have proposed to me to marry each other, and even if my mother has the determination, she can't bear the rhetoric and encouragement of others. Therefore, her heart that was not firm had already begun to waver, and she often persuaded me to give up Gao Jiangjiang.

But my mother had also learned my stubbornness a long time ago, and knew that for me, a person who would never look back, unless I wanted to do something myself, no one, including her, could dominate me. Therefore, my mother only accepted my decision to not only marry Gao Jiangjiang into the door, but also to bring Aunt Fan and Gao Shan into the house.

On the day of the wedding, my second sister prepared a red beaded dress worth thousands of dollars for Gao Jiangjiang, and took her to a high-end hair salon to make a bridal bun worth 200 yuan and put on makeup; My brother hired a video and photography team, two people wearing vests covered in pockets carrying video equipment, followed by an assistant with a bag, and the camera was pointed at me and Gao Jiangjiang the whole time, which made us both very uncomfortable. Gao Jiangjiang is a very introverted person who doesn't like to be lively, and she has become someone who takes her mother to marry in other people's handles, I can imagine how ashamed she is in the face of this kind of noisy scene. I whispered to her again and again, and after a little more patience, the ceremony was over. But from four o'clock in the morning to the end of all the ceremonies in the afternoon, for more than ten hours, we were in the crowd with the mother-in-law, wedding officiant, cameraman, photographer and other links of the stage of the responsible person, in the eyes of others is out of the limelight, but we feel terrible in our hearts. Although this was the most beautiful day of Gao Jiangjiang's life in my eyes, this formal beauty did not bring her inner happiness.

Gao Jiangjiang is a beautiful woman in traditional Chinese aesthetics, she not only has thick eyebrows and big eyes, but also has unusually black and dense long eyelashes, like a curtain of feather fans embedded in her slightly inherited mother's sloping double eyelids, covering her pupils with a layer of black dreamy color, slightly thick and full and slightly upturned lips, under the firm nose, gently pursed due to inner fluctuations to make it more rounded. With delicate facial features on her clear and white face, she looks beautiful, quiet and melancholy.

I felt her faint resistance and suppression, and every blessing she sent seemed to be a kind of ridicule and pity for her. But this is also an arrangement that we have to accept, because since I want to marry Gao Jiangjiang, I have to follow the arrangement of my brother and my second sister, by organizing a grand wedding for me, to show their extraordinary status and strength, by publicizing our family's advanced deeds of accepting orphans and widows, establishing their good public image in the circle, and creating more network resources and development opportunities for them in the business field.

I had to give them this opportunity, if I married another girl according to my family's wishes, I could still decide how to do the marriage according to my own wishes, but now I can't be cheeky enough to ask them to do what I want when they pay an extra 10,000 yuan for the purchase of a large building because they accept my mother-in-law, not to mention that this also causes the whole family to worry about my future life prospects, because no one can say how much pressure I will have to bear for everyone in the Gao family in the future.

There must always be some necessary concessions to be a man, which has nothing to do with stubbornness and justice, and is the only way out in front of you after weighing the pros and cons. Therefore, I peacefully accepted all the process arrangements for my wedding at home, I have no ability to give the Gao family a better life alone for the time being, and I can't break away from the family affection at home, and I can't wantonly destroy the family image of Boxun Zhongchi and the harmony that my family has built up over the years.

Smooth submission is the greatest dignity I have given myself.

Gao Jiangjiang married me with low self-esteem in this way, although she had already felt the strangeness of my family's attitude, but her habit of making decisions in front of me made her have no ability to choose, and everything to obey my decision is her decision.

Also with low self-esteem is my brother-in-law Gao Shan, a high-achieving student who has been admitted to a key university, who has declined my family's support for his studies, and can mail back some food to my mother-in-law every month by relying on work-study. But for his mother's care, he couldn't do anything, so he could only marry his mother with his sister under great psychological pressure.

The day after the marriage, my mother-in-law caused unwarranted trouble.

