Chapter 195: It's Time for Me to Go
More and more new students are walking in the spacious and lively auditorium, where the opening ceremony will be held in five minutes.
Mu Xi stood behind the stage, her eyes were dim, staring at the manuscript in her hand, she didn't have the heart to look at it, her brows were furrowed and she looked sad, although she wore flaming lipstick, she couldn't hide her haggardness.
The teacher shouted a few times but she didn't hear it, and finally walked up to her helplessly, patted her, found that something was wrong with her, and asked anxiously, "Mu Xi... Are you okay? …… It's your turn to take the stage! ”
"Oh... Good ......"
She looked around with a casual expression, came back to her senses, took a deep breath, exhaled slowly, closed her lips, raised her head, and walked up to the podium with heavy steps.
Before the start of school, he promised himself that he would listen to the speech in the audience, I don't know if he came because of yesterday's incident, if he didn't... I guess I'm disappointed.
Before the teacher went on stage, he asked his classmates to hand over the manuscript to Mu Xi, she hadn't even read it, and threw it directly in the trash can a few steps forward.
He stood on the stage for half a minute, didn't say anything, didn't make any movements, kept staring at the audience, and quickly glanced at it.
But there was no figure of him, her mentality completely collapsed, she had never felt wronged, she bit the corner of her lip, tried to suppress her impulse, took a deep breath to calm her mood, and began her speech.
Jiang Yu did what he said, wearing a black baseball cap, hanging his head and pretending to play with his mobile phone, avoiding Mu Xi's sight.
"Dear teachers, dear students, hello everyone! I am the representative of the 17th freshman class - Mu Xi. ”
Listening to her voice, she slowly raised her head, the light around her gathered on her, looking at her who was always dazzling, the corners of her lips involuntarily hooked, and the tenderness at the bottom of her eyes always followed her.
didn't want her bleak self to become her footcuff, her hands clenched into fists, pressed hard against her thighs, and her eyes flashed with a moist luster.
I'm sorry... I'm going to miss the appointment this time, Jiang Yu is just a bastard, he doesn't deserve you.
Be happy, don't shed a tear because of him, it's not worth it!
"Thank you, and that's the end of my speech."
There was warm applause on all sides, and he was gradually pulled back to reality, in the sea of people, giving her the warmest applause, forcing himself to raise his head, just look at her, one last look.
Just this glance, after looking at her for a long time, seeing that she was leaving, he lowered his head and smiled bitterly, resisted the impulse, did not look at her again, hunched his waist, hung his head, and left before her.
Mu Xi had a hunch that he would hide in a corner, as if he raised his head tacitly, just in time to see the person he loved and hated.
In an instant, my eyes were moist, and the feeling of being lost and regained was so beautiful that the world I thought I had lost had always been there and never left.
I didn't know what to do, I wanted to use the microphone to call him directly, but I was afraid that I couldn't afford to lose this person, and I saw his figure drifting away.
Suddenly reacted and quickly ran out of the auditorium, but the backstage was overcrowded, and he inadvertently ran into many people, and he didn't even apologize.
In the past, she would hide when she saw a lot of people, but this time it was different, regardless of the teacher's shouts, she had to find him through the sea of people.
Jiang Yu's expression was very flustered, and he walked in a hurry, as if he knew that Mu Xi was chasing him.
No...... He doesn't know! He knew he wouldn't leave her alone.
Mu Xi hurriedly pushed open the door, and when he saw him leaving step by step, tears fell suddenly, and he couldn't take a step after stopping, and opened his mouth to call him, but he made a few sounds but no sound.
Biting his lip tightly, after a few seconds, he suddenly shouted loudly: "... Jiang Yu! ”
Jiang Yu's body shook, stopped, froze in place, his pupils flickered, he clenched his teeth, did not look back, his eyes were scattered and looked at the ground, trying to find her shadow, but to no avail.
Mu Xi dragged his heavy steps, walked a few steps, as if he was afraid of him leaving, rushed behind him, hugged his waist tightly with his arms, pressed his forehead against his back, and kept crying.
"Jiang Yu ~ I... I put on makeup, I put on lipstick, and I wore the clothes you bought for me. ”
Mu Xi had only put on lipstick three times in front of him, because every time she applied it, he always had to come up and kiss it, but now, she couldn't wait to keep wearing it.
Jiang Yu's eyebrows frowned, trying his best to suppress his emotions, biting his tongue and not answering, his gaze slowly downward, falling on her hand, imagining that he would run into it like this, but he couldn't do it cowardly.
Mu Xi saw that he didn't answer himself, and the accumulated grievances seemed to be about to break through the sky, and the hot tears became extremely sharp, and through his shirt, they hit his skin hard, leaving scars one after another.
"You ignore me anymore~ I really miss you... But if you don't turn around to look at me, what should I do? ”
Jiang Yu endured the discomfort in his heart, closed his eyes, a tear fell silently, and he wanted to turn around and hold her tightly in his arms, but he couldn't give her a future.
Thinking of this, he smiled gloomily, lifted his heavy and damp eyelids, and revealed his broken eyes, without a trace of light, as if he had fallen into hell.
Raised her trembling hands, and finally covered the back of her hand, the palm of the hand touched her temperature a little bit, and after a pause, he used a little force, and he was ruthless, and the hand holding her was forced to release from his waist.
