Chapter 34: Confronting

An An's mood seemed to be a little unstable. And when she came home today, I noticed that there was some redness around her eye sockets, which she must have cried. Hatsuyama pinched his eyebrows, his words full of worry.

Chu Ziming listened to Chu Shan's words, and probably guessed something in his heart, "Dad, don't worry. An An has been doing well recently, and she is willing to take the initiative to go back this year, which is already a good phenomenon. And after I met An An, I also felt that she was much more cheerful than before, and I think her psychological problems will gradually recover. ”

After listening to Chu Ziming's words, Chu Shan was somewhat relieved and breathed a sigh of relief, "Ziming, your sister is back today, you should come back tonight too." ”

Chu Ziming didn't know what was wrong, and his mood was suddenly a little low, "Okay." ”

After ending the call with Chu Ziming, Chu Shan walked out of the study, came to Chu Zi'an's room, and knocked lightly on the door twice, "An An, I'm going to go to the supermarket to buy groceries in a while, do you want to go together?" ”

"Okay, Dad, wait for me, I'll clean it up right away." Chu Zi'an's movements couldn't help but speed up. Since Fang Yunfan's death, Chu Zi'an rarely went out, and almost all the things he needed were bought by Aunt Yun. In her memory, she had never been so close to Hatsuyama.

After everything was cleaned up, Chu Zi'an quickly went downstairs, and Chu Shan was already waiting in the hall.

Seeing Chu Zi'an's petite figure, he smiled and stretched out his hand to her, "Let's go, An An." ”

Although Chu Zi'an's home is in a villa area, it is not too remote, and there is a large department store in less than ten minutes by car. The two of them entered the mall, pushed a shopping cart and wandered slowly.

"An An, is there anything you particularly want to eat?"

Looking at the dazzling array of goods on the shelves, Chu Zi'an thought for a moment, "Hmm...... Sweet and sour fish, and tomato brisket soup. ”

Hatsuyama smiled dotingly, "Okay." ”

Seeing that there were more and more things in the shopping cart, Chu Zi An pulled Chu Shan's arm, "Dad, why do you buy so many vegetables, we can't eat them." ”

"It's okay, you're back, Dad is happy."

Hearing this, Chu Zi was very happy in her heart, she grabbed Chu Shan's arm and happily rested her head on Chu Shan's shoulder.

After the two of them returned home, Hatsuyama began to be busy in the kitchen. After Chu Zi'an went to the room to change into a set of comfortable home clothes, he also came to the kitchen to help Chu Shan.

Chu Shan originally wanted to cook eight dishes, but under Chu Zi'an's persuasion, he only made six dishes.

By the time Chu Ziming came back, the last dish was almost ready.

After entering the door, Chu Ziming casually took off his coat on the sofa and walked straight to the kitchen. Chu Zi'an was holding a bowl of hot soup in his hand, and Chu Ziming stepped forward to take it, "Come, An'an, give it to me." ”

Chu Zi'an glanced up at Chu Ziming, and before he could speak, the bowl in his hand had been carefully taken by Chu Ziming.

After delivering a bowl of soup, Chu Ziming came to the kitchen again and took the last dish from Chu Shan's hand, "Dad." ”

Chu Shan didn't say anything, looked at Chu Ziming and smiled with satisfaction.

This dinner can be said to be the warmest dinner Chu Zi'an has had in the past two years.

Although Chu Ziming on the side also had a smile on his face, the smile was somewhat heavy. After thinking for a long time, Chu Ziming slowly spoke, "Dad, I'll move back in the future." ”

I didn't expect Chu Ziming to suddenly say this, Chu Shan looked at him, "Why did you suddenly say that?" ”

"Dad, Mom is gone, An An and I are living outside, and I don't worry about leaving you alone at home. It was me who was wrong, and I shouldn't have thought about myself and not my family. Chu Ziming's voice was mixed with a bit of remorse, a little heavy.

For Chu Ziming's son, Chu Shan can be said to have no dissatisfaction, if he has to say one, then he blames Chu Ziming for saying too much to Chu Zi'an when that incident happened. But Chu Ziming was also a child at that time, and Chu Shan couldn't reprimand him.

Hatsuyama frowned, "I'm not old enough to be able to handle my hands and feet. Besides, you live outside and are closer to where you work. ”

"But, Dad......"

Chu Shan shook his hand to Chu Ziming a little impatiently, "Okay, okay, you can come back to see me often when the time comes." ”

Chu Ziming knew that it was difficult to change what Chu Shan decided, so he didn't talk about moving back to live.

