But those people can only satisfy his existing desire to express, satisfy his existing desires, but they cannot bring her more spiritual things, they cannot enrich his heart, those people only answer what he wants to know, what he wants to hear, and those things that he cherishes and cannot get, but can not give him, only let him repeat it, tired of the world, tired of this world that makes him feel a little confused, but unable to do anything, He may have thought about changing his life with his own money and everything he has now, but the power of this world is so strong that he can't do anything about it.

What he can change is only what he thinks he can change, as for those powerful things, he can't touch them at all now, because those things have ruled their family and even their people for thousands of years, and now, he doesn't dare or has no ability to touch it at all, only when his ability is really strong and can shake those existences, she will go, resolutely take action, and trample those things that rule this world under her feet!

There is also his own ideal, his ideal is to be able to make the descendants of the Yi nationality stand at the top of the world in his lifetime, and be able to become the master of all the people in this world, his heart is no longer his own, it is all the descendants of the Yi nationality, he is the core of the descendants of the Yi nationality, carrying the strength of all the descendants of the Yi nationality, all his actions are concerned about the hearts of all the descendants of the Yi nationality, he, happy, all the descendants of the Yi nationality are happy, she is sad, and all the descendants of the Yi nationality are sad.

Once he also thought about whether he should create a fake death, let his soul break away and let others replace him, and continue to lead the descendants of the Yi people, the great cause, he can, from now on, he will not have to continue to bear those infamy, from then on, the big things have nothing to do with him, and he can be a frank and unrestrained person.

It's just that there are too many entanglements, so that it is impossible for her to let go of all her clansmen and do what she wants to do in a dashing manner, he must be responsible for his own people, because too many things need him to do it himself, and another person will not be able to bear such a thing, if he stays out of the matter, its owner will bear the consequences of his doing so, and be defeated by others, and become famous in this world from then on, too many people in this world hate the descendants of the Yi people and want to find the existence of their lair, Then divide and eat them all to get rid of them, but these people don't have that ability, and they can't find the nest of the descendants of the Yi people at all.

The descendants of the Yi nationality have almost been killed several times in history, but in the end they succeeded in turning the danger into a disaster, please defeat the opponents one by one and assimilate them into their own people.

It's just that every assimilation and battle is a baptism of blood and fire, they struggle on the edge of life and death every time, either the other party dies or they die by themselves, there is no other choice, they can only be again and again, why that kind of crushing choice, and fighting, otherwise, they will die themselves, only death is the final end, otherwise they will continue to fight.

Although to the whole world, or to the whole of China, they are cancerous tumors, people who let everyone else be destroyed, but for their own people, each of them is very precious, because their people, because they have endured too much, there is not much left, and each destruction almost puts their masters into a desperate situation.

Although after every destruction, rebirth is very rapid, but because their enemies are too strong, every time, rejuvenated, they will be attacked by all sides, if it is not for their vitality is extremely tenacious, otherwise as early as thousands of years ago, they would have been destroyed in one fell swoop, where would it be, continue to the present, where will there be the current glory!

Their vitality is like weeds that grow everywhere, inexhaustible, and even wildfires are helpless against them, even if there is only a little ember, it will rekindle when it encounters the wind.

But although their vitality is tenacious, they can't withstand devastating blows again and again, they have been almost completely destroyed again and again in history, if it weren't for luck again and again, I'm afraid they would have disappeared in the long river of history, the reason why they can survive, now it can be said that it depends entirely on luck and has nothing to do with their own ability.

It is precisely because of this that Chen Jiaming desperately hopes to achieve the goal of the entire nation as soon as possible, and then he will be able to retire as a behind-the-scenes person.

It is very hard to be a behind-the-scenes person, not only to convince the whole clan of people, but also to face various crises, including facing a powerful Yin Soul who is almost immortal and indestructible.

He also wants to be able to find a person with similar interests to grow old together, respect each other like a guest, he also needs the nourishment of love, no matter people, gods, noble, a person will have endless loneliness in the world, so he is eager to have a person who understands himself to accompany him.

