Lear didn't go out all day.

He locked the door behind his back and pressed the heavy object against the door. He knew it might not work, but he wanted to try.

He stayed alone in the dormitory, just like a lonely bird, obviously outside the window was Xintiandi, but he couldn't fly out. It wasn't his body and wings that were imprisoned in this cage, but the heart that flew into the sky.

He was afraid that once he flew into the air, he would no longer be himself. The bird, who had never flown before, never seemed to know the vastness of the sky, and he didn't want to know.

"Do you think the cabinet in front of the door can stop me?"

Li Er began to talk to himself again, and since he read the note that Li Er had left for him, he found that another self in his body began to appear uncontrollably and randomly.

"I don't know, I don't want you out. And I'm sane now, and I'm not going to let you occupy my body. ”

"You may be naïve. Do you think you can control your body now because you're sane? ”

Li Er stood up and took off his glasses.

"If you go out now, isn't it too early, the person I'm waiting for hasn't come yet."

With that, he removed the cabinet against the door, and without much effort.

Li Er was very thin, and it took a lot of effort for him to make this cabinet when he arrived at the door, but now this Li Er has done it easily.

"Nothing can stop me, not even myself. Don't get in the way of my guests. ”

Lear put his glasses back on.

I was amazed at what I saw. The person in his body can already control his body at will, he can come out when he wants to, and go back when he wants to.

Lear's psychological defense gradually collapsed, and he didn't know what the person in his body had gone through, and he would have such a big grudge against himself. So much so that he became the dominant person of this body, but he was passive.

One body, inhabited by two very different souls.

Li Er hurriedly took out a notebook, planning to write a letter to Lan Lan and ask her to protect herself.

No, it should be for someone else to bring Lan Lan.

He can't face Lan Lan anymore, if the 'he' in his body also appears when he sees Lan Lan, Li Er can't guarantee Lan Lan's safety.

Perhaps, only when you die, can the people around you be absolutely safe. Li Er's eyes were resolute, and the letter finally became his suicide note.

As the sun sets, the dim yellow sunlight casts a shadow on everything around us.

The flowers outside the window have bloomed, but they always can't raise their heads, and they are low like an angry child. The weeds around them grew wildly, full of smiles and inner satisfaction, growing towards the sky that did not belong to them.

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Li Er woke up.

The last moment he remembered was the back of the man in black and his own shouts, he knew it was not his own voice, and it seemed that the last collision in his body was that he had won.

He wasn't in a coma for long, the moon had just risen.

Stars shine in the night sky. Li Ertuo brought the letter to Lan Lan and left the school.

He wants to take out the "bomb" in his body that can explode at any time and destroy him.

"Do you think death can be a hundred?"

Not long after leaving school, a question appeared in Lear's mind, it was another Lear's voice.

The personality can now even know what it wants to do.

"If I die to keep the people around me safe, that's fine."

"Do you think I'm going to let you die easily? Don't forget, it's our body. ”

Li Er suddenly felt weak and his vision was blurred.

'He' is coming out.

"No...... Absolutely not. ”

Lear bit her tongue and tried to sober herself up. But the feeling of weakness lingered.

"I ...... I'm getting out of here! ”

"Can't let ...... Can't let Lan Lan find me. ”

"She's going to be in danger."

Li Er, who was already about to fall to the ground, suddenly got up again, and blood was already flowing from the corners of his mouth.

Lear wanted to leave here with his strong faith, but the other Lear was not a fuel-efficient lamp.

Hallucinations began to appear in front of Lear.

"Child, mommy is gone."

The woman who had appeared in the dream had appeared in front of Li Er again at this moment.

"That woman is our real mother."

A whisper rang in Lee's ear.

"Oh, yes. You've forgotten about her a long time ago. In order to forget the pain of parting, you even forget the memory of living with her. ”

"Look, that woman is so beautiful, that's our mother. We don't look like Li Xianghan's bastard at all, we all follow our mother's appearance. ”

The woman in front of her had been crying, her back to Lear. Lear couldn't see her appearance at all.

At this time, another self appeared beside Li Er.

What distinguishes him from Li Er is that his gray eyes are not covered by glasses, and they become energetic.

Lear waved his hand, and the scene in front of him was deflected.

The figure of Li'er's mother changed from her back to her front.

The woman was not beautiful at all and had a deep scar on her face.

"It's beautiful, it's a work of art." Li Er, who was beside him, said.

Lear's soul trembled as if it had been struck.

