Chapter 175: This kind of love is too suffocating
When Bu Xiaoxiao saw Lu Jun say this, he really had some mixed feelings in his heart.
Yes, she used to think so.
Women are so naΓ―ve.
She thought she had been stupid once, but she didn't expect to be stupid a second time.
"Actually, a lot of things are out of my control, and I can understand it."
Bu Xiaoxiao felt that she was really a reasonable woman.
Don't cry or make trouble, just tell the truth.
She also wanted to cry and make trouble.
But will crying and fussing solve the problem?
In addition to being able to vent your bad feelings, what else can it represent?
Nothing.
It just shows that you are an extreme failure.
Bu Xiaoxiao felt that she was a failed woman.
"The only thing I don't understand is, why are you getting together with Jiang Siran?"
I thought it was hard to say.
But if you want to say it, it's actually very simple.
"Xiaoxiao, in fact, I was really confused for a while."
When Lu Jun heard Bu Xiaoxiao ask himself like this, he felt inexplicably like he was going to lose Bu Xiaoxiao.
He didn't want to lose Bu Xiaoxiao.
"Although Qiao Wuyuan doesn't care enough about me, he hasn't cheated on me in his marriage to me."
"With you, I thought I had met the most suitable person, but I didn't expect such a thing to come so unexpectedly."
Bu Xiaoxiao said very plainly.
But God knows, she can't sleep these days.
I felt like a mountain was pressing down on me.
But so what?
When this problem arises, it must be dealt with in a timely manner.
I was injured, but I also had to know how to stop losses in time.
"I've been wondering for the past few days, why is that?"
Bu Xiaoxiao thought that the answer was still needed.
After all, they have known each other for so long, more than twenty years of friendship.
It turns out that the friendship of more than 20 years will also be derailed.
"Xiaoxiao, you forgive me, I won't be in the future."
Lu Jun thought that as long as Bu Xiaoxiao forgave himself this time, he could no longer be involved with Jiang Siran.
"You know what? You and Qiao Wuyuan are really similar. β
Bu Xiaoxiao really wanted to laugh, Qiao Wuyuan seemed to have said this.
Are men all the same temperament?
No, it's still different.
Some men can still keep the bottom line of the family.
But Lu Jun didn't.
"That's what he said."
"That day, I actually drank too much that day."
Lu Jun suddenly felt as if he couldn't ask for Bu Xiaoxiao's forgiveness.
After all, they have known each other for so many years, and it is the first time he has seen Bu Xiaoxiao's calm appearance.
He felt that what he said now should be useless.
"Don't you think that when the two of us are friends, we can talk very well, and when we get along, we will feel that this person can really understand me very well."
Bu Xiaoxiao and Lu Jun talked about their past again.
"But why, after becoming a husband and wife, there are such and such problems?"
"Don't you like me enough?"
Bu Xiaoxiao really doesn't know what the problem is?
She asked herself to Lu Jun, she was already digging out her heart and lungs.
She really wanted to settle down this time.
"I don't know."
Lu Jun walked towards Bu Xiaoxiao at this time.
Although he didn't know how to keep Bu Xiaoxiao, he still had some ideas to tell Bu Xiaoxiao.
"I like you, I really like you, there's no doubt about it."
"Really? But while you like me, why can you provoke Jiang Siran? β
Bu Xiaoxiao saw Lu Jun standing opposite him, leaning his back on the edge of the sofa.
"I used to fantasize about my time with you, really, all the time."
Lu Jun seemed to have thought of a lot of what he had in mind.
"I think I'm going to give you the best."
When Bu Xiaoxiao heard Lu Jun say this, she wanted to laugh, but she wanted to cry even more.
Don't know why?
Between them, there used to be good memories.
But now they are all covered in bruises.
The funny thing is, even if so, they can still talk heart-to-heart?
She had never imagined this scene.
But my heart is inexplicably sad.
She thought that maybe there was an end to marriage, and so did friendship!
"But I don't know why, the more things go off the rails when they want to be better."
Lu Jun blamed himself.
In fact, he can choose to live a good life with Bu Xiaoxiao.
It can also go in the direction he envisions.
But he screwed up.
"The perfect wedding I wanted was messed up, and my dad was gone on our wedding day, and that hit me deadly."
"I hesitate, I blame myself, and I hate my attachment to you even more."
"Isn't it that if I had found someone to marry sooner, there wouldn't have been so many tragedies?"
"I'm scared to face you, especially my mother's eyes."
"Anyway, I'm timid, I like you to be timid."