Mu Xi tried to break free, tugging at his clothes, not wanting to leave, but the disparity in strength made him go.
She couldn't believe that one day, Jiang Yu would leave herself alone, completely overwhelmed, and stayed in place in shock, watching him step forward.
His vision gradually blurred, and he was all covered with tears, so that he couldn't see his figure clearly, and the uneasiness that he had never felt before suddenly attacked, this time he didn't come forward to look for him, but just said coldly:
"For the last time... Give you one last chance, this time and walk away...... There is no possibility of recombination. ”
"I'll find a better person tomorrow and let him be my boyfriend, at least I won't be like you, backtracking!"
"When he reaches the age of 22, I will definitely accompany him to the Civil Affairs Bureau."
Jiang Yu gritted his teeth and said nothing, but his footsteps still paused, slowed down a little, and continued to walk forward, but Mu Xi's words lingered in his mind.
At this time, he suddenly became a little old man, his steps were so difficult and heavy, his back looked extremely helpless, and he seemed to be carrying thousands of pounds of baggage on his shoulders, which would crush him at any time.
Mu Xi looked at the disappearing figure around the corner, and suddenly hooked the corners of his lips and laughed, tears falling down, like a broken faucet.
It turned out that Jiang Yu was so ruthless, and he knew his heart for the first time... It was a piece of cold iron that pulled out a tip from the bottom of the iceberg of the abyss.
I didn't want to cry for him anymore, but I couldn't help it, all my strength seemed to be drained, and I squatted on the ground with my head buried and began to cry.
Did he really not want himself this time?
The shrugged shoulders, in the gloomy weather, suddenly looked extremely lonely and pitiful, and everything trembling around was sympathetic to her.
The leaves fluttered to her back, caressing her lovingly, and dragonflies fluttered above her head, as if to amuse her, and as if to comfort her, telling her not to be sad, not to be sad.
Jiang Yu hid around the corner, his back was pressed against the wall, some fine sand appeared in his nails, his fingertips were close to the wall, and the marks on it were left one after another, no matter how he grabbed it, he couldn't catch it enough, as if he was punishing himself.
Seeing her helpless figure squatting on the ground, she only felt that her body was gradually unwell, and she smashed her fist on her chest, but finally surrendered, stepped forward quickly, picked her up, and the two hugged each other.
"I'm sorry... Damn Jiang Yu always backtracks, he didn't leave, just in the gloom, guarding you alone in the distance. ”
"I'm here! It's just three things... There will be no next time, if there is a violation, Jiang Yu will die without a place to be buried, and Mu Xi will never forgive. ”
Mu Xi immediately pushed him away and threw and beat him, just angry, I don't know if I was angry with myself or at him.
"I hate you! Why do you play me again and again? Why do you trample on my heart, why must it be my ......"
Jiang Yu looked at her eyes and let her vent, I don't know how long it took, when she was tired, Jiang Yu took her wrist and walked to the toilet.
took out a tissue and dipped it in some water, and gently wiped Mu Xi's fainted makeup clean, Mu Xi looked at the ground in a daze, and fiddled with him at will.
Mu Xi didn't say a word, and Jiang Yu was silent. The two of them accompanied silently and sat quietly on the bench until two hours later, when Jiang Yu broke the silence.
His eyes fell on the scenery next to him, and he couldn't bear to look at her, for fear of seeing her crying, so he couldn't bear it, so he casually said, "I should go." ”
When Mu Xi heard this, his eyelids trembled, he pursed his lips and didn't speak, and his eyes looked at the ground in a daze.
After being silent for a long time, Jiang Yu slowly turned to her, looked at her melancholy little face, and opened his mouth again, "Is it okay to accompany you back to the bedroom?" ”
Mu Xi's brows furrowed slightly, but she remained silent, Jiang Yu knew that she was delaying time, and did not blame her, but was more gentle, her index knuckle was bent, stroked her cheek, and whispered: "I really should go." ”
Seeing that Mu Xi was going to cry again, he wanted to be willful again, he didn't want him to leave, the two problems hadn't been solved yet, he hadn't opened his mouth yet, and he didn't have it, what was the situation?
Jiang Yu wanted to stand up and send her back to the bedroom, but Mu Xi mistakenly thought that he was leaving, so he hurriedly grabbed the corner of his clothes, and his tone was full of panic, "Go back to the dormitory......"
The two walked side by side and did not hold hands, Mu Xi deliberately walked very slowly, Jiang Yu always accompanied her, and did not feel that she was unreasonable.
Seeing that he was about to arrive at the bedroom, Mu Xi stopped, grabbed Jiang Yu's clothes, hung his head and didn't look directly at him, "I... I have something...... Fell where it was..."
Jiang Yu knew what she meant, smiled slightly, and accompanied her back to find it, walking on the repetitive road, her mood was completely different, and Mu Xi's eyelids were always mixed with dampness.
It's a long way, and there's always a moment to arrive.
"Okay~ Let's go back and have a good rest."
After hearing what he said, Mu Xi held back tears, crossed his cheeks again, and lowered his head not to let him see it.
Jiang Yu held Mu Xi's face with both hands, gently wiped away the tears with his fingertips, smiled with his eyebrows and eyes, and looked at her tenderly: "Have a good rest... Don't be sad anymore. ”
I have always been and will always follow in your footsteps.