She never dared to underestimate his suspicion and desire to control, he was not a person who waited for something to happen before he knew, he calculated, step by step, no one could escape his net, including her.

Anyway, she is not interested in what his ends and means are, what she cares about is not those complicated things, the more she thinks about it, the more restless she will be.

"In a few days, I really can't let you go, I'll let people go to the Qingchan Temple first, so that you can live comfortably there, but you have to remember, you are the concubine of the Ming Dynasty, my Xin'er, please give me half a year, I will take you back."

He lowered his eyes like a child who had done something wrong, and she couldn't bear to hold a grudge.

I had to force a smile, pretending to be relaxed and quipping: "I know, is it possible that you are still worried that I went to invite the Zen temple, and the monk will not succeed." ”

In the past, he must have been surprised by her rarely joking tone, but today, he couldn't laugh at any means, and her pretended joking tone was even more abrupt in this already dull atmosphere.

She shrugged her shoulders and smiled self-deprecatingly, in half a year, when the queen's child was born, and the child of Wang Xuanzhi was also born, would she still have the courage to come back? Come back to see his children around his knees, come back to see his father's kindness and filial piety?

Half a year, without her, he still has his harem beauties, not to mention that soon after, he still has his heirs, I don't know if he will forget her.

But there is nothing in this deep palace that makes her nostalgic, so it doesn't matter if she comes back or not, but what about her heart? Is it really possible to just let it go?

Thinking of this, he didn't dare to look at him again, for fear that he would see him, so he was reluctant to leave, so he had to look away until he lost focus and everything in his eyes, and then said with a smile: "Then you can go and make an order now." ”

He raised his hand and wanted to hug her, but his hands finally hung down weakly, turned away, and looked back again as if he wanted to say something, but only sighed.

And the moment he turned around, her eyes turned red in a daze, but she suddenly thought of something, and swallowed her tears back into her stomach.

Self-cultivation Qi family rules the country and the world, thinking of his birthday wish on the wishing lamp, she doesn't allow herself to cry anymore, his future, his wishes, has nothing to do with herself, so why is she so stupid?

But isn't it stupid enough? She gave him all her love, and once said that she would only give her five points of love, but she had already paid for her body and mind, and forgot to leave five points to love herself, forgetting that he was always an emperor.

But his love has been divided into so many parts, his heart has been divided into so many points, where there is his country, his world, his people, his harem, his Ming Dynasty, there, how many points and a few millimeters of position can be left to her?

In fact, there are too many things, which were destined at the very beginning, she knew it clearly, but she still couldn't help herself, couldn't help herself, indulged in his tenderness, until now, drowning herself.

Now, she can only choose to leave, leave this palace that has never belonged to her, and leave this emperor who can't give her all her love.

Thinking about going out, thinking about leaving here, she actually had a lot of dinner alone, while eating, crying, mourning her sorrow, paying tribute to this love that made her physically and mentally exhausted, I don't know if this is the end. Honor her fate as a pawn. To commemorate her liberation, she can finally relax a tight heart, in the Qingchan Temple, she doesn't have to care about anything, she doesn't have to pay attention to it.

As soon as he turned around, he still habitually smiled lightly: "Cun, Mama Jinyun, go and pack some clothes for me first, probably, leaving the palace for a few days." "Don't be caught off guard when the time comes.

The next day, the sky was clear, and in winter, even the sun was so extravagant that it seemed that the sky did not belong to it.

But she suddenly became calm, and some things were decided, so she faced them calmly. Leaving this harem temporarily, it is not a bad thing for her, she also wants to see the outside world, breathe in the fresh air outside, in this palace, it is too dirty, she is a lotus, a lotus without contention, indifferent and far away.

She packed up what she wanted to take with her in the dormitory, but found that there was not much she could take with her, or that she wanted to take it away.

Although in this palace, there are already a lot of things that belong to themselves. But none of them belong to her, and none of the things in the palace belong to her.

My favorite is still the dancing wooden doll, carved out with a knife, meticulous and attentive, with slightly raised corners of the mouth, squinting and crooked eyes, and even the hair with a smile.

There are also those smart Jiangnan landscape paintings, each one is flawless, and each one has exhausted its thoughts.

Nan Ruochen, where are you? I'm about to leave the palace, everything is relaxed, and I can finally be as free and easy as you.

My fingers ran over the lines of the doll, and my heart softened.

The contents of the letter were already piled up in the storeroom, but the only thing she wanted to take away was the jade ring.

And the little clay figure sent by Momo seems to have given a soul, even the temperament and breath are so appropriate and real, that is the most beautiful scene when she and he fall in love, glory and wealth can be thrown, I only want to live up to it, but I never thought that their most beautiful love memory can only be preserved by eleven-year-old Momo.

She came in with tea, saw her stroking the little clay figure and chuckled, stood aside and said, "Miss, do you really want to leave?" ”

"Yes, if you don't want to go, you can stay in the palace, or, you tell me, do you have a place you want to go, while I still have some weight to speak."

If I can't do anything on his day, what should I do, she sees the secret correspondence and sympathy between Yu Shi and Siming, because she is reluctant to do it, and she is still young, so she wants to keep her for a few more years, but she has not waited until that time, and she will leave the palace.

Although the letter said that she would be picked up in half a year, the world is unpredictable, who knows, this time, what year and month will she be able to come back.

Her eyes were red: "Miss, are you leaving like this?" How can you be, you are a concubine now, if the emperor is ...... It's ...... them."

She chuckled: "Yu, you know, I don't like the palace either, what's more, my temperament is not suitable for staying in the palace at all, I can go out to breathe some fresh breath, self-cultivation, for me, it is a pleasure." ”

"Miss, I want to go with you." He pouted stubbornly.

"It's not as good as the one outside the palace, not to mention that there is no Siming outside the palace." She reminded the reminded.

She bit her lip and nodded, "You know." But it's ...... I'm going to take care of the young lady. ”

Mama Jinyun on the side also knelt down and said, "The slave maid is also willing to serve by the side of the concubine." ”

At this moment, the tears that she had silently swallowed in her stomach for all this time rolled in her chest, hugged up, and fell with the sourness of the tip of her nose.