Yang Ziru has no intention of working at all.

The only person who knows Yang Ziru in the world may be Liu Su. The white tulips on the desk are about to wither, and Liu Su hasn't come to the company to send him flowers for a long time. Last night's Liu Su was so glamorous and moving, as innocent and noble as a white tulip.

asked the secretary to make a cup of coffee, and Yang Ziru stood silently in front of the floor-to-ceiling window of the office. This steel forest is full of traffic, and his mood is so complicated. The coffee tastes like sugar cubes. Only Liu Su knew that Yang Ziru didn't like to add anything when drinking coffee. He didn't tell his secretary about it, not because he didn't want to say it, but because he didn't bother to say it.

Yang Ziru is a paradoxical lifeform. Obviously very careful about many things, but after it really happens, he won't go to the tip of the bull's horns.

Some people think he is open-minded. But only he knows. When something happens, it can't be changed. It's like this cup of coffee, you don't know if you put sugar when you drink it. Even after rebrewing a cup without sugar, he still took a sip of coffee with sugar on it.

A few days ago, he was diagnosed with HIV.

When he learned the news, he was terrified for a while and then calmed down.

He prides himself on being a man of self-love. In this life, I have only had a relationship with Liu Su and Chen Qing.

It's not Liu Su, it's Chen Qing.

He didn't dare to confirm it, and he didn't want to confirm it. No matter how you think about this kind of thing, you will suffer from yourself.

If it's a grievance, you deserve it. 's own derailment should not be blamed on Chen Qing.

He doesn't see his marriage as a failure. But he both had extramarital affairs, what about Liu Su? He felt that he was not worthy of doubting Liu Su.

But some memories will never be dusty. When he and Chen Qing broke up, he didn't want to dwell on who was right and who was wrong, but the feeling that made him so painful that he couldn't breathe at that time was now manifested again.

He clutched his chest and curled up on the couch.

Shortly after his diagnosis, Lan Qing appeared.

Yang Ziru knew in his heart that even if HIV was diagnosed, there would be no sudden onset of illness without special circumstances.

But the man said he was dying.

Maybe it's a natural disaster, maybe it's a man-made disaster.

Thinking about it, Yang Ziru fell asleep lying on the sofa.

When I woke up, the sun was about to set. looked at the time, it was already seven o'clock, and he told Liu Su that he had a party tonight and would not go home for dinner.

The sunset outside the window shines through the floor-to-ceiling windows in the office, and the bright white tulips on the desk are quietly inserted in a vase.

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It is said that a person like Chen Qing should choose an upscale location to meet people.

However, the place where she and Yang Ziru met was an ordinary fly restaurant that could no longer be ordinary.

Today's presentation is also different from the past, there are no gorgeous clothes, no gaudy makeup. But she was still very beautiful, sitting silently in the corner of the restaurant in a daze.

This restaurant existed before she met Yang Ziru, and it has been open until now, and it is also a place where the two often went when they were in love before.

Yang Ziru once made an oath to her here.

"This small restaurant is not short of years, and the owner said that it was left to his father by his grandfather, and his father passed it on to him."

Chen Qing laughed while eating,

"What the hell are you trying to say?"

Yang Ziru touched his head,

"Love, I want to say I love you. The love between us must have outlasted the existence of this restaurant! ”

At that time, Yang Ziru was very young, and the promises made when he was young were worthless, but the feelings at that time were true.

Now, the diner is still there, and so is the man who made the promise. But this promise is like the youth of the two of them, and it is gone with the wind.

Thinking of this, Chen Qing's eyes were full of tears.

After meeting Lan Qing and them, she told herself that she would never cry again. But as long as Yang Ziru appeared in her mind, she couldn't help but want to cry. She shed lowly tears.

"Why are you crying again?" Yang Ziru appeared next to her,

"I still cry as much as I used to."

Yang Ziru took out a tissue and handed it to Chen Qing. Chen Qing took it silently, did not speak, and did not wipe away tears.

The two were silent for a long time, and Chen Qing spoke first.

"If you're hungry, eat first."

Yang Ziru didn't order, it was all about feelings. Although the small restaurant is not big, the food tastes good, which is why it has been open for so long.

Yang Ziru didn't move his chopsticks, and quietly watched Chen Qing eat.

"Ziru, do you love me?"

Chen Qing suddenly came to such a sentence.

Yang Ziru looked at her, wanting to open her mouth but couldn't. He struggled inside, he wasn't sure. His heart is not to love to show affection, and what he said at night with her, 'Love, I love you' is more like a play.

But does he really dare to say that he doesn't love that? He didn't dare. He began to fall in love with Chen Qing at the age of eighteen and broke up at the age of twenty-six. For eight years, the two were lovers and relatives. Yang Ziru was withdrawn by nature and cold by nature. He regards Chen Qing as his only family member and his lover.

The vows that were once made would not be false.

Chen Qing may have expected Yang Ziru's speech. paid the bill and wanted Yang Ziru to go out for a walk with her.

"Is that question hard to answer?" Chen Qing asked.

The night is beautiful and the stars decorate the night sky. The two of them under the starry sky are talented and beautiful, and they attract passers-by like a fairy couple.

"No, but what can you do after answering?" Yang Ziru still did not give an accurate answer.

Chen Qing knows that there may be no answer to this question. is like the story between them, no matter how much family affection and love there is, there will be no ending.

"Liu Su really loves you, unlike me, for more than ten years, I don't know what you like to eat, every time I eat, I order it to my taste. I thought that after so many years, your tastes would have changed with me, but I didn't expect it to be like this. In the past, when we were together, you would eat a little, but now you don't even move your chopsticks. ”

Chen Qing raised his head and looked at the stars. With her hands behind her back, the breeze ruffled the hem of her skirt. At night, she seemed to be back to the age of eighteen, pure and lovely.

"I really want to love you again, I know that you can't cross that hurdle in your heart, and so do I."

"But I can't let you go, in my heart you are a child who can't grow up, you used to be, and you still are." Chen Qing said, crying again.

"Ziru, forgive me. I can't help it. I...... I can't control myself! ”

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