After dinner, Chu Zi'an wanted to clean up the dishes and chopsticks, but was "driven out" by Chu Ziming, "Brother, what are you doing here?" ”

Chu Ziming pressed his hands on Chu Zi'an's shoulders, and his eyes stared at Chu Zi'an's eyes for a moment. He glanced up at the outside of the kitchen, deliberately lowered his voice and said to Chu Zi'an, "An An, did you cry when Yiyang went to the station today?" ”

Chu Zi'an stiffened, she knew that she couldn't fool Chu Ziming, so she could only nod, and then argued a little anxiously, "Brother, don't blame Professor Lin, he is very good to me, really!" ”

understood the meaning of Chu Zi'an's words, coupled with her anxious expression, Chu Ziming understood, Chu Zi'an mistakenly thought that he blamed Lin Yiyang for making her cry, Chu Ziming changed his serious expression just now, and said relaxedly, "Don't worry, my brother will not destroy the relationship between the two of you." But An'an, you have to tell me, what is the situation of your illness? If you don't tell me, I'm going to interfere in your life. ”

Chu Zi'an knew that she couldn't hide it, and after she tilted her head slightly to make sure that Chu Shan couldn't hear it, she whispered her situation, "I used to take sleeping pills when I had big mood swings, but since Professor Lin found out that I was taking medicine, I haven't taken it again." Brother, I didn't mean to, I just ...... I just don't want you to worry, I don't want you to blame yourself. ”

Knowing that Chu Zi'an was still taking medicine, Chu Ziming's face suddenly became much uglier.

Seeing that Chu Ziming's face changed, Chu Zi'an was a little uneasy, "Brother, I was wrong, don't be angry, don't tell your father, okay?" ”

Seeing that Chu Zi'an was about to cry, Chu Ziming's expression immediately softened, and he pulled Chu Zi'an into his arms in distress, "Silly sister, I just blame myself and I won't blame you." It's not that I don't understand you. But An An ...... I'm still worried about you......"

"Brother, it's not that my condition is really that serious when I take medicine. When I was a child, I woke up crying every night during that time, and when I closed my eyes, I would have that terrible image in my mind, and I was so scared. I don't want to think about that day, so every time I feel that my emotions are a little unstable, I take medicine, just because I am afraid that I will not be able to sleep well and dream about the incident when I was a child. To put it bluntly, I just don't dare to face that incident......" Chu Zi'an told a little bit, listening to it really made Chu Ziming feel distressed beyond words.

The strength in Chu Ziming's hand gradually increased, as if he wanted to put Chu Zi'an's flesh in his body, "An An, don't be afraid, there is my brother, all of us are here." ”

Chu Zi'an stretched out his hand and gently hugged Chu Ziming, "Brother, I want to go to my mother's grave and visit her." ”

Hearing Chu Zi'an say such words, Chu Ziming closed his eyes in distress, "Okay." I'll be with you. Mom would be happy if she knew. ”

In the fifteen years since Fang Yunfan's death, Chu Zi'an has never dared to face Fang Yunfan, dare not see all the items related to her, and dare not go to the cemetery to visit her. Chu Zi'an didn't have the slightest sadness for Fang Yunfan's death, but she felt guilty and blamed herself for her mother, she felt that she had no face to see her, no face to visit her.

After coming out of the kitchen, Chu Zi'an went straight back to the room. Not long after closing the door, her cell phone rang. Seeing the caller ID clearly, Chu Zi'an immediately smiled, "Professor Lin? Have you arrived at the hotel? ”

"Hmm. Just checked in. What about you, have you eaten properly? Lin Yiyang's voice is always so gentle, warming Chu Zi'an's heart little by little.

Chu Zi'an sat down on the thick carpet next to the bed, leaned back on the edge of the bed, bent his knees, wrapped his free hands around his knees, and shrunk into a small ball, "I ate a big bowl of rice tonight." What about you, Professor Lin, you shouldn't have eaten yet, right? ”

Lin Yiyang casually put the suitcase aside, pinched his eyebrows a little tiredly, and walked to the kettle prepared by the hotel to boil water, "Not yet, I've been in the car for a day, and I'll eat after resting for a while." ”

"Professor Lin, you remember to eat something that is easy to digest, and have a good rest tonight."

Lin Yiyang, who was on the other side, replied lightly, "Chu Ziming told me that you went home, right?" ”

I didn't expect Chu Ziming to contact Lin Yiyang, so it is understandable that he suddenly asked about his condition today. Since Lin Yiyang knew that she was going home, she must have known that she cried again today, "Hmm." School is out for the holidays and you're going to the seminar again, so I'm back. Again, I miss my dad too and want to come back to accompany him. Professor Lin, I am going to visit my mother at the cemetery tomorrow, and after 15 years, I finally dare to see my mother. ”

Lin Yiyang patiently listened to Chu Zi'an's words, and waited until she finished speaking before he slowly spoke, "I think Auntie will be very happy, her An An has grown so big." ”

Chu Zi'an tilted his head and pillowed on the side of the bed, "Professor Lin, you are so good." For my future life, I have thought about many situations, but I never thought that I would meet someone who likes me, loves me, and is willing to be with me for the rest of my life. I used to be cautious, even if I was tired of living like this, I didn't want to expose myself too much to life, and I didn't want to let more people get close to me. But after meeting you, I gradually began to regret it, I wanted to get out of my encirclement, I wanted to see the outside world, to see you outside. ”

Lin Yiyang propped himself on the cabinet with one hand, "An An, I'm very pleased." ”

"Professor Lin, I have one more thing I want to say to you," Chu Zi'an paused for a few seconds and said in a serious tone, "I'm sorry. ”