It's the second autumn, the wind blows the leaves all over the ground, people can't help crying, I miss my parents, I miss my home, I miss the grass and trees in my hometown.

The campus exudes the smell of youth and romance everywhere, and a year has passed in the blink of an eye, these days, it feels very touching, but not thrilling, there are joys, there are sorrows...

Jiaojiao, Xiong Liangjiao and many of my classmates are ordinary rural children, who have been aware of the suffering of poverty since childhood, and their fathers are as hard as cattle in the fields, just hoping that we will get out of the predicament and get ahead. However, I have an indescribable panic and sorrow, and many things are not just what they can do, but more helpless.

Xiong Liangjiao's family is relatively wealthy, he has enough living expenses every month, and almost all of them are used by his money, while Jiaojiao and I feel extremely guilty, feeling that we can't be polite and reciprocal when we eat and drink for nothing. Jiaojiao and I don't have much money, no matter how much I save some flowers, I can't do it if I want to give Jiaojiao a gift or buy a dress, I feel extremely guilty in the face of Jiaojiao, how can someone like me give her a happy future.

One day, I found a secluded place where I could blow the wind, and I said to Xiong Liangjiao alone: "You, do you know what my relationship with Jiaojiao is?" ”

He smiled lightly and replied, "The whole class knows that you two are boyfriend and girlfriend!" Why do you ask this, covet me? I brushed my hair, "No, it's really not, Jiaojiao is my cousin!" Cousin! ”

Xiong Liangjiao was a little confused after hearing this, he scratched his forehead and his eyes widened, and he said in surprise: "Wait~ Wait a minute... The information is a bit of a climb, let me take a good look at it... That's not right! This joke is too big~ I see that the two of you are very close, and sometimes you hug and hug." Looking at his questioning eyes, I pondered for a moment and replied: "Really, it's true, I have a good relationship with Jiaojiao, she is really my cousin~ There's no need to lie to you!" ”

"So, do you mean I can pursue Jiaojiao?" ~ Xiong Liangjiao was a little excited, and his forehead sweated in a hurry.

"That's natural, you promised me to treat Jiaojiao well and take good care of my sister!" It hurts my heart to say these words, but I really can't give her anything, is it really okay to do this? There are constant contradictions in my head, and my thoughts are a mess.

Xiong Liangjiao jumped up happily, raised his right hand into a clenched fist above his head and said loudly, "Don't worry! Uncle! As soon as the words fell, I raised my hand and slapped him, "You kid is really good, you kiss so soon!" The expression on his face could not hide his joy, and he ran away like a gust of wind. At this moment, my heart is extremely sad, and an unprecedented sense of loneliness wells up in my heart, like tears in my heart condensing into frost. Inner feelings, "Life is hard to give up, your beautiful face, only make me nowhere to find, only leave my heartbreak to accompany me lonely, through the day and twilight, when it is a beautiful time."

Every time he goes shopping and eats, Xiong Liangjiao is more generous than before, and his mind is leaked out. This made me feel uneasy, and I could no longer eat in peace. What kind of disease did I commit, how did I push myself to loneliness, it seems that I have to give myself a knife, and I will not make a confused choice in the future. Jiaojiao saw me in a trance, and hurriedly asked:

"What's wrong? Yin Chi, are you uncomfortable? ”

"No, I haven't had a good rest recently, I didn't have time to sleep after reading Sanmao's book~" I lied and covered it up with a smile.

"I heard that after reading Sanmao's article, you will go insane, is it true?" Xiong Liangjiao asked curiously. Jiaojiao immediately added: "It seems that someone really said it!" With that, she picked up the yogurt cup in her hand, moved her lips slightly, and sucked on the tube, and her big star-like eyes flickered and looked at me researchedly, watching her playful eyebrows move up and down, and she wanted to hear what I had to say with a focused expression. Suddenly, I looked up to the sky and laughed, and then slightly lowered my stiff face, and said: "Sanmao writes all the real feelings, and if you experience it, you will understand it, she pursues the freedom of love, the purity of love, and the unrestrainedness of love, even if you get married and have children, you want you to be you, I am me, I do my own thing, and there are only a handful of people in the world who are not shackled 🔒 by marriage~." Xiong Liangjiao sneered and said, "It's too deep, I can't learn it, and I can't understand it~." At this time, I said: "In the past few days, you two have come out to eat, I won't come, I have something to do, there are many club activities, and there are many things, so I can't accompany you!" Let's start tomorrow! Jiaojiao got up and said angrily, looked at me reluctantly, and said, "You're not here, what is this!" What should I do? I hurriedly comforted: "Jiaojiao, I'm just busy for a while, I'll make up for you later, okay?" It's okay, it's just that we haven't seen each other for a few days, and I'm not going to die, so don't be nervous! Jiaojiao's angry expression seemed to ease a lot, she sat down quietly and lowered her head and replied: "What is so unlucky that you can't die, just promise!" I took a deep breath, and finally I was sure that I couldn't do anything more to divert my emotions.

