Chapter 4 Prosperity and loneliness rain into the dust

Liu He was born in autumn, he especially likes autumn, especially the yellowing leaves, the golden yellow all over the ground, the sky is high and refreshing, there is neither the heat of summer nor the cold of winter, his heart becomes quiet in autumn, autumn is the season of harvest, but also the season of thinking, he likes to conceive of the future in this season, thinking about life.

And it was at this time that the high school opened, because his father went to the field to negotiate business, Liu He took the bus to report to the school, and along the way, he looked at the scenery outside the window.

Starting from the town, passing by the ruins of the factory where his parents worked, the office building that had been abandoned for many years was crawling with creepers, and the roof of the factory was also incomplete, especially the family home where he once lived, which was so dirty and old from a distance, he couldn't help but fall into contemplation and memories at this moment.

He stood by the window, clutched at the handrail next to him, looked sideways out the window, deliberately letting the sun shine on his face, and he enjoyed the feeling.

Suddenly, he realized that there was a gaze staring at him, and he subconsciously glanced back at the right rear and found that the other party was actually a strange girl with beautiful eyebrows.

Liu He's face turned red.

"Did my actions be too silly to get her attention? Or does she think I'm dressed too rustic and a little offbeat? Liu He was inexplicably unnatural, his hands didn't know where to go, his eyes didn't know where to look, he was a little nervous but still pretended to be calm, pretending that nothing had happened.

The girl stood behind Liu He and looked at him silently: a white short-sleeved T-shirt, a black backpack on one shoulder, a pair of dark blue jeans with a pair of sneakers, melancholy and sunny, and her immature face seemed to appear tactful sadness, like a pool of still water, deep but crystal clear, handsome and handsome, like a beautiful boy with taste. Just as it is said in the "Book of Songs, Wei Feng, and Vatan": "Kankan is a sandal, the river is dry, and the river is clear and rippling."

In the eyes of this girl, Liu He is so plain and charming, ignorant and profound.

"Poof" Suddenly the girl was amused by the shyness and shyness of the silly boy in front of her, and the girl saw that Liu He was more and more shy, the more she had the urge to tease him, she covered her mouth lightly, and couldn't help laughing.

This smile made Liu He laugh inexplicably, "What is she laughing at, is she laughing at me?" Laugh at my schoolbag is ugly or the pattern of the clothes is too silly......" He was completely confused, but his heart became more and more nervous, his head began to sweat, and he just looked forward to getting to the station quickly, but he didn't know that the beautiful girl in front of him had begun to like him.

The embarrassment and nervousness along the way made Liu He forget his worries about entering the new environment, and he was so eager to get out of the car quickly, although he knew that it would be soon, he was still a little impatient.

After "suffering" all the way and finally arriving at the destination, Liu He quickly squeezed out of the crowd and ran towards the campus.

Stepping into the campus, Liu He was full of ambition, determined to show his ambitions, determined to wash away his shame, at the moment he was full of learning, and he just wanted to prove himself quickly, because he knew that if his math score was not judged to be 0 points, he was definitely the best in this school, and he didn't want to be belittled and despised by others, even if the time was short.

Thinking of this, Liu He's heart has lost the tranquility of watching the scenery on the bus, and thinking about this humiliation, his heart is a little restless.

Carrying his schoolbag, Liu He quickly scanned the class assignment form in front of the teaching building and quickly located his name.

"Class 7!" Liu He smiled bitterly, thinking of the seven people in the district who scored 0 points in mathematics in the high school entrance examination, he began to feel sensitive to the number "7", both resistant and expectant, because he vaguely thought that this might be a hint, implying that God would definitely pay it back sometime and somewhere.

Just as he turned around, he suddenly found a familiar figure in the crowd, with a pink and purple shirt and a white face.

"Isn't this the girl I met on the bus? It turned out that she was also here to report and was in the same school as me. Liu He was extremely surprised.

The girl also noticed Liu He, she smiled politely at Liu He, and said hello because she had a relationship, but Liu He, who had been introverted and restrained since childhood, suddenly blushed and heartbeat, and was a little overwhelmed, but he still moved the corners of his mouth stiffly as a response, but this response was slightly embarrassing.

After two encounters, Liu He can hardly forget this girl, but for this introverted and shy big boy, Liu He obviously doesn't know what it feels like to like and be liked, and he has no other thoughts except for revenge exams.

Liu He hurriedly left the crowd and began to search his class.