Since Gao Shan was going to send him back to our wedding to the train station to take the bus back to school, my brother drove his 212 jeep and used the big brother worth more than 10,000 yuan in his hand to call my mother's house a long time ago. When my brother came in, he put his bag and big brother on the cabinet of my mother's closet, and said that he had just drunk and needed something to eat, so we should hurry up and get in the car first, and then went into the kitchen by ourselves. My mom and my dad sent Gao Shan out and greeted him to go back to school with confidence, Gao Jiangjiang sensibly thanked my mom with his younger brother, and during this brief spare time when I used to raise the mountain bag, my mother-in-law picked up my brother's big brother and threw it neatly out of the fourth-floor window of my mom's house. My brother Song Dongli came out of the kitchen and saw that there was no towering big brother on the cabinet, only the document bag was left lying there quietly, and instinctively thought of my mother-in-law, because he knew that none of us was interested in his big brother, and even if any of us took it, it would be safe, he would not be in a hurry, but as long as my mother-in-law moved, it would be more auspicious, so he nervously pulled my mother-in-law's arm and asked, "Aunt Fan, did you take my big brother?" My mother-in-law didn't squeak, just looked out of the window with her eyes drooping, and my brother quickly ran to the window to look down, and there were already neighbors standing on the big brother who had fallen off the back cover and went upstairs to look at my house. My brother was so angry that he couldn't control his emotions and yelled at my mother-in-law, "You old crazy woman, what are you doing throwing my big brother!" It's messing with you?! ”

My brother's shouting made the group of us who had just come out of the door and down the stairs stand on our feet, looking at each other, not knowing for a moment what was happening. I saw my brother run downstairs without everyone, Gao Shan and I also hurriedly ran after him, Gao Jiangjiang felt that it was his mother who was in trouble, and looked back into the house, and saw that my mother-in-law was still looking down at the floor with her eyes as if nothing happened. Ever since my mother-in-law was mentally abnormal, she didn't look at people directly, and always drooped her swollen eye bubbles downward to look around.

Gao Jiangjiang returned to the house and asked my mother-in-law, "Mom, are you in trouble again?" I didn't expect an answer, so I dragged my mother-in-law downstairs quickly, and my parents followed them downstairs.

Downstairs, my brother had already picked up the broken big brother and wanted to go back to the house to find my mother-in-law to theorize, but I stopped him and persuaded him to put out the fire first, and I couldn't make a sense with my mother-in-law, a mentally ill person, my brother yelled at me angrily: "Look at what you brought back!" woe to people! So what do you say? I bought it for more than 10,000 yuan! "I was embarrassed to hear my brother ask me what to do, because it was obviously asking me if I could pay for my mother-in-law, and where could I afford it. Although I have worked for two years and saved some money, it is only a few thousand yuan, not to mention that I bought a dowry for Gao Jiangjiang, his eldest brother is more than 10,000 yuan, which is a sky-high price for me, because the building that my family bought for me at that time was only 30,000 yuan. I looked at my brother Song Dongli without confidence, thinking in my heart how my house could be worth half of it.

At the same time, I also wondered in my heart why my mother-in-law would change from standing on the street and talking to herself to destroying things now. So what other pathological symptoms will she have in the future? What am I going to do with her from now on?

Then Takayama stood in front of me and said to my brother:

"Big brother, don't be angry first, blame us for not taking a good look at my mother, my mother's salary has saved more than 6,000, I'll remit it when I go back to school, and I'll pay you back the rest little by little, don't be angry with my mother!" It's all our fault and causing trouble for your family. ”

"I don't mean that, Gao Shan, the key brother is too distressed, I have to use my business, my customers contact me and I can't find a delay, if you buy another one, you have to go to the provincial capital, we don't have it here, and it will cost more than 10,000 yuan."

Although my brother can shout at me, he still has compassion for Gao Shan since he was a child, and when he heard Gao Shan say "I caused trouble for my family", he consciously talked too much and touched the substantive problem that both of us avoided, so he glanced at Gao Shan with a gloomy face, and lowered his voice, and repeatedly explained that he was not angry that my mother-in-law threw things, but it was really the eldest brother who was inseparable from business, but in the end it was back to the money.

Under the persuasion of my dad, the matter was put on hold for the time being, and it was not determined whether it was necessary to pay compensation. Originally, I was scheduled to take my mother-in-law to the station with me, but I had to let Gao Jiangjiang stay at home to take care of her, and I was the only one who took my brother's car to send Gao Shan.

Takayama was gloomy all the way, and although my brother calmed down and repeatedly explained to him, and tried to say some jokes, it didn't eliminate the inferiority complex that existed in his heart, and I saw him reluctantly smile goodbye to us, and then walk into the crowd of people with a guilty look in his suitcase.

And so it was over.