"I think I'm wrong, I hate you too, why did you agree to me as soon as I pursued you?"
"If you insist and don't agree to my pursuit, won't anything like this happen?"
"I feel sorry for myself and hate you at the same time, so I know that you have a miscarriage and need my company and care, but I don't want to stay by your side. Didn't want to ...... at all."
Lu Jun cried at Bu Xiaoxiao, and he didn't know what he was crying about.
Maybe it's just catharsis for your emotions.
Bu Xiaoxiao was also crying, they were talking about why they had come to this point?
The passage of more than twenty years of friendship?
Or is it the end of a marriage?
"Xiaoxiao, I knew at that time that I was also a bad man. Very bad, very bad......"
Lu Jun felt that the matter had come to this point, and it was not bad for some crimes.
"Our wedding should have gone very smoothly, and it will definitely be very successful, but I called Qiao Wuyuan and made things completely out of control......
"Xiaoxiao, I'm sorry, the child in your belly, if I don't call Qiao Wuyuan over, it won't be nothing. I'm guilty of that......"
He has been friends with Bu Xiaoxiao for so many years, and there are some things that should not be hidden from her.
Bu Xiaoxiao was a little stunned when she heard Lu Jun say this, remembering what Qiao Wuyuan had said to herself.
Although she believed it at the time.
is far less than Lu Jun telling her the truth, which makes her feel extremely cruel.
"I finally conceived a child, why did you do this to me?"
Bu Xiaoxiao was crying silently, but now for the sake of the child, her emotions were completely out of control, and she began to cry.
Yes, she broke down in the matter of the child.
She and Qiao Wuyuan have been married for five years and have not had a child.
She thought she was infertile. I don't have the guts to go to the hospital to check.
Qiao Wuyuan was not in a hurry, so she avoided this question with peace of mind.
But it was hard to have it, but it could be without it in such a situation......
Why?
She really wanted to be a mother.
"I want this child so much, you know, why are you doing this to me."
Bu Xiaoxiao threw herself on Lu Jun and began to punch and kick Lu Jun.
It turns out that the person who knows himself best can hurt himself like this. 1800 Literature
How can I calm down?
How else to be reasonable?
Even a friend who you think has always been the best for you can do this to yourself?
And what about those whom I don't know?
Friendship, a strong friendship, it turns out that you can show yourself like this.
Although such an assumption, Bu Xiaoxiao had assumed in his mind.
But she was far from knowing the truth, which made her feel that Lu Jun was so scary!
"I'm sorry, it's all my fault, really, I'm too cowardly to face my mistakes and involve you...... I'm sorry, Xiaoxiao, but I still love you very much......"
Lu Jun was punched and kicked by Bu Xiaoxiao.
He did something wrong, as long as Bu Xiaoxiao can relieve his anger, he can do anything.
"No, no, you don't love me, what you love is the Bu Xiaoxiao you imagined, or the young Bu Xiaoxiao, not me, who has been married and divorced."
If Lu Jun really loves her, why is he willing to hurt her?
This logic does not hold water.
So Lu Jun likes his former self, not his current self.
"Haha, your obsession makes you feel like I'm letting go of the past. Even erase the years without you. β
"Otherwise, how do you explain calling Qiao Wuyuan here and messing up our wedding."
Bu Xiaoxiao stopped her chaotic thoughts, she seemed to think of something......
"You keep saying that you want to treat the child in my womb as your own. Actually, you don't want the baby in my belly at all, right, you tell you the truth. β
"That man can accept the child born to his beloved woman and someone else, can't! Unless you don't love! β
Sure enough, Bu Xiaoxiao knows herself best, and what she said really spoke to her heart.
"Yes, I had that kind of thought, but I didn't expect to really hurt you, when I saw your pale face and the blood on your body, I already regretted it in my heart, really, very regretful......"
Lu Jun and Bu Xiaoxiao looked at each other, both of them with tears on their faces.
Why?
Why can't you give up?
Lu Jun felt that he couldn't give up Bu Xiaoxiao in his life.
He thought that without Bu Xiaoxiao, he would die.
"The old thing, let it pass, let's start again."
Bu Xiaoxiao was stunned!
Why do men's minds turn this way?
Qiao Wuyuan is like this?
Is Lu Jun too?
Now that they are scarred between them, how can they live together.
Qiao Wuyuan just coldly shook himself.
But this Lu Jun, in the name of loving himself, keeps hurting himself?
This kind of love is so suffocating!
"You give the baby back in my womb, and we'll start over."
Bu Xiaoxiao's heart is really uneasy about the lost child.