After coming to the classroom, Liu He met his high school classmates who might live together for three years, and also met the head teacher who was not tall, thin and black, the head teacher's hair was very thick, it looked like a wig, and a pair of thick glasses were a little drooping down, to be honest, he looked a little obscene, which made Liu He not have a very good impression of him.

The head teacher stood in front of the podium and looked at the students who were entering the classroom one after another, his expression was haughty and cold, and there was no enthusiasm at all, as if he was a little tired of this job after years of teaching.

Liu He casually found a window position to sit down, watching the classmates in the class chatting enthusiastically, only he was lonely, inadvertently, he suddenly found that there was a beautiful girl sitting surrounded by a group of boys, the male classmates seemed to be competing to chat with this beauty, and this girl was lively and enthusiastic, sometimes laughing, sometimes hiding her face, you can see that although the girl seems to be chatting very happily, but he has no interest in this group of boys, I am afraid that the boys' courtesy will be in vain, Liu He glanced at them, I was in no mood to pay attention to it.

However, the beautiful girl in the crowd noticed Liu He, she peeked at him a few times from time to time, but pretended to be nothing, and Liu He had already realized it.

"This girl is hopelessly narcissistic, and she is curious if there are boys who are not interested in her, hehe, look, I just have no interest in you." Just when Liu He was muttering secretly in his heart, everyone was basically there.

Suddenly, a familiar face broke into Liu He's sight, it was the bus girl, who met twice, but they were classmates, the purple of youth was like a bright scenery, and it was so beautiful and charming among the students who entered the classroom.

However, at this moment, Liu He's heart was very calm.

At this time, the head teacher began to speak, as if to declare his power, he asked all the students to go out, stand in a row at the door, and then roll in by name, and the students who went first could choose their seats at will.

Liu He in the queue suddenly became nervous, because he found that he was almost at the back of the line, in terms of height, he could only be regarded as average, and he was No. 2 in terms of student number, and there was no reason for him to stand at the end of the line, he was puzzled to think about the basis of the row of seats, but he never figured it out, until he saw the teacher holding a transcript in his hand He understood, the original basis for the row of seats was the results of the high school entrance examination, this kind of score-only way of ranking seats Liu He was still the first time to see, it was completely naked discrimination and unequal division, At this time, Liu He was full of resentment, he didn't expect that this class was so powerful, so "class" was clear, and they all took people by dividing.

Sure enough, when Liu He's name was called, there were few seats in the class, and the moment he stepped into the classroom, the eyes of the whole class were focused on him, as if everyone wanted to see who the worst classmates in the class were, at this moment Liu He had no time to think, but his brain was booming, his legs began to weaken, and it was the first time he experienced such humiliation, looking at these eyes, his confidence fell to the bottom, and the only bit of dignity was ruthlessly trampled, he took difficult steps, and every step seemed to be a shame, The door of the classroom to the last row of the class is so long in his eyes at the moment, and the beautiful woman he didn't put in his eyes just now is also staring at him, looking at him from top to bottom, at that moment, he really experienced the shame of wanting to find a mouse hole to get into.

Eventually, he sat in the back row of the classroom, his back pressed coldly against the wall, and at the same table was a pseudo-type man with a killer Matt's hairstyle, and he couldn't forget the disdainful gaze of the head teacher when he entered the classroom, and he couldn't forget the curious gaze of his classmates.

"Yes, to be the bottom in such a poor school is indeed contemptible and curious." Liu He admitted it, and the helplessness he experienced had already made him adaptable.

Fortunately, they were still very enthusiastic people at the same table, they greeted each other, introduced themselves to each other, and soon became friends who seemed to have been friends for many years.

Life is full of surprises and the uncanny. One is a handsome scholar who is honest and delicate, and the other is a fashionable and uninhibited person with a flamboyant personality.

The two such discordant pairs not only became the same table, but also became close friends in adversity, this pseudo-type male Matt boy is called Wang Meng, the name is very fierce and imposing, but he is a stunned young man who loves to smirk, he is humorous and affinity, never angry and never cares, and he also has a friendly name, called "Explosive Head".

Hearing Liu He say that his math score was actually misjudged as 0 points because of the wrong paper, the "explosive head" also told Liu He his troubles with sympathy, "I have always been known for being handsome, but few people know my appearance, even though there is no shortage of praise from my classmates and friends, but I have never confessed to me from the opposite sex, and there is no hatred. ”

Looking at the melancholy expression of the "exploding head", listening to his semi-literate and elegant statements, and thinking about the buckteeth he showed from time to time, although Liu He endured it, he still couldn't help laughing out loud "haha", this is Liu He's rare heartfelt laughter, and Liu He who laughed was so sunny and handsome.

