The peach blossoms on the mountain are blooming, and the pink clusters are clustered together. From afar, it looks like a cloud. There's no floral scent, unless you get close to smell it. A new rain in the empty mountains, and the flowers are blooming.

Every day, I walked back and forth step by step, walking up and down the stone steps on this mountain, changing my head, and the only feeling I felt at home was a headache.

Growth has taken away too much, and the current one is not what I wanted at the beginning. I struggled for too long, and I couldn't accept the vicissitudes of growing up. I can't accept new people, but most of the old people are not the same as they used to be, and that's where I suffer.

It was I who imprisoned myself.

I watched the empty mountain after the new rain, the peach blossoms were full of branches, moving forward in the quiet and quiet, not being disturbed and not having the opportunity to disturb others, it was always because of some old things.

I stood at the top of the stone steps, and the purple shadow appeared in front of me again, he was a few steps away from me, without a smile on his face, he was silent and stared at me.

Before he arrived, I counted the stone steps, and there were seven steps between us, and he was approaching me step by step.

In order to alleviate the embarrassment, I said: "Look, this peach blossom was still bare a few days ago, I thought it was a tree that couldn't be named, but it turned out that I still knew it." ”

His voice was weak: "I'm like that too, and I don't know either." He asked, "Have you found the answer?" ”

"Nope." I replied briskly, many things over the years have only been refreshing for a while. "Let's go."

His face was ugly: "Then you make a mistake yourself, when will you ......?"

I turned my face: "Lu Juan, I don't understand." ”

He smiled bitterly: "Everything can be figured out, it's just a matter of time." ”

"But time is limited, and I can't do it for a while." I hurried away, "I'm gone, you can go too." ”

I didn't dare to look at his expression, for fear that he would say with a disappointed face: I spent so long with you, not to see you give up.

When I ran to the temple, I happened to see the rebellious brother wearing mortal clothes and walking out of the courtyard gate with his sister in his arms.

They talked and laughed.

"Sister, my brother will go down the mountain this time, and I will do my best to redeem myself for you."

"My ransom is long enough." The little girl lifted her right foot, revealing her smooth neck, and the red rope had been untied.

I happened to run into them: "Senior brother who rebelled, it was really not easy to finally get my way." ”

Senior Brother Rebellion touched his head that still had a mark, and said embarrassedly: "I don't know if I, a monk, will be despised if I am still a monk." ”

I would comfort people by saying, "Don't worry, as long as you don't despise yourself, you won't be looked down upon." ”

When I said this, I was stunned.

The little girl smiled brightly and said, "The girl should also be satisfied." Then he looked behind me and smiled even deeper.

I looked back and found that Lu Juan was standing there.

He said, "Ah Di, all I can say is that you don't regret it. ”

These words hit my heart again, and I was most afraid of hearing these two words in my life, because I was most afraid of regret: "Lord Lu, give me some time, let me take a break." ”

I looked at him as a pleading: "Don't talk about the past anymore, I don't want to hear it." ”

He nodded: "Then I'll go, you've figured it out, I'll pick you up at any time." ”

I pretended to be relaxed: "Okay. ”

Somehow I contracted a cold, and I fell ill so well that I covered myself with a quilt and never got up since I lay down at night.

I kept thinking: Why didn't I hear that bell?

It suddenly occurred to me that the bell should be ringing by me, and when I woke up, I immediately jumped out of bed, got dressed, and hurried out, and the abbot and the senior brother Suiyi were rushing to see me.

I said, "I knew I was wrong, I forgot." ”

I know that last night the abbot told me that the bell of this temple has never been broken once since it was built, and I should remember it carefully and not miss it.

I still forgot, it's embarrassing. The more I care about things, the easier it is to forget, and the reaction has been slow over the years, and my memory has also faded, and I feel that I am really old.

Mood is really the most important thing, it affects yourself too much, you have to cheer up.

The abbot said, "It's all right. ”

I'm grateful but I'm glad.

I'm grateful that I wasn't blamed, and I'm glad the abbot didn't give up on me.

The embarrassing thing is that I forget it once, and I forget it again and again.

The abbot also has few words, just two words: "It's okay." ”

But I really tried to remember, but my mind was full of doubts all the time, and then I forgot about it.

On that day, I knelt on the mat with my hands folded and looked at the Buddha, who was still half-squinting, still motionless and silent.

The abbot is beside me.

I asked, "Abbot, they all say that you are a living Buddha, can the little girl give me some guidance on something in her heart?"

He clasped his hands together: "It's all a false name, and the old man just has a Buddha in his heart." He asked me, "What doubts do you have, girl?" ”

"I have one thing in my mind that I can't find an exit, one is more likely to fail, and one is easier." I replied.

The abbot smiled: "Girl, after the bell rings tomorrow, you will go to the puzzle hall to have a look, and you are not allowed to go anywhere." ”

I nodded, and folded my hands: "Thank you, thank you." ”

……

I woke up early in the morning, because I had not slept all night, and I was so excited that I really wanted to know the answer.

