Chapter 6: The contents of the suicide note (2)
"I don't know which straw was the last straw that broke the camel's back, but it's like no snowflake is innocent in an avalanche. I can't blame anyone, and I can't blame anyone, I can't even blame my emotions. Suddenly, everything felt so strange, facing the traffic on the road, forgetting who he was, and being out of place with this noisy street.
I can't find the meaning of life anymore, I've done my best just to live, I seem to have lost my happiness and happiness, I will collapse because of a little thing, I will feel sad inexplicably, I will also feel numb to some commonplace things, I am really tired of living, I want to live this life quickly.
I don't know what's wrong with me, I can't see myself more and more, I don't know what I want, I don't know what I should do, I feel inexplicably sad and want to cry when I'm alone. The idea of suicide is constantly wandering in my mind, and I have thought about various ways to die one by one, and the fear of pain has become very small in the face of wanting to die, so I want to just go to sleep, so that I will not be tired.
I don't want to see people who care about me sad, but please forgive me for my cowardice, I'm really tired of persevering, I want to give up, I want to think about it. If I'm really gone, you must not be sad, for the sake of me not being worthy, I just let myself go, and I hope you can let me go.
Thank you Dr. Gu for taking care of me for the past six months, I still have to give up on myself, I am really embarrassed to let you down for such a long time of comfort and guidance! This time I'm finally liberated.
I was especially fortunate to meet him at the end of my life, it was he who gave me the courage to end, because of him, I was able to turn the truest thoughts in my heart into reality, he was like a lighthouse, showing me the way in the darkness, allowing me to escape from the shackles of this darkness. ”
After reading this suicide note, Lu Jie closed his eyes, clenched his fists, his breathing became heavy, and looked up at Wen Shan, as if he knew the abnormality after reading the suicide note, he thought that Wen Shan should have guessed the one mentioned in this suicide note, maybe it was the "pervert" who everyone thought was dead a few years ago-Mo.
He is a heinous bastard, but also a demon from hell, he is moody, in the name of justice, to do something illegal and undisciplined, he has never taken life and the law into account, if someone wants to destroy his game, he will bite you like a mad dog, and he will not die.
Lu Jie asked Wang Daming and his wife superfluously, "Do you know who the person mentioned at the end of Xiaozhe's suicide note is?" ”
Wang Daming shook his head and said: "We don't know about this, Xiaozhe has never mentioned this person to us, you can go and ask Doctor Xiagu, compared to us, Xiaozhe is more willing to tell him what he has in his heart, does this person have anything to do with Xiaozhe's suicide?" ”
When Lu Jie was about to say something, Wenshan hurriedly said: "We will go to Doctor Gu, it is not clear now, what the specific situation will be known after investigation, can we take this suicide note first?" ”
Wang Daming glanced at his wife, turned to us and said, "Okay, if it's of any use to your investigation, you can take it." ”
After Wenshan comforted Wang Daming and his wife, he and Lu Jie turned around and left.