Xiao Xia, although her mother and father are divorced, they still live together.

When the divorce was not signed, my father tried his best to keep my mother, hoping that after the divorce, we can still live together for a long time, just like roommates, so that we can take better care of you. Dad even said that the future and mom can try to start over, the future, who knows, maybe later feel that the two of them can be together again. Mom didn't agree at the time, but she was a little gentle in her heart.

At that time, my mother thought that this was what the book said, and when they were separated, it was normal for both people to have a reversal of attitude. That is, the guilty person feels indebted, and the person who has been let down feels reluctant. So in these last days, it's easy to create the illusion that everything can be repaired and that everything is fine. Mom also explained to Dad that his current attitude is just based on this truth, and it is not true. But at the time he said he didn't think so, he thought he was from the heart and had a reason. And his mother believed him in that moment.

But after signing, everything took a turn for the worse, and the storm took a turn. From the moment Mom and Dad signed, Dad's attitude changed strongly. The previous melancholy and detours are gone, and Dad has become a person who competes for size. If it was refined egoism before, it is almost brutal egoism now.

Here the mother should also reflect on herself, the mother is also a person who fights for herself, not a dedicated and fearless person. If so, maybe there would be no such contradiction. If your dad was, maybe there wouldn't be this contradiction.

After signing, my mother bought the house quickly, but the renovation was not yet completed, so she still lived under the same roof as my father, and wanted to wait for the simple renovation to finish before moving in. But this time, I received an ultimatum from my father and had to move out as soon as possible.

If at the beginning my mother didn't understand why my father tried his best to keep him when he got divorced, now my mother thinks that my father's request is reasonable. However, this short-term change in attitude, along with the change of marital status, is almost no different from my mother's own mentality, but my father is already a different person. All these changes really made my mother scratch her head. If it was pretended to be at the beginning, then what more benefits could be won by Dad's gentle attitude full of pity. Mom didn't understand, and of course it didn't matter anymore.

But the current situation made my mother lose her trust in my father. Maybe it's too late to say trust, and it's not just now when mom loses it. Dad knew that Mom's distrust had reached a very extreme level, so he stopped pretending.

In the past, when my mother was married, she never asked about your father's financial situation, never inquired about his whereabouts, gave her salary completely, and discussed matters with your father one after another. Mom thinks that these behaviors should show that Mom once trusted your dad very much.

And my mother got married this round, and so far I don't know where my money is going, I have never been excluded from my life plan about you, and family arrangements have never been discussed together. It also shows a certain degree of trust that your dad has in his mother.

Anyway, now Mom has turned a hundred and eighty degrees from her self at that time, and your dad has completely turned his back, and the two of them are back to back, completely distrusting each other. It can be regarded as a true portrayal of this marriage period.

It's not just a shift in trust. The relationship between Mom and Dad is also tense, and if they can't say a word, they have to raise their eyebrows coldly. Treat each other maliciously open their mouths to tell lies, specifically reverse logic, and talk about the east and the west. Mom even felt that Dad would do it again, and now that he was doing it at this time, compared with before, it was a simple violence without restraint and repentance.

Mom's disgust with Dad these days has reached the extreme. Almost even looking at his face, I felt disdainful. And when dad looks at mom, he always has the same expression as he did to mom before.

A little bit earlier, Dad's attitude was even better. He supported the transfer of the house with a pleasant face. Mom is a bit stupid in comparison, when others are kind and pleasant, she is kind and happy. When others turn their faces, they turn their faces. There is no clear purpose, and it is very passive. Growing up to such a big point, it still hasn't been purpose-oriented, and it's self-defeating.

Xiao Xia, Mom's description of this kind of thing, so naked to reveal the unbearable appearance of Mom and Dad now, is because Mom wants to tell you that after love or even a sacred marriage has passed, there may be some colorful shells on the remaining mottled beach, but more of it is the pile of garbage brought up after the ocean is polluted. As a woman, my mother was fully committed to others, without reservation, in order to be treated sincerely, hoping to be understood and cared for. But after love, no matter how much you give, and how much you dig out your heart and lungs, what you leave behind is still only a very real humanity, and it is also the reality of real life. These are all things that women, or mothers themselves, are unwilling to imagine and believe when love comes, when they are in love.

We always feel that we are different, and we will not face the reality of the situation, because there is always affection, because there is always nostalgia.

But Xiaoxia, when the sense of reality came, the affection that her mother once cared about was completely vulnerable. Mom thought that there should be a trace of affection, which could be as weak as spider silk in the wind in the face of very meager money.

After Dad decided that Mom would never trust him again, and Mom would never understand him again, he completely changed as a person. He became, the real person his mother thinks is now, a person he originally had, but his mother has always ignored him. It's like a machine without lubricant, crunching. He used to run so freely and quietly, but it was only because his mother's childish fantasies lubricated his mind.

Xiao Xia, with a person, maybe such moments are important. The true emotions exposed in the urgency of the crisis. At that time, the emotions that are exposed to you are the essence of your emotions. Mom's example is not good, because Dad left early. Not only do we not have the opportunity to share joys and sorrows, but we also have no opportunity to share them. But sometimes, the feeling that a person gives you, although nothing, may also be used as a reference.

Mom used to fantasize about a scene in which she would bring in two characters, herself and her lover, as if in a game simulation, to imagine what would happen. It was the moment of war, the smoke of gunpowder was filled, everyone was deserted, you and your lover ran to the dock in the rain of bullets, and the boat was about to leave, and there was no delay for a minute. But suddenly, you are hit by a bullet in the calf, and you are on your knees, unable to move a step, and the man, he didn't notice that you stopped at first, and he is still rushing forward. You can't make a sound in pain, and you kneel in pain. Your lover finds that you have left the group, he turns around, and when he sees you, will he come back and help you continue to escape, or will he hesitate or run away first?

This scene always echoed in my mother's mind. Back then, the role that your dad gave in your mother's mind always left early. Later he also practiced this role.

Maybe the meaning of such an assumption is very shallow, but Xiao Xia, if a person can't bear the challenges and pressures in your fantasies, for you, support you, then the reality will be such a real burden that it will make him completely change his face in times of danger.

Xiao Xia, the sense of reality after the breakup is a fantasy to be grasped before falling in love. What if this person is too late, but still gentle?