The wish is good, and the hard work is commendable, but everything is inseparable from hard work, and after the part-time job episode like a play, my parents and I are nervously engaged in preparing for the medical examination.

The "relationship" that my father found was a relative of my grandmother's neighbor, and it is said that the two of them were once classmates, eating and living together, and even spending money together, and the relationship was not ordinarily good, and all my hopes of becoming a soldier were pinned on him.

My grandmother's neighbor was a very simple mountain village farmer, and for this reason, he took me and my parents to visit his classmates several times, and he never got bored, never shirked, and treated it as his own business, and was very enthusiastic, which particularly touched me.

Later, I was admitted to the military academy and visited my grandmother's house, and every time I had to go to his house to sit and bring some snacks, I always excused myself for a while, not many times, because they eventually went out of the mountains, joined the ranks of part-time workers, moved out with their families, and never came back.

Under his leadership, I figured out the way, my parents asked me to go around when I was fine, as a relative to visit, bring some "fire-baked fish" and "dried bamboo shoots" and other local products, this old man will be enthusiastic to leave me to eat every time, with a purpose as a motive is not pure, I feel embarrassed to go too much.

Age is limited, the last chance, my parents are nervous, I am even more nervous, I can only strengthen my confidence through frequent walking, although the elder promised to do his best, but I am still worried, for fear of some accidents, I rushed to the county seat every once in a while, on the pretext of visiting, to probe a sigh.

When I was the commander in charge of the army, I once persuaded my soldiers that their fate is often in the hands of a certain person at a certain time, and guided them to respect the leadership, unite with comrades, develop the habit of being cautious, and develop a style of paying attention to words and deeds.

Conscription into the army was a fate-changing moment for me, and it was indeed in the hands of others, and the staff of the local armed forces, the doctors who underwent medical examinations, and the cadres who received the troops, all of which could make me miss out on entering the army.

Therefore, no matter which one it is, I am very careful, and I have restrained all the arrogance and arrogance, including the things that my parents confessed, I no longer refute them, take them seriously, and do my best to complete them, and the great side of my parents has begun to become clear again after a period of accumulation.

"Entrusting relationships" and "going through the back door" has become a tacit thing in that era, no matter what you do, what comes to mind is not laws and procedures, but the first thing that comes to mind must be "acquaintances" and "relationships".

It is precisely because of the prevalence of the trend of "trusting relationships" and "going through the back door" that during our physical examination, in order to prevent "acquaintances" from releasing water or making obstacles, several buses carried us, the young recruits, to several places to complete the physical examination.

When it was my turn to check whether there were any defects in my body, I was naked and heard the whispers of the two people on the side, "Such a good body, where is it bad, it doesn't matter, no matter how good it is, it's useless." "It's not emotional, it's nervous, and I don't know if the last year will be fulfilled.

It is superfluous to worry, so the elders made a special mention of me at the conscription meeting, saying that they are eager to enlist in the army, have good physical fitness, and have a high level of education, and such an excellent source of soldiers should be sent to the ranks by all means, so as to strengthen our national defense strength.

Perhaps it was his persistence that persuaded others in the conscription work to allocate an additional quota from the county seat to me, but if it weren't for such efforts, maybe I would still not be able to compete with the cadres in the township, and I would not have been able to participate in this conscription.

At about the end of November, the armed forces department beat gongs and drums in the bath and delivered the bright red enlistment notice to my house, as if I woke up from a dream.

The glory of a person joining the army and the whole family is not only a slogan, but indeed a social concern and respect expressed by the country to the youth who dedicate themselves to national defense.

Because my hukou was in Yuxia Middle School, the school also attached great importance to my enlistment, and specifically asked me to come to the school to hold a farewell banquet for me before leaving.

His father originally drank a lot of alcohol and had strong control, and few people could persuade him to get drunk, and when he was young, someone had provoked him, and he drank a pound of liquor in front of everyone, and nothing happened.

At the farewell banquet, he didn't deliberately control it, he drank whatever teacher respected him, and some people respected me, knowing that I didn't drink, he also drank on his behalf. At that time, I thought he was in a happy mood, and after a difficult process, I finally achieved my wish to enlist in the army.

On the way back to school, my sister and I helped him walk alone, the field road was silent at night, only the three of us were in person, and suddenly saw him say goodbye to each other after the banquet, and lost his voice in pain.

said in his mouth that "a good man is not a soldier, and he is not a nail", constantly blaming himself for not having the ability, not educating his children to be admitted to college, not finding a relationship to recruit into the unit, and joining the army is not what he wants, and he is ashamed of his ancestors and ancestors.

At that moment, I knew that the resentment and blame after graduating from high school originally pierced his heart deeply and was deeply remembered by him, maybe later my sister was admitted to night college and got a college diploma, but also because of my father's crying this time.