Sitting in the back row of the classroom, Liu He looked at the backs of his classmates and quickly got to know all the classmates. He learned that the bus girl's name was Wang Qianqian, Liu He guessed that she should be a lady, and the popular goddess was named Qiu Yanmo.

Although Liu He was disgraced and sat in the last row, Wang Qianqian still turned back from time to time to secretly look at Liu He, while Qiu Yanmo had no interest in this "bad student".

Liu He was full of thoughts about the exam, and he didn't want to pay too much attention to it, his biggest expectation was that the exam would change the status quo.

Liu He's opportunity came soon, which made him feel that the humiliation and enduring this period of time was worth it, and the school organized an entrance exam, which tested the knowledge of the high school entrance examination, which was the only time he was lucky for Liu He for so many years.

Without any pressure, Liu He won the top five in the class in this exam, and the head teacher was shocked, because this exam made the original hierarchical order in his heart collapse, especially this Liu He, this exam not only did not make Liu He's impression in his heart better, and even began to hate Liu He, suspect Liu He, hate Liu He made him have a snobbish face, and at the same time pushed down the ranking of the students' high school entrance examination results that he had worked hard to remember, and even suspected Liu He of cheating in this exam, and half-believed in Liu He's ability, It's more about mistrust.

However, Liu He didn't know and didn't care about the psychology and thoughts of the head teacher, he just felt that he had finally breathed a sigh, and he was looking forward to adjusting his seat as soon as possible.

However, the unfortunate thing is that the head teacher did not adjust the seat according to the results, which made Liu He resentful of the head teacher, but he could only endure it, and the exam that seemed to be of great significance to him passed quietly without any impact, thinking about what the junior high school Chinese teacher said to him, "Gold will always shine", he felt some comfort in his heart.

However, although this exam had no effect on the teacher's mind, it did affect some students.

Liu He's score ranked fourth, and the fifth place was the "public goddess" Qiu Yanmo, who had been paying attention to him, from the countryside but with outstanding appearance and extraordinary temperament, but also extremely fond of vanity, Qiu Yanmo and Liu He were close to each other, so they began to pay special attention to Liu He.

After that, Liu He has been waiting for the arrival of the midterm exams, in order to be ashamed, sitting in the back row every day, not seeing the blackboard and not hearing the lecture clearly, his heart gradually became dark and depressed, his personality also became irritable and emotionally anxious, and he often joked about the "exploding head" at the same table, and it seemed to be a little unsociable in the eyes of these classmates in the back row.

At this time, one of Liu He's roommates, Chen Jinyao, the second generation of officials, has been pursuing Qiu Yanmo, so he dragged the relationship to pressure the head teacher to ask for a transfer, and the head teacher, who has always been inflammatory, quickly arranged him to be at the same table with Qiu Yanmo according to his wishes.

In this way, Liu He's sensitive heart felt more and more unfair, lying in the dormitory after the lights went out at night and listening to Chen Jinyao chatting with interest about the bits and pieces between him and Qiu Yanmo, he began to be numb and extremely depressed, he began to think about what Pan Wenjing was doing at this time, imagining what Pan Wenjing's learning environment was like, and what her classmates were like.

After that, the mock exams were all taken separately, and the top 35 scores stayed in the classroom, and the bottom 40 scores had to hold a stool and take their documents to the second floor of the cafeteria.

Every time he went to the restaurant for the exam, Liu He always felt extremely humiliated and silent, while Wang Meng was full of interest and emotion, and kept saying that he could eat directly after the exam, and then smirked a few times.

At night, he always listened to his roommates constantly praising Qiu Yanmo, it seemed that Qiu Yanmo was really a "goddess" without any shortcomings, which also made Liu He couldn't help but be more serious, and wanted to find the shortcomings of this "goddess", he began to pay attention to this beautiful girl intentionally or unintentionally, and couldn't help but look at Qiu Yanmo a few times during recess, and Qiu Yanmo also noticed it, and began to pay attention to Liu He quietly, Liu He, who sprouted in adolescence, began to fall into it a little, and slowly seemed to be brainwashed by the roommates' angry praise of Qiu Yanmo.

Slowly, as soon as she heard Qiu Yanmo's name, Liu He unconsciously paid attention to it, and when she heard her roommate talk about her, she would subconsciously listen.

