When he got home at night, Li Yaotang was struggling with which pajamas to wear before entering the bathroom, and he was distracted. Suddenly, He Yu, who was leaning against the door of the locker room, said, "You look good in pink." ”

She froze...... The pink ...... How did she ever have pink pajamas? She glanced at him, and felt bitter in her heart.

The drawer in front of me is mostly black, white, gray and purple, and there are also flesh-colored ones, all neatly stacked, but there is no pink. Her fingers touched the nearest one, and she pulled it out, and it was black lace edged.

"Huh?" He saw.

"I don't have a pink one." As she spoke, she figured it out.

He raised his eyebrows, walked over in a few steps, opened the bottom drawer, flicked his fingers, and took out a silk nightgown from it, stuffed it into her hand, and said, "Wear this, okay?" In his tone, there was a bit of pleading.

Li Yaotang pursed his lips.

Powder...... Cherry blossom pink.

The silk sticks to the palm of the hand, and has a special warmth and softness.

He Yu lowered his head slightly.

Her lips were unusually red tonight. When she returned, he found out. At this time, not only the lips, but also the cheeks had two faint flushes. It's clear that he hasn't been drinking, but he seems to be already drunk. Let him think of the night she had drunk not so long ago, to his ...... The corners of He Yu's mouth sank. He couldn't help but lower his body a little more and pecked her lightly on the lips, "Let's go take a bath." With that, he turned around first.

Li Yaotang looked at the two nightgowns in his hands, gritted his teeth, and stuffed the black one back......

He Yu saw Li Yaotang coming out of the bathroom, and he was stunned for a moment.

At this time, she is like a blooming cherry blossom, delicate and sweet.

He couldn't help but sigh.

It's true. It's really beautiful.

How many facets does her beauty have? And how many sides did he not know?

He watched her long golden-brown hair, like satin and noose, twisted up and down to his hands, feet, and heart, and there was a little pain—but it was so comfortable.

Li Yaotang didn't look at He Yu.

Even if she didn't look at it, she knew that his gaze had been glued to her body at this time, and everywhere he passed, like a flame rolling by, licking her skin, making her feel uncomfortable. She knew what it was for. She soaked in the bathtub for so long, she was going to wash herself, from the inside out-she was afraid of such a He Yu, and she was also afraid of herself facing He Yu like this-He Yu had never been so passionate, and she, never like this, was afraid of the delicate figure in the mirror. Wrapped in such a delicate and soft color, she was a little scared.

I just don't know if I'm afraid of my body, or the strangeness in my body; Or, where do you want to go?

Li Yaotang got into the quilt.

Quietly, she didn't move.

He Yu approached her gently, as light as a pair of hands ready to play with a Jun kiln porcelain.

Li Yaotang felt that her body trembled from the soles of her feet - she felt cold, very cold. So she gritted her teeth and clenched tightly.

He Yu gently hugged her into his arms, and was surprised to find that at this time, she was still so cold.

And his heat made her shiver and shiver more and more.

He Yu lowered his head and moved down little by little, from her forehead, the bridge of her nose, her lips, and her chin...... Gradually, to her neck and shoulders...... Wherever she passed, there was a fire, slowly igniting the field in her heart. She grabbed the sheets beneath her. The cotton was like the skin on her body, she wanted to grasp it but couldn't, she clenched her hands in vain, firmly. The coldness of her body and the heat of her heart, between ice and fire, hit her spirit and soul.

He kissed her fiercely.

It's like transferring all the heat and power in her body to her.

I want her to warm up, I want her to live. Let her warm and alive because of him.

……

"Tang Tang!"

Li Yaotang opened his eyes.

The voice seemed to be in my ears.

She couldn't help but feel palpitations.

In the blink of an eye, He Yu was sleeping.

The night was so deep and so quiet. He was close at hand, and his breathing could be heard, even and calm.

Li Yaotang lifted the quilt. put on the sparse and wrinkled nightgown that was rubbed by He Yu, got out of bed, and wrapped it in a blanket.

She curled up her legs on the couch.

What appeared in front of him was Fu Gan's painful expression, and what he said in the afternoon sounded again......

“…… When all the people were against me, I was not afraid. I'm really not afraid. In this world, all I need is you, it's enough. Living with you, even if it's just for a day, even if it's just for a moment, I want to do that. I know nothing can stop me, nothing can stop us. But that day, as soon as I went out of the alley, I saw Aunt Bai waiting for me. She was straightforward, let me leave you, let me go immediately. It wasn't the first time she had come to me, but she hadn't given me a single reason to back down. That day, she said.

I can't be completely convinced of the reasons she said. I went back and asked my mom if it was true, whether it was or not?! How I wish she said no, I wish she had said it was all! But my mother said yes, and Aunt Bai was right...... Tangtang, you know me, I never believe in gods. But at that moment, I truly believed that all the evil spirits were cursing me. I'm crazy, I don't believe it, but I can't believe it, it's my mother, she won't lie to me...... Mom said, if you want to ruin Tang Tang, ruin the Li family, and ruin your mother's life, you should go and talk to Tang Tang and have a good time! But you still have a little conscience, so don't make a mess at this juncture. This is the secret that my mother intends to take to the grave, and I will never tell it in this life. ”

"When I look at you, a guy is waiting for me there...... I thought about it, just a few steps, stepping over, coming in front of you, and telling you who I am and what I am. But Tangtang, I ...... Can't. I look at you, and I know I don't have that guts. At that moment, I was scared to death. What am I? What about you, what have you become? We, we ...... I can't. ”