When I returned to the dormitory, I was full of thoughts about how I felt when I first entered the campus, and I didn't know where to go. I always felt that the university should be a beautiful place, full of happiness and beauty, but I was puzzled, and when I entered the campus, I was shocked, and the environment was not as good as when I was in high school. That freshness and excitement has worn off. In fact, all that glitz and glamour doesn't matter to me at all.

In the face of feelings, I chose to let go, I don't have money to fall in love, sooner or later it will end up with a clang, a lot of chicken feathers, what to do? Is it because I'm emotionally withdrawn, or if I really can't do anything about it.

A week later, Xiong Liangjiao was ecstatic and said that he had pleased Jiaojiao's heart, and the days were sweet! I couldn't be happier after hearing this, so I smiled and went away. He said that Jiaojiao's family was very satisfied and supported them to be together because they were handsome. I'm happy with the result, I'm not very happy, but it's a good thing, and I should clap my hands.

Since then, I rarely see Zhu Jiaojiao, and she never comes to me, it turns out that the relationship changes so quickly, or do I really believe that it used to be love, but the love is not romantic enough.

The seniors of the club asked me to submit an emotional essay draft, saying that it was a competition, and it must be written, and it must be delivered, otherwise it will be a punishment for the bad and the cold, okay! If you can't hide it, you have to write it even if you rack your brains. The next morning, I submitted the manuscript and returned to my life, nothing, a short essay, written with my heart. A few days later, the campus radio recited what I had written. It reads as follows:

In this world, there is endless love, has anyone given up everything for you, and who is willing to accompany you to travel side by side in thousands of rivers and mountains?

The two ends of life are on each other's shores, and the faint sadness of the paper falls on the tip of the pen, I want to pour out everything and say the best things to you, even if it withers and the prosperity is gone, it is just a dream.

Who has become the most beautiful flower in your heart, and who has had a good moon with you? My heart is at a loss, but I don't remember how to write love words, the vast sea of people, it falls so quietly, it turns out that love has never come, but in a dream day and day like Chinese New Year's Eve.

Spring and autumn are not easy to get old, when the gray hair is like snow, can you remember those graces, who will accompany you through this life, unforgettable?

There is no touching story than parting with sadness, exchanging the love of my life for you to look back and give you a smile for a lifetime.

was young and ignorant, and he snubbed you with tenderness. I remember that you and I held hands and walked on Fanhua Road Street, you snuggled on my shoulder and looked back frequently, smiling and full of happiness.

The most beautiful time is always so short, all the romance is crushed by reality, and you can only turn around silently, but what can you do on the bridge? A slight sigh.

Who accidentally broke the strings and pierced my heart with an arrow and made me in a trance. How many red faces are lost in the sea of love, how many lovesick heartbreaks, only you are left to smile and cry.

There is no loneliness everywhere in the vast earth, there is no need to force a smile to cover the loneliness, even if someone laughs at me, so what? Look down on everything, whether it is clear or turbid, I am willing to smile for you at the expense of loneliness.

Who said that only when the bond is broken can the love of gathering and scattering is broken, it will be scattered when walking, and the obsession of the year will be broken, who will cherish each other, and if the flower is pity, it will fall on whose fingertips.

Mountains have trees, trees have branches, my heart has been mad for you to be happy with you, but you have not felt it at all, if you want to forget each other, who can forget whom first? Those beautiful promises of you and mine, Ling Ling doesn't want to mention, where are you? Can I still see you?

One day, spring will go to autumn, and the flowers will fall and people will die. The scenery passing by will be treasured for you, every time you open the window to look at the night sky, it is a sweet memory of you and me, so real and so clear to emerge, and that familiar love song is moving in the moonlit night, but now it has nothing to do with you and me.

Just because of that miss, they were indifferent to each other for several days, and they were lonely and sad beyond recognition. I took all the tears between your eyebrows into my eyes, and I didn't feel the same way, and I looked sad.

How can a person's world be perfect, except for reading a book, it is lonely, and the night is still lonely. It is said that the sky is not old, the love is difficult to break, and there are always knots in the heart that cannot be untied.

Today's stars are not yesterday's night, and they are still lonely for whom. Even if a hundred flowers bloom in a dream, it is a dream after all, butterflies are very beautiful, and they can't fly to the sea after all. The fog cleared, I woke up, and I finally faced the reality, which was the silence of a thousand sails.

can walk into my lovesick dreams, but I don't know the pain of my lovesickness. I should put away the attachment to you, be sober and sober, no longer nostalgic for the past and linger, as the so-called one flower and one world, one bird and one paradise, pass with the wind and water, and wish a life of peace.