But now he really can't, because he has too many missions, not allowing him to have personal feelings, even if he wants to find someone to talk to, it is impossible, those people in the family are either respectful to him, or they are old, they only know how to manage the family and the affairs of the clan, and they don't know anything about modern things.

People without emotion are very indifferent in their hearts, and they are also very emotional, especially when they meet the opposite sex, they have the same interests and hobbies as themselves, and they have a tacit understanding with each other, and their hearts will slowly melt away like an iceberg.

Just like his feelings for me, I don't know if it's true, but his kindness to me will make me have a very subtle touch, make me rely on him more and more, and ask him for help whenever there is something, he has not once disagreed, every time he is very crisp and refreshing, and his eyes are also hot, so that I dare not look directly into his eyes.

Although Chen Jiaming is also a very, ancient soul in his heart, but in fact, his heart is very avant-garde, very similar to his surface age, longing, that kind of emotion, only envy the mandarin duck and not the immortal, he also longs for someone who can understand everything about him and understand what he is doing now, but what a slim extravagant hope!

Any normal modern person who knows what he has done must be really very frightened, because this kind of thing is simply crazy, beyond what a normal person does, it is even more terrifying than a terrorist organization!

No one can understand what he did, and in ancient times, she also had someone she liked, but at that time he was still young and did not cherish his feelings too much, and at that time his ambition was always on the great cause of the clan, and he was bent on bringing the whole family and the clansmen to the greatest peak, above the whole world, and being the master of the whole world.

When he really knows what is the most important thing for him, he has lost his favorite, and has become a lonely person since then, no one really understands him, no one really loves her, he can only live in memories, the person who loves her is gone forever, he wants to save him, but it can only save his body, and there is no soul that he really desires, a soul that really understands it.

If time can come over again, he hopes to be able to exchange for that person's existence, not to have all the power and status he has now, he just hopes that that person can come back to life, but all this is impossible, everything has passed thousands of years, and it is not easy to return, it is almost impossible to exist.

Perhaps it is for this reason that he is obsessed with the now popular time-traveling, and he is obsessed with the suspenseful and grotesque plot. In his opinion, the so-called crossing or rebirth is impossible to exist at all, but it is precisely because of this that it makes him more attractive, so that one young person after another can't help it, watching it, and longing for himself to become the protagonist in it.

Chen Jiaming is the same, he hopes that he can be reborn, can return to his youth, and find those things that he cherishes the most and have lost and can not be regained.

But how is this possible? He knows in his heart that this rebirth is not a reliable thing at all, it's just that those who write it out to cater to those readers, the real life is miserable, it's desolate, it's impossible, let the people in real life really get fulfillment, the perfect plot only exists in it, it can't appear in reality, if you want to be reborn, you can only die first!

Only when you die can you verify that rebirth is truly existent? It is impossible for those who are truly alive to experience that feeling.

However, I have never experienced rebirth as a mortal, so naturally I will not experience the taste of rebirth, and I don't know what it will be like after aging and death in the future.

Chen Jiaming naturally knows that death is like a lamp going out, if you really choose death, it is equivalent to choosing the end, for thousands of years, those people who have been assimilated by their descendants of the Yi nationality have all turned into nothing, their souls have been devoured, their bodies have been occupied, and nothing is left, and they have all turned into ashes!

If that's the case, it's really terrifying, he doesn't want to be that kind of person, so he works hard to make his abilities stronger, which is what keeps him alive in this world.

If these souls are not devoured, they can go to the underworld, or to heaven, at least they can continue to circulate in this world, and they can reappear in the world, instead of being devoured by them and never living again, as they are now.

Soul scattered, is a word that makes people smell and change color, and it is the same for him, his favorite has also experienced such a tragedy, leaving only an empty shell without a soul.

His favorite was that because he did not protect himself during the battle with the enemy, he was devoured by a warrior on the other side, and disappeared between heaven and earth, never to be found again.