I have never seen my father cry, this is the first time in my life, and it is so intense, several lines of tears have been buried deep in my heart since then, and the scene of quarreling with my parents during the period of being unemployed at home has appeared in front of me, with remorse, my heart is like a knife, I really hope that everything can be done again, I really hope to rewrite that ignorant history.

At that moment, it is really like waking up from a dream, no effort is fruitless, and the future is full of thorns, not only can I not move an inch, but also implicate my parents to follow me to overcome the thorns, how much suffering and how much torture I suffer.

December 15, 1993 was the most memorable day of my life. On this day, I finally put on my military uniform, and with my dreams, I embarked on the journey of becoming a soldier, but instead of the joy of getting my wish, I was unusually heavy, and I was overwhelmed by my father's tears.

On the day of departure, he put on the training uniform issued by the Armed Forces Department, and wore a particularly bright and large red flower issued by the Armed Forces Department on his chest, and came to the school early from home.

At this time, the headmaster had been replaced by a particularly young lad, probably not a few years older than me, and in his words, I made history, and the school had never sent outstanding young men to the army, so it had to be especially grand.

Unlike the enthusiasm of the principal and the teachers, it was unusually cold and snowy on this day, which had never been seen in a month like this in my hometown, and perhaps my father was in the same mood as this weather, and of course me.

The young teachers beat the gongs and drums vigorously, all the way from the bath middle school to the township, together with several young recruits from the township, got on a bus, and went to the county armed forces department to gather in the sound of gongs, drums and firecrackers in the township.

When I arrived at the county armed forces department, many people from other townships had already arrived, sending off and leaving, parting advice, and caring for each young recruit, just like me, wearing a green training uniform, a training hat, no epaulettes, no collar flowers, and no cockade.

They were more or less surrounded by a few relatives and friends to see them off, helping to carry their bags, carrying fruits or snacks in their hands, and I was the only one who was alone, with nothing but bags in my hands, and no one around me to see them off.

This may be my father's insistence, from this moment on, the road in the future has to be walked alone, he was only sent to the bath school, relatives had come to visit me to say goodbye, in that era each family gave me two hundred yuan, it was quite difficult, the mountain road was far away, and they could not arrive.

The elder who helped me to successfully enlist in the army made a move that I will never forget, he saw that I was alone, walked up to me and explained it carefully, and bought a large bag of fruit, so that I would not seem to be uncared about, and I would not be so embarrassed.

In his words, after several contacts, I found that I was honest, so he was willing to help me, and this kind of help was not until I embarked on the journey and became the richest warmth in the cold.

In this way, in a snowstorm, with my father's tears in my heart, deep self-blame and guilt, and with the determination to make some achievements, I left Fengxin, came to Nanchang, and stepped on the train to the barracks.

This is a special train, full of young recruits from all over the world, we were arranged in the same carriage, there was no contact with each other, we were all unfamiliar faces to me, and I was depressed, and I didn't want to talk much.

Young people are easy to get acquainted with, and then they are comrades-in-arms in the trenches, going to other places, and they have to help each other and take care of each other.

Through the thick glass of the train, there are still snowflakes flying, the plains are vast, and clumps of dead grass appear near the tracks from time to time, flying away from the bottom of the eye.

After nearly ten years of time and space travel, it seems that the green car is still riding, but the bottleneck of railway traffic has been improved, the travel speed is fast, there are few stops and waits, and there is a red "K" express next to the green car.

Late at night, the sound of the clatter in my ears, the regular slight swaying of the carriage, no longer hypnotic as it has been for ten years, everyone else is already asleep, looking at the scattered snowflakes outside the window, but I don't feel sleepy at all.

At the end of my education, I experienced a year and a half of social experience, the helplessness of job hunting, the frustration of enlisting in the army, the negativity of escaping, and the helplessness of part-time work.

Thoughts back to school, bit by bit, laughter and troubles, hardships and ups and downs, bold and passionate, melancholy and sadness, no matter what kind of feelings, at least there are classmates around, there are close friends to confide in, maybe this is a kind of harvest.

I didn't step into the hall of students' minds, but after many years of collective life, I have learned too much, there are forbearance and resistance, there are grievances and frivolity, there are comfort and sadness, especially in the three years of high school, I have learned to cherish friendship and learn to integrate feelings.

Looking back now, although what I did was a little naïve and a little lacking in progress, the main line was still obvious, that is, I never gave up the exploration, in the exploration, I kept trying, and I kept thinking about how to find a life path that suits me and find my own life positioning.

This is all wealth, the life of the army that is about to be faced, it is also a collective, and it is a highly concentrated collective, maybe I can take these gains, gallop in the pure land of the army, and enjoy my youth.