After the start of the third year of high school, I became another person in the eyes of the teachers and students of the whole school, neither a cheerful student at the beginning of the school, nor a perverse lover during the rebellious period, I became calm and silent, with a dignified expression, and shuttled between the classroom, dormitory and canteen every day.

Because I really don't have the energy to listen to other things, I have to hurry up and catch up with the results to ensure that the first year of the college entrance examination is completed, and then I graduate as soon as possible, I have to devote myself to fulfilling my duties as an aunt.

At that time, I had become the de facto uncle of the Gao family, and in one summer vacation, I had two de facto acts with Gao Jiangjiang, which I thought my mother-in-law was aware of back then, but she did not make a statement, on the one hand, because she was in a depressed state and had no time to take care of it, and on the other hand, perhaps she wanted to protect her daughter's reputation.

I was eighteen years old. If life needs a coming-of-age ceremony, then what I give myself is a responsibility, a responsibility to the Gao family.

I tied myself to the entire Gao family, not just Gao Jiangjiang. In my thoughts at the time, this was my responsibility.

For my change, there is no one happiest than my homeroom teacher, Ms. Sun, who once slapped the four of us in the face while crying on the podium because I shaved my heads with three other classmates after Jinbei's transfer.

In the last year of the 80s, July 7, 8, and 9, the sun was blazing and irritating, but I still had the confidence to win the college entrance examination and completed the college entrance examination.

In those three days, Gao Jiangjiang and Huang Chunmei and I were accompanied by Huang Chunmei's father throughout the exam, and the three of us were arranged to eat together at noon.

Huang Chunmei's father had opened a private clinic at that time, he was a doctor in the health center under the jurisdiction of the coal mine hospital when he was young, and he resigned in the early eighties to open a private clinic on his own, and after a few years, the level was getting higher and higher, and he was more and more bold, and the diagnosis and treatment project has been expanded to include internal medicine, surgery, dentistry, orthopedics, dermatology, etc., covering all the diseases that local residents can suffer, using a two-pronged approach of traditional Chinese and Western medicine, but also cured many incurable diseases, and accumulated a certain prestige in a radius of dozens of miles. I have also accumulated a lot of money. In the major event of the college entrance examination of Huang Chunmei, the only daughter of his family, he showed great enthusiasm, begged for the bus of other people's units, and took me and Gao Jiangjiang every morning, and carried him and Huang Chunmei, a total of four people, to the test center in a beautiful manner.

This was the last time I saw Huang Chunmei's father, a man we had been afraid of since childhood, who was killed by Chen Hui's father in a coal mine during my first semester of college, because he and Chen Hui's mother began to turn from an underground affair when they were young to a reckless public concubinage. Chen Hui's father couldn't bear it, and finally one night, under the courage of drinking, he carried ** to his clinic and detonated, he and Chen Hui's mother died on the spot, and Chen Hui's father also sent himself to the point of no return. Huang Chunmei then stopped repeating high school and went home to take over her father's clinic, but eventually due to the bloody incident, the support was soon closed due to the interruption of the supply of patients, and she and her mother moved out of the mine with great pain and a lot of money. And Chen Hui took his younger brothers and sisters to bear the pressure from life, public opinion and the pain of losing his parents, and continued to survive in our ** with difficulty, until Chen Hui was burdened with shame, sadness, resentment, apology and many other unspeakable contradictions for the rest of his life, and could not be freed from this heavy shadow.

Four years later, after Gao Jiangjiang and I graduated from our respective universities and returned to our hometowns, no matter how much we saw Huang Chunmei or Chen Hui, no matter how consciously we avoided this matter, we could still feel the pressure in their hearts and the embarrassment of forcing laughter.