Jiaojiao took a half-day vacation, got up from a nap and was about to go out for a walk, when she heard someone behind her calling her, it turned out to be Gu Yue, who lived on the same floor of the dormitory building and had just become a sous chef, Gu Chef's henchman.

I don't usually know these two people.

"What's the matter?"

"Seeing that you have nowhere to go all day long, and there is nowhere to play, it is better to go to the Internet with the two of us."

Gu Yue stood with another wok that fried local food.

"Surfing the Internet? Why waste money on Internet cafes when you can do everything on your phone? ”

"Let's go, the atmosphere is different!"

Jiaojiao thought, okay, let's go, I haven't been to the Internet café five times.

Gu Yue gave the money together, and after three hours, the three of them went to the barbecue again, and then they were acquaintances.

Jiaojiao has a strange problem, the people she approves, there are endless words, and the people she doesn't like don't say a word, otherwise they won't work together for a few months, and it's a cooperation line (Sichuan cuisine wok, lotus, cutting and matching), and I don't know each other yet.

Jiaojiao subconsciously does not contact with those who pretend to be superior to the wok, at this moment she is still climbing at the lowest point, too high to reach, and easy to fall.

"How often do I see you go to the park after work?" Gu Yue asked.

"I'm going to walk on the pebbles and do leg rehabilitation."

"You like to drink?"

"It's not that I like it, it's that I always have to find something to do. You didn't thank you last time, send me back to the dormitory. ”

The last time Jiaojiao and the apprentice of the steamer met in the corridor of the dormitory, the apprentice said: "Sister, today is my birthday, go to my girlfriend who is in college, but she told me to break up." ”

Jiaojiao didn't comfort, knowing that what the apprentice needed was to talk, the two of them changed the battlefield and went to the barbecue restaurant where Jiaojiao frequented, just after entering the door, Gu Chef and Gu Yue were drinking, Jiaojiao and the apprentice turned around and found a table outside, Gu Chef ran out and asked the two to fight a table together.

Jiaojiao only drinks Qingdao 9 degrees, but the table is the local beer Hans, this kind of wine is on the head as soon as you drink it, Jiaojiao is not good to do special, not to pay the bill, everyone drinks Hans, it is always difficult to get 9 degrees.

As a result, Gu Yue helped Jiaojiao back to the dormitory.

"Call me next time you drink."

"I don't have the money to hire you."

"Don't ask you, if you drink too much, I can help you go back."

Jiaojiao remembered a saying: There are many people who invite you to drink, but there are no people who take care of you when you are drunk.

Jiaojiao has a good amount of wine, she stops in moderation every time, this drinking, but also depends on the mood, not everyone can drink, and the sanctimonious people abound.

Jiaojiao's heart is desolate, she wrote: I accidentally lost myself, I couldn't find happiness, I was dominated by my own negative energy.

I only remember that the present world is stable, but I forget that people's hearts are cold, I don't cry, I don't make trouble, I am calm, I am silent, it doesn't mean that I don't hurt.

Inexplicably in a bad mood, I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to talk to anyone, I just want to be alone in a quiet daze.

Inexplicably suddenly felt impetuous, felt uncomfortable watching anything, panicked in my heart, and desperately tried to find an exit.

I found that the people around me didn't understand me, I had nothing to say in front of the people around me, I felt out of place with the world, and what I had always insisted on thinking was right and was broken by my own hands, and it was unrecognizable.

I really want to escape from real life, I want to wander to an unknown and strange place desperately, I want to hide and be vulnerable, only to find that the fragility of hiding is nothing more than finding a place to cry for myself.