"Li Xianghan, this bastard, has put a scar on my artwork."

"If we survive, should we draw a scar on Li Xianghan's face together? Hahaha! ”

Lear's mind was filled with memories that had long been sealed.

This woman is indeed her own mother.

She is indeed very beautiful, and Lear's gray pupils are inherited from his mother.

That woman was obviously the most gorgeous flower of that era, she was independent, strong, brave, and studious, and her future must be smooth sailing.

It's a pity that she met Li Xianghan, a bastard who doesn't learn and doesn't know how to do anything. He was an alcoholic, gambling, and cheating in marriage.

His wife, who was a new-age woman, was imprisoned in this cage by the beast.

Who would have imagined that the trainers in the circus would one day be put in cages by orangutans.

The most terrifying thing in the world is the assimilation between people.

Li Xianghan wants to change his wife, he wants the little white rabbit in the cage to accompany him to gamble and drink heavily.

Learned, give a carrot. If you don't learn it, it's a whipping.

When Li Er was eight years old, his mother couldn't stand such torture and escaped from the house while Li Xianghan went out to drink.

Li Er had seen the scene of his mother being beaten and scolded with his own eyes, and it was really like an orangutan beating his animal trainer again.

Man will not give in easily, only brutes will be bought for a little favor, and they will be the first to obey.

She really is a pretty woman, and on the day she escaped, she wore a beautiful long white dress and her favorite lace-up heels.

"Child, mommy is gone."

Lear's glasses were bloodshot. The memory pained him. In this way, Lear in his body awakened his own memory.

He wanted to grab the woman, he wanted to call her Mommy.

But the woman went farther and farther, and Li Er couldn't catch up with her.

"Mom...... Mom! "Blood and tears fell together.

Lear suddenly understood why there was another self.

This feeling was really painful, and he really couldn't bear it himself. He wanted to say thank you to himself beside him, and finally understood why he wanted to come out so desperately. This time it hurts so much, what will it be like hundreds or thousands of times? Li Er didn't dare to think about it.

But Lear's heart calmed down again.

He didn't even want to kill himself, he wanted to go to his mother, he wanted to hug her. Say sorry to her, why did you forget her.

"Why apologize? Obviously she abandoned you! ”

"No, she never abandoned me, and she still loves me. She's abandoning you, you poor little wretch. ”

"Who do you say is the poor worm!"

Li Er suddenly came to his senses, and all the pictures around him froze, leaving only another Li Er standing in front of him and glaring at him.

That Li Er was a little irritable, he didn't expect this cowardly self to let go of the past so easily and accept it calmly.

"Thank you." Lear said,

"What?"

"Thank you for reminding me of her."

When Li Er woke up, he was standing on the side of the road, and across the road was the wharf. The cool sea breeze was blowing in his hair, and the lighthouse was shining on the sea in the distance, trying to show the way for those returning home. The stars in the sky decorate the night sky, and it is such a dark place, but there is a light that people have to pay attention to. Li Er looked at the sky, then at the lighthouse, and smiled softly.

Lan Qing was standing not far away, and he watched Li Er run all the way from school to here. In order to stay awake, the tongue is bitten out.

Why is he still laughing? Did 'he' come out? Lan Qing wondered in her heart.

"If that's the case, how should the story develop?"

Lan Qing knew the end of the story, and the ending of the story was doomed from the beginning.

But what Lan Qing didn't know was that there was a lighthouse in Li Er's heart that shone on his fragile little room. And just now, a lighthouse lit up in his heart, which his mother left for him.

There were not only pointed headlights on the lighthouse, but also the warm embrace he remembered.

Fate makes people, but some people can play tricks on fate.

If fate has created a Paradise Lost for me, then I will find the true meaning in this Paradise Lost, and existence is reasonable.

Lan Qing sometimes even wondered if he was a grim reaper. I have obviously jumped out of the shackles of fate, and when I came to the end, I found that it was another wall of fate. He can see the end of the story, but he can't see the true meaning of life. He knows the story, but he can't see the baptism of fate.

Perhaps this is the difference between the living and the dead.

Lear walked step by step to the bottom of the lighthouse, he was very tired and wanted to sleep for a while.

"It would be nice if Lan Lan was here, I would finally be able to share the joy with her."

Li Er remembered Lan Lan's face again.

"Lan Lan really looks like a mother in a white dress."

"But I still think Lanlan is a little better-looking."

Lear closed his eyes in satisfaction.