When the spring dawned, it was still quite cold, so I wrapped a few layers of clothes and prepared to hit the bell. The bell rang out and was very crisp. I love it, it's quiet enough to forget about some of the world's worries.

It's not good to be a little evasive, because the things I've left aside can never be resolved, only temporarily, just like the drunken king's soldiers who are still intoxicated in the gentle country when they come to the city.

The big bell hung upside down in a pavilion, with a very thick rope, and it was all iron, with some patterns, and some beautiful pictures. Sometimes it's gone, but it's excellently preserved, no rust and no weathering.

There is a very heavy wooden stake tied next to the big clock, the wood seems to be some time, its head has been a little rotten, not neat enough, but it can still be used to hit the bell, I grabbed it with both hands, gently pushed the wood, the crisp bell rang, bursts into the ears, I like it very much, I pursue the peace of mind.

If you don't think about anything these days, you will have less burden, because your troubles are all imaginary.

The flowers, birds, and insects all came early in the morning, and the face of the senior brother was a little depressed, and he came to me: "I was entrusted by the abbot to take you to the Puzzle Hall." ”

I was curious: "What's wrong with you, Senior Brother?" Why do you look depressed? ”

He sighed: "I want to go against that guy a little, although he doesn't talk much, just standing by my side, I feel at ease, I'm used to him." ”

"At least he got his word for it, didn't he? Be happy for him, he will be happy when he leaves. I said.

Senior Brother Sui pouted with a reluctant expression: "Hmph, that guy is so ruthless that he doesn't even want to say goodbye." ”

I said bluntly: "Maybe it's because of reluctance that I don't dare to come to you to say goodbye." ”

This journey is also easy. I easily found the north, the temple is still very empty, except for the palace more, each courtyard is very clean, nothing is put in, not even bonsai.

It wasn't until we saw the big words 'Puzzle Hall' that we stopped.

The abbot sat cross-legged on the mat, folded his hands, closed his eyes, and heard a voice: "When you come, meditate with me." ”

I saw that the senior brother folded his hands, and then respectfully sat down on the abbot's left hand side, and I sat on the abbot's right hand side in his example.

On the opposite side of us are three identical pampas mats.

Suddenly, someone came, and I opened my eyes to see the man respectfully kneeling on the cushion in the middle and said, "Living Buddha, believers have come to ask for answers." ”

The abbot folded his hands and asked, "Donor, please speak." ”

He said, "I have only asked for one thing, and I have done all my best to find no result for a long time." ”

The abbot pondered for a moment and asked, "All?" Did you really do your best? When the old man was obedient, he never dared to say the word exhausted. ”

The kneeling young man was too embarrassed to look up: "Then can I succeed?" ”

The abbot smiled, folded his hands, and bowed his head slightly: "Don't ask whether it is successful or not, but ask for the word no regrets, otherwise you will not feel happy in this life." ”

The abbot advises everyone to pay attention to the process, but we do things for the sake of results.

I started fighting in my heart again.

The young man clasped his hands together: "Thank you." "But his face is even more sad than when he first entered here.

Watching him walk away, I couldn't help asking: "Abbot, disturb you for a moment, your doubts are still not solved?" ”

The abbot smiled happily: "The answer is free to ask for in your heart." ”

The answer is in your own heart, not by asking others.

The answer should be freely sought in your heart.

I suddenly figured it out: "That young man, the reason for the pain is that he is afraid of nothing, but he wants to do it. ”

The abbot pondered for a moment, stared at me and smiled: "What about you, do you understand?" ”

I'm also silent.

Like him, I actually have the answer in my heart, I know it very well, but I am afraid of failure because I can't bear the pain.

The abbot smiled: "I advise you to take the easier way." ”

I was silent.

The abbot smiled: "You see, you yourself don't want to, don't you still understand this answer in your heart?" ”

I sighed, "Understood." ”

More than thunder, I regret that I never tried, never persevered, never worked hard.

After thinking about it for so long, I didn't come to see how I gave up.

I turned around and knelt on the ground and kowtowed a few times to express my gratitude: "Thank you, Abbot, I have to go." ”

Then the senior brother pouted: "Yes, let's go again." ”

I smiled happily, "I'll come to see you often." ”

He nodded with satisfaction: "Do what you say." ”

"Yes, I'll come back." I was so excited.

Stepping out of this puzzle hall, he found Lu Juan standing outside the door, and his eyes were warm: "Ah Di, have you thought about it?" ”

I said, "That's you, right?" ”

His face changed: "Yes, you still don't leave?" ”

"Let's go." I say.

He smiled brightly, took my hand and left, and I felt the temperature of his palm.

Then he interlocked his fingers with me, and my heart began to beat suddenly, and his fingers were strong and distinct, and he grabbed me very tightly, and I stepped up my strength.

He looked back with tears in his eyes, but smiled happily.

We've been waiting for this moment, for a long, long time.