However, he carried too much baggage in his heart, reason still prevailed, and he tried to restrain himself from touching his admiration, because he knew that studying was a heavy responsibility, and he didn't want to become the public enemy of the boys in the class, especially Chen Jinyao, and he didn't want to become as vulgar as the boys who circled around Qiu Yanmo.

But there are also trials, maybe they are tribulations, maybe they are opportunities, but there is no doubt that it will be a turning point.

In the evening, after listening to Chen Jinyao's story, I knew that Qiu Yanmo was too cold, he had always been very cold to him, and even had a sense of disgust for him, Chen Jinyao couldn't stand Qiu Yanmo's attitude, and he couldn't stand her hypocrisy, and he had turned against Qiu Yanmo and wanted to change his seat.

So he aimed at Liu He, who was sitting in the boys' pile, and begged to switch seats with Liu He, and Liu He was entangled, he wanted to go to the front row, but he was afraid that the head teacher would misunderstand that he had used the means, he told Jin Yao his idea, Jin Yao directly asked his father, who was the deputy district head, to greet the head teacher, and the next day Liu He was transferred to the front row and became the same table with Qiu Yanmo.

Before, Qiu Yanmo accidentally saw Liu He's father send a full-time driver to drive him to school, and when the "sleeping talks" of several girls' dormitories talked about which boy in the class was the most handsome, all of them voted for Liu He without exception. Qiu Yanmo also knew that Liu He's academic performance was very good, the standard family conditions were superior, and he was handsome and handsome, and she had begun to pay attention to Liu He since the last exam.

Naturally, Qiu Yanmo was both surprised and pleasantly surprised by Liu He's arrival, because she had a subtle affection for Liu He in her heart, although Liu He was silent and silent, Qiu Yanmo was familiar with herself, and she tried her best to give Liu He courtesy, and under the strong attack of the beauty, Liu He began to waver.

Gradually, Liu He changed his previous reserved and introverted attitude, and after talking to Qiu Yanmo about the high school entrance examination, he no longer had low self-esteem, and slowly became confident, and the two began to talk about nothing, watching Qiu Yanmo chatting with him so hotly, the boys in the class were extremely jealous of him.

Liu He also slowly got hot-headed, floated, actively answered in class, took the lead in raising his hand when encountering problems, and had a kind of domineering spirit that swept the whole class, chatting with Qiu Yanmo after class, full of expressiveness, and even the two people in the class whispered and no longer concentrated on studying.

Wang Meng sat in the back row and could see clearly, Liu He was no longer calm, and there was an indescribable faint worry in his heart, but Liu He didn't realize this at all, and even chatted with Qiu Yanmo in writing in the evening self-study.

And Wang Qianqian also quietly disappeared from Liu He's field of vision, perhaps because of her change of attitude and rejection, or because she was disheartened and took the initiative to avoid it.

For Liu He, perhaps "happiness" came too suddenly, and he thought it was compensation for his years of thorns.

At this time, Liu He's family industry was also stronger, the family's Passat was also replaced by a Mercedes-Benz car, the factory area continued to expand, and the number of employees continued to increase, Liu He began to realize that he may have been regarded as a standard second generation of small rich.

This made him even more frivolous, as if he wanted to vent his dissatisfaction with the head teacher, the unfairness of the exam, and all the pain and injustice he experienced!

He began to try his best to express himself, and began to spend money lavishly in life, inviting all the people in the dormitory to a big meal, asking the driver to take him and Qiu Yanmo to secretly go to the nearby tourist attractions to play on weekends, and even secretly went to bars and nightclubs in the city, and after evening self-study, his roommates pulled him to the Internet café to play games, Liu He, who had never experienced this kind of life, was immersed in this unprecedented freshness and satisfaction.

He began to indulge himself, began to fall in love boldly, and skipped class, as if this catharsis was always fighting, however, in this indulgent life, he was extremely unsteady in his heart, but he couldn't stop, or he couldn't turn back. At the instigation of his roommates, he even began to climb over the wall with his roommates after evening self-study, go to an Internet café to charter a venue, chat QQ and play games all night.

A few months have passed, autumn has gone to winter, and Liu He's long-awaited final exams have begun, and after crazy indulgence and venting, he still has to face reality.

Picked up the stool and walked to the cafeteria, watching Qiu Yanmo sitting in the classroom for the exam, looking at the class teacher's unchanging contemptuous eyes, and looking at Wang Meng who went to the cafeteria exam with him, he knew that he had not changed anything, and there was still a trace of expectation in the loss, but he was still looking forward to the shame of this exam!