She didn't have any impression of this, maybe her mother was indeed there, but she was shocked by her father's arms and tears, and she didn't notice that there were other people at all, or maybe it was just because some strange things would have happened in the dream that were not there before.

She didn't turn her head to look at Xie Shi, in this dream at the end of her life, she didn't want to see Ning Shenzhi, let alone Xie Shi, even Qiu Zhengshen, she didn't open her eyes to look at him just now.

Her life has only completed twenty-eight years, but she feels that she has crossed a long sea of vicissitudes, experienced the vast universe, and exhausted all her strength and feelings.

The person she put in her heart is almost dead, and there is only one Qiu Zhengshen left, without her, he will only live better, and it doesn't matter if he can't let go.

Most of the people she hated had already received the retribution they deserved, and there was only one Xie left, although she hated her, but after all, she was the mother who gave birth to her and raised her, and she had never done anything to hurt her, she didn't want to do anything to her.

She and her, at best, just ignore each other and be at peace with each other as they have been for so many years.

Now, she just wants to be alone and quiet for the rest of her time.

After Xie finished speaking, he walked unhurriedly to the bed in the blue gauze cabinet on the east side and sat down, took out a book from his sleeve, read it by candlelight, and did not speak again.

Qiu Xiyin's nurse and mother probed Qiu Xiyin's forehead, the heat went down, leaving only layers of cold sweat, and she touched Qiu Xiyin's back again, drenching.

She wanted to ask Xie Shi to find someone to get some hot water to wipe Qiu Xiyin's body, but when she looked at Xie Shi concentrating on reading, her lips moved several times, but she couldn't make a sound.

and her mother is a typical Jiangnan woman, not tall, after giving birth to three children in a row, her figure is out of shape, standing with Qiu Xiyin, she is not much taller than the eight-year-old Qiu Xiyin, but twice as wide as her, and her originally fair skin is dull and rough due to perennial labor.

She followed Qiu Xiyin from Gusu for more than a month before finally arriving in the capital, and the grandeur of the masters of the capital and the Qiu Mansion made her feel uneasy, especially the Xie family, the head of the Qiu Mansion.

She had never seen such a beautiful wife, let alone such a magnificent wife, she couldn't tell what the momentum around her was, she only instinctively feared her, and didn't even dare to come out in front of her.

On the second day after arriving in the capital, Qiu Xiyin was sick, vomiting and diarrhea, and had a low-grade fever, and suddenly had a high fever during the day today, and then fainted, and the four girls came over and said that she didn't take care of Qiu Xiyin, and she became more and more panicked.

A girl wearing such trendy clothes would definitely get sicker, she couldn't just sit and watch uselessly, and she couldn't even ask for some hot water.

He moved with his mother, and was about to clear his throat, so he pleaded with Xie, and a decently dressed and generous maid came over with a tray, it was the big girl Dongxue next to Mrs. Qiu.

Dongxue approached and put the tray on the square table at the head of the bed, and her mother was pardoned, so she hurriedly approached and pleaded in a low voice, "The girl's clothes are sweaty, please ask this girl to help make some hot water."

Dongxue glanced at her unhappily, "The third girl's clothes are sweaty, why didn't you say it until now?" The girl has just woken up, don't catch a cold again."

and her mother had to accompany her repeatedly, Dongxue glanced at her again, didn't say anything more, and went out again.

and his mother carefully pulled out a pillow and leaned against the head of the bed, let go of Qiu Xiyin, and let her lean on, after this whole set of actions, Qiu Xiyin kept turning his head to look out of the window and did not move.

He didn't pay attention to his mother, picked up the bowl and kept scooping the rock sugar white fungus porridge in the bowl, while blowing to let it cool down as soon as possible.

Xie Shi, who was reading the book, glanced up at her, then lowered his head and continued to read.

Her eyes were extremely fast and light, and somehow, she and her mother noticed it, and she was frightened.

After a while, seeing that Xie Shi did not react further, she continued her actions just now with trepidation, her hands trembled slightly unconsciously, and even the porridge in the bowl slowly rippled layer by layer, but the movement was lighter.

"Oops!"

He and his mother's frightened heart jumped suddenly, but his hands almost instinctively protected the porridge bowl, and the porridge in the bowl did not spill at all.

"Are you blowing like this to make the third girl eat your saliva?"

But it was Dongxue who walked over briskly with a tray again, and as she walked, the strong smell of medicine diffused in the cool spring night.

and her mother responded, the voice was almost squeezed out of her throat, she was so old, she was scolded so bluntly by a teenage girl to ask her master to eat her saliva, Rao is her temperament and softness, but also felt extremely embarrassed, an old face was dry and red.

Qiu Xiyin remembered this sentence, she was sick and confused, and she didn't actually hear what Dongxue was talking about, but after she completely gained a foothold in Qiufu, she and her mother repeated this sentence to her countless times, and countless times told her how she was taught by a little girl when she first arrived.

She came to the capital from Gusu, except for the reluctance to come with her, the great-grandmother sent all the maids and mother-in-law she was used to to follow, but as soon as she arrived in the capital, those people were sent away by her grandmother and the old lady.

After she fell seriously ill again, Mrs. Qiu sent away her last two remaining personal maids in the name of poor service, because Qiu Zhengshen said that she was afraid that she would not be used to leaving the nurse at first, so she stayed with her mother.

The great-grandmother didn't like the nurse that Xie arranged for her, as soon as she was still in infancy and was sent to Gusu, the great-grandmother changed her with her mother, and the great-grandfather and grandmother stayed in Gusu, and she was only left with her mother.

When she and her mother first came to the capital, she suffered a lot of grievances and insults, so why shouldn't she?

Later, she used a little trick, Qiu Zhengshen punished Dong Xue heavily, and Dong Xue, who was a slave but had a big heart and wanted to ride on the master's head, finally disappeared completely in front of her.

Later, after she and her mother were forcibly sent away by Ning Shenzhi, she recalled this sentence countless times, recalled Dongxue who said this, and only hated that she did not fall into the well at that time, and did not completely feel the greatest humiliation in her life with her mother.

At this time, in the dream, she clearly heard Dongxue's original words, but she didn't even have the strength to disgust, at the end of this life, that idea of grievances could not leave any traces in her heart, she no longer thought about her mother, just like she didn't even want to see Qiu Zhengshen again.

Dong Xue took the bowl in the hand of her mother, glanced at her with disgust, squeezed her away, and sat down beside Qiu Xiyin's bed, "Girl, this is the stew that the master ordered early in the morning, and it has been boiled all day, and it has long been boiled thoroughly, it is the most suitable for the girl to eat at this time, come, open your mouth, slow down."

Qiu Xiyin ignored her, she opened her mouth again, her voice was soft, but it revealed a condescending lesson, "Third girl, it's okay not to eat when you're sick, the girl is already a big girl, you can't be willful, teach the old lady to worry, the girl just came to have such a serious illness, but the old lady is heartbroken, and now I have to learn to be sensible......"

Dong Xue preached endlessly, accusing her of being "ignorant" both inside and outside her words, Qiu Xiyin remembered that Dong Xue had not preached like this at that time.

At that time, she was also as scared as her mother, she didn't dare to take more steps, she didn't dare to say more, she would eat when Dongxue asked her to eat, but she saved this preaching.

She didn't want to pay attention to her, but Dongxue was too noisy, disturbing the peace of her last days.

"Get out".

Because he didn't speak for a long time, Qiu Xiyin's voice was hoarse and ugly, but it was very clear, Dong Xue's voice stopped abruptly, and he couldn't believe it and asked, "What did the third girl say?" ”