How could this Lu Jun be like this?
But the more shameless seems to be yet to come......
"Xiaoxiao, it's easy to have a child, isn't it."
Yes, exceptionally simple......
Bu Xiaoxiao really saw Lu Jun's shamelessness today.
Some people can really have no bottom line?
Is this man a devil?
She once said that Qiao Wuyuan was the devil.
Unexpectedly, Lu Jun is even more indispensable!
It needs to be done a little more excessively.
"What are you doing...... Go away......"
"Xiaoxiao, I'll give you a child's ......"
"I don't want it, go away......"
Bu Xiaoxiao tried her best to refuse, but how can a woman's strength compete with a man's strength?
In just three or two clicks, Bu Xiaoxiao was pressed on the sofa by Lu Jun.
"Well, obedient, we ...... Soon there will be children. β
Lu Jun didn't care about it, Bu Xiaoxiao couldn't move his hands and feet, so he could only bite Lu Jun with his mouth.
Unfortunately, it has had little effect......
"Lu Jun, I will hate you, forever ......"
"We will have our children, I am the father of the children, what do you hate me for?"
Lu Jun, who succeeded, kissed Bu Xiaoxiao.
Even if Bu Xiaoxiao bit him hard, he didn't care......
As long as Bu Xiaoxiao thought of the picture of Lu Jun and Jiang Siran entangled in her mind, she felt like a fire was burning in her heart.
Seeing that Lu Jun's mood was relaxed, he pushed Lu Jun away.
She got up from the couch and straightened her clothes and ran straight out.
"Xiaoxiao, Xiaoxiao......"
Lu Jun also hurriedly sorted out his clothes, opened the door and chased out.
But he was only a minute late, he walked in the community, and there was still Bu Xiaoxiao's shadow.
He wanted to call Bu Xiaoxiao, but he was in a hurry, and the phone was still at Bu Xiaoxiao's house, so he hurriedly turned back.
Seeing Lu Jun returning, Bu Xiaoxiao hid not far away and turned off the phone directly, and then left the community without looking back.
Bu Xiaoxiao walked outside, she didn't know where to go?
The current Lu Jun is no longer the Lu Jun in her impression.
She was saying that Lu Jun liked her former self.
And doesn't she like the simple Lu Jun before?
It's a pity that people will grow up, and when they grow up, the original intention of many years of youth will not exist......
Bu Xiaoxiao felt that she seemed to have a problem with the way she looked at men.
She used to be afraid of marrying Qiao Wuyuan, and she felt that it was a wise choice for her.
It is also her blessing to have a friend like Lu Jun.
But his wise choice also exhausted himself.
The blessing she boasted of turned out to be even more bruised all over her body.
Are men poisonous?
Or is this kind of poison all as a woman's own choice?
Although Bu Xiaoxiao is scarred today, she still wants to meet Jiang Siran.
Anyway, what is already injured can't be hurt anymore, and it's not bad to sprinkle some salt on the wound.
This is a good girlfriend in her heart.
She took a taxi to Jiang Siran's residence.
When the car arrived, she had to pay, so Bu Xiaoxiao could only turn on her mobile phone and pay with WeChat.
Seeing the countless incoming calls on her phone, she turned it off again.
Come to Jiang Siran's door and knock on the door.
In the past, I came with the mentality of worrying about Jiang Siran.
Today, Bu Xiaoxiao felt that he had come to Xingshi to ask for guilt.
The door opened at the stall where Bu Xiaoxiao was thinking.
Inside and outside the door, the mood is abnormal...... Closely guard a secret!
"Won't you invite me in and sit down?"
Bu Xiaoxiao looked at Jiang Siran and asked.
"Come, come in."
Jiang Siran hurriedly began to take slippers for Bu Xiaoxiao and asked her to change her shoes.
"What do you want to drink, Coke? Or iced coffee? β
"Nothing coke, let's still have iced coffee."
Bu Xiaoxiao changed her shoes and walked directly into Jiang Siran's house with a swagger.
It's not that she's doing anything wrong, she's still as casual as before.
But Jiang Siran is not.
Most people who do wrong things will be weak and timid.
The moment Jiang Siran saw Bu Xiaoxiao, he was nervous and scared in his heart.
She didn't know if Bu Xiaoxiao was going to beat herself?
But seeing Bu Xiaoxiao's calm face, he wanted to come in and sit down.
She hurriedly let people into the house.
Originally, she and Bu Xiaoxiao would be very happy to see each other.
But now, I'm afraid it's only embarrassing......