Xiao Xia, how are you doing? Mom hasn't contacted you for a long time, because looking at you from afar across the mountains and the sky is nothing to you. Mom often comforts herself that her former mother, who has not been separated from your father, will not be able to touch you or touch you at that time. You are with your grandmother, in your hometown, and your mother doesn't know when you'll come to see your mother, and your mother doesn't know when you're leaving because of something going on at your grandmother's house. So we were the same then and we are now. Mom didn't lose you more because of the severance of the relationship with Dad, because Mom had already lost you. Mom didn't get more from you because there was a trace of marriage, because at that time, Mom gave up her freedom and gave up on you for the sake of so-called family harmony.

Xiao Xia, how much my mother regrets it. Mom wants to be able to hold you to sleep. Mom now remembers that when you were born, you couldn't sleep all night, Mom stood in the living room, hugged you and sang, as long as Mom stopped, you would open your eyes gently, Mom continued to sing, not only singing, Mom also hugged you in circles. At that moment, I hope to stop forever.

Xiao Xia, her mother can't remember when the termites that eat away at freedom began to disintegrate her mother. Mom doesn't even think it's your grandma, it's your dad, it may be a deep seed, it starts from your grandma, grandpa, or it may start before mom is born. Freedom, probably like the umbilical cord, is cut at the time of the mother's birth.

When you were about to be born, your mom was at your grandma's house and your dad was in the city where he worked. Mom walks around every day with a big belly. You gurgle in your stomach and go along with the walk. At that time, you and your mother shared your mother's unfreedom. My mother is like a woman, who should be like in a certain era, and was pushed out by her mother's family to make her in-laws responsible. Mother is like a woman, who should be like in a certain era, listening to her husband's arrangement, and only seeking stability. Xiao Xia, this story has taken a sharp turn is a big tragedy, we put on the coat of modernity, see through this rotten core, and more importantly, watch the people in front and behind to deny their corruption and selfishness, and watch them cut off the freedom of you and me, who were once a body.

Xiaoxia, my mother sometimes thinks that if my mother doesn't think so much, my mother is obedient, my mother is content, and my mother doesn't use yin and yang eyes to see those decays, those helpless decays that are swallowed up by reality and exposed, then my mother will be happy. Like a madman, adapted, happy haha giggles. However, my mother saw through these people and things.

Xiao Xia, to this day, my mother is still not independent, or not independent enough, otherwise my mother should take you away from that whole place, which is like an ocean. In the past, this is now, all because my mother is not independent enough and not courageous enough. Mom is a woman with a high income, a high education, and a woman who looks exactly like the new era. But my mother is not independent, my mother is an old woman in her bones, so old that her mother was not born yet. Mom didn't have the courage to shake it all off, and Mom didn't dare to save you.

Xiao Xia, my mother actually sees hope. Because when my mother saw herself, it was different from the original. Mom is now observing herself like a floating ghost, and Mom wants to catch the self who is not independent and timid, as long as she sees it, Mom's ghost will pounce out, strangle and strangle, and immediately strangle this person. Mom wants to live a different way.

But did you know that a lot of times moms are very lazy and always get used to the old way. The look of the past struggle, the degree of the past struggle, the kind of self-soothing poison that casually fights and meanings, sleeping on the bed and wearing a mask of resistance, makes my mother lazily think that she is a woman in the new era. Mom isn't, mom isn't at all.

Mom wants to please others, just like a woman of a certain era should be. Open the door and greet forward. To be the next thing. Grab your slippers. To help take off the coat as if the muscles in their back were strained. Set the dishes and chopsticks. To wash the dishes. Make the bed. To this. To that.

You just need to do it, but if the mind doesn't obey, you can't do it. I also feel that I shouldn't contradict it, I feel that what others say is right, I feel that I still have a long way to go, I feel that what I need is a stable life, and I must be timid and afraid of things.

No. Mommy don't. Mom thinks it's pathetic for those who want to control me. People who are so old, so helpless, who can only use old customs to demand their mothers, are the most incompetent people. In the end, I can only say, I am your elder. In the end, I can only say, you can quibble. In the end, I can only say, I am right. It's like truth, like a Nobel Prize winner in literature, like a selfish skin so obvious and worthy of pride. These people are forever begging for affirmation in a tough way. And my mother didn't want to give anymore.

Natsu, what will you be like? You're in that house, and I've heard that they're all spoiling you. You and mom won't be the same. Our life experiences are so different. Xiao Xia, will you be someone like your sister-in-law? She grew up where you were. Or will you be like your dad? No, Mom knows you won't be like your dad because you only have grandma now, and your dad was at least two parents when he was a kid. Either way, you're going to be very different from your mom. Mom last called you and heard your southern accent, Xiaoxia, you and Mom won't be the same.

Mom hopes that you will be able to say what you want to say at any time in the future, do what you want to do, and be brave enough to take on your own responsibilities. Xiao Xia, the protagonist of this game is you, don't be blocked by people who get in the way, don't be told, you are good or bad, you just have to make your own decisions.

Mom is now lying alone in a messy bed, not eating, not talking, not facing difficulties for two days, Mom has done nothing, Mom hates and resents, Mom has not done anything. Mom can hear that the outside world is business as usual, hear the victors snorting melon seeds and watching TV at the door, they are like guards and prisoners to discipline Mom, otherwise they will feel their own incompetence and the meaninglessness of life, sad.

Xiao Xia, when I think that the person I need to fight is your grandma and grandfather, and it was your grandma and father who have fought in the past, my mother feels that this game is very exciting, and my mother is also very scared, but this is the first step, isn't it?