"How despicable I am, how cowardly I am, I can't even give you a word. Not only do I have no way to face you, but I also can't face myself...... I had to watch you leave, watch...... From then on, I could only watch from afar. Just after you left, I met Uncle Lee. I don't know how long he waited there or how much he saw. My legs were shaking, my whole body was shaking. It was not only fear, but also anger. I'm not afraid to admit that I hate him. I'd rather he gave up on my mom completely and never accept my mom again in his life; I'd rather he trampled us all into mud under our feet and I wouldn't have a chance to meet you...... Hatefully, it wasn't! It wasn't! ”

"But he told me to leave. He said Fu Gan, let's go. Tang Tang will be fine. I'm not going to let her have anything to do. From then on, the two of you have nothing to do with each other. She will have her life; You'll have yours too. I looked at him. I said, you'd better guarantee it. Tang Tang, you must not have imagined it, and I can't imagine that after I hurt you, for the sake of my own peace of mind, I actually ...... I can only say this sentence. ”

"Tang Tang, I cowardly escaped. Carrying the secret of an illegitimate child on his back. Carrying the infamy of a traitor. Carrying the shame that I can't wash away in my life. Tang Tang ...... If I could die, I would have chosen to die; But I couldn't help it. Even then, I can't bear it. I was reluctant to leave this world. Because there is you in this world. For countless nights, my heart and my body were gnawed by thousands of insects.

"I don't remember how long I was in a trance. I only know that during those days, the whole person seemed to be wandering in hell. It was dark all around and I couldn't breathe. There is a ray of light in the distance, but you can't walk past it, let alone catch it. Then one day, I suddenly heard a message that you were going to marry He Yu. Tang Tang, it was the most brilliant season of cherry blossoms at that time. Like a ghost, in the dark night, under the noisy cherry trees, I cried bitterly. I know I'm not qualified to be jealous, but I'm just jealous. I'm crazy with jealousy. Why him? Why so fast? I shouted again and again, how I wished God would give me an answer and give me justice. I don't want anything. I just need to change back to the previous Xi Fugan, I just want my Tangtang!

“…… In fact, at that time, there were two hair samples in my hand—Mom's, and Uncle Lee's—even if it was wishful thinking, but I still wanted to struggle. The day the results came out, I felt like I had returned to the world from hell. I want to go back to my country. They say you can't go. You know what the situation is now, because of SARS, Beijing is in lockdown! Even if you don't want a future, you don't want to die?! Where can I care about my future and my life! My future and my life are all Tangtang; But Tangtang is about to marry someone else! I said that even if I died, I would die in Beijing. Let me go back. ”

“…… I still haven't been able to make it back. On the way to the airport, the taxi I was in had an accident. More than a dozen cars collided in a row. The driver died on the spot. And when I woke up, it was three months later.

"Three months...... At a time when the world would be turned upside down in three seconds, I was in a coma for three months! SARS is over...... Li Yaotang is married to someone else. The most precious thing in the world to me was buried in that chaotic spring."

"It took another year for me to get back on my feet and walk on my own legs. During this time, my mother came to Tokyo several times. Tang Tang, she is the one who has raised me for more than 20 years, hate her, I can't do it. Even if she wasn't the mother who gave birth to me, she raised me and gave me everything she could, and I have to be grateful. She held my hand and kept crying and saying she was sorry. I'm sorry, Mom didn't expect you to be ...... like this."

"I'm sorry...... Just like you asked me, I asked my mother: What are you sorry for? I'm sorry you lied to me, Li Jili is not my father, and you, not my mother? At that moment I saw the pain in her eyes. I can't bear it. I know how heavy my own injuries are. But what about others, who is not hurt? I knew that she lied to me at that time, and she had no choice but to do so. I think about me and my love, and so does her. There is no essential difference. ”

"Luckily, but also unfortunately, I survived. I, tell myself, Xi Fugan, even if the world is turned upside down, even if it is sad and difficult, there is one thing, Xi Fujian, you can finally stop feeling ashamed - that is, you can, and you can always be, love Li Yaotang. Love her. No matter where you are, you can be open to your heart and not feel ashamed. ”

"Tang Tang, I have thought countless times that I will not appear in front of you again in this life; Or until, seeing me again, it will not bring you any pain or suffering. They keep telling me that you're doing well...... I also thought that seven years had passed, and you, who were happy, could treat me as just a vague shadow. So I came back. Back to your life. We are 'brothers and sisters', so we will be 'brothers and sisters', and I will guard you in this way - you don't need me, it's best; When you need me, I'm here. ”

"But I overestimated myself. I feel like a mouse hiding in the shadows, and every time I see you, it's like stealing a little bit of life-sustaining food. I kept reminding myself where I was supposed to stand. But Tang Tang, I, even once, only once, want to stand in front of you, to be dignified again, "Look into your eyes and say a few words to you."

"Without me, I will feel at ease if you are doing well. No matter how painful it is, it's also reassuring. Even one day, you know everything — and I'd rather you never know it for the rest of your life — I can confess to you what I've been thinking, how I've been doing, and how I've come to be all these years. Actually, it doesn't matter how I am, because I just want you to live well. But, Tang Tang, please don't show me happiness again. I'm not blind. I can see that. I can bear your happiness not I give; What I can't stand is that you're sad. It doesn't matter who it is, no matter who makes you sad. I can't even stand it. ”

"I'm ...... today It's overdue. But I don't regret it...... If you are still unhappy today, then, Tang Tang, even if you are scolded for being despicable or shameless, I am willing to go again. ”

Li Yaotang gritted his teeth.

She could even hear the gurgling between her teeth.

The blood was rushing in her veins, and she just couldn't find a better direction to relieve the pressure on her heart.

Finally, she came to her senses and asked Fu Gan a question.