So what can Zhao Xun do?

Anyway, life is like this, unsatisfactory, but always forgivable.

Yes, you can regret it, and of course you can rebel.

You hate all this God has given you, and you want to change, so you work hard.

But in the end, you will even find that everything you are doing now is so futile.

The rings of time are like the waves when the tide rises, the waves are rolling, forcing people to move forward step by step.

But it never really asked people if they were willing to move forward.

If it had spoken, Zhao really wanted to tell her how much she wanted to stay when she was a child lying on the table and wiping the table for guests.

No matter how tired she was, she was really carefree at that time, at least the people around her would not leave her.

When he got home in the evening, his younger brother held a math paper with 100 marks in both hands and asked his father to buy him a new Ultraman model.

The father groped all over his body, took out a crumpled 50 yuan, and stuffed it directly to his younger brother.

That day, my father was so happy that he called Second Uncle Liu, who lived at the opposite door, to drink a pot of big bones and a bottle of Niulanshan until dawn......

After her father left, Zhao Xun didn't expect that she was far stronger than she imagined.

's father is Zhao Xun's support, and when he was lying in the custody room, Zhao Xun thought about sleeping like this, even if she was lucky enough to live, she was destined to wander for the rest of her life.

On the contrary, Zhao Xun at this moment did not wander, but knew more firmly what he wanted.

After the family affairs were stopped, Zhao Xun returned to Beijing with his younger brother.

In fact, this wish to go south came in the year Zhao Zhao graduated from university.

That year, Zhao Xun had seen too many impossibilities, including the true appearance of poverty.

Later, the world changed, and in a blink of an eye, Zhao Xun, like everyone, also became a 30-year-old woman.

In fact, Zhao Xun also had such a dream, and in the dream Zhao Xun had a paintbrush.

There, Zhao Xun has a beautiful skin, a superior family condition, and a husband who loves her deeply.

But one day, the pen was gone.

So, Zhao looked desperately for it and chased it.

Because she knows that this is the pen that makes her happy, and it is also the pen that makes her deadly.

Sometimes you feel that the days are so long, that you can do too much in a day.

But sometimes, you will feel that the days are too short, from early morning to sunset, and you don't even have time to say goodbye, which is very contradictory.

In those days in Beijing, Zhao Zhaozhong followed Wang Yi's path.

Like Quiet said, maybe he is not all you have, but he is your obsession.

Just like my father, there are some people you may only miss in your heart.

Although Zhao Xun was able to do it without listening or asking, her spiritual conscience could not deceive her.

In the countless nights with wet pillows, Zhao Xun could only roar silently, and that kind of roar was desperate and helpless.

The emotional world of adults is like this, no matter how many difficult nights you go through, but when the sun rises the next day, you have to be strong like an adult.

Although my hometown is very close to Beijing, it cannot be compared with the capital of Nuoda.

Like Zhao Zhao, who is old and has no family, everyone will think that you must hate to marry, or just gossip sitting at the end of the alley.

But when Zhao Zhao came to the big city of Beijing, she found that there were many people who were not married at the age of 30.

Maybe it's because I'm thirty, maybe it's because I haven't met true love yet, or maybe it's because I don't have enough courage to support a family.

But whatever the reason, Beijing is like a mother, always accommodating them.

This city is unfamiliar to Zhao Xun, but Zhao Xun feels extremely familiar.

Regarding Wang Yi's evaluation, Zhao Xun didn't know what he could use to describe it.

After learning the truth of the matter, Wang Yi disappeared as if he had disappeared from the world.

Zhao Xun thought, if it wasn't his own decision at the beginning, would there be another possibility now?

Of course, she must not think about it, because this is her last bottom line.

Zhao Xun quickly dispelled this idea.

The earth thawed, everything recovered, and after his brother's unremitting visit, hppy finally entered the kindergarten smoothly.

The weather is gradually warming up, looking at the newly branched green willows outside the window, Zhao Xun seems to feel that his heart is slowly coming alive again.

She slowly began to get used to life without her father.

In the evening, Zhao Xun suddenly received a quiet call from far away in Seattle.

“ho

Did you sleep? ”

"Jingjing, why did you call suddenly? What time is it over there? ”

"It's past 4 a.m., did you sleep?"

"Of course I didn't sleep, I just finished eating, what's wrong with you in the middle of the night? Miss me, don't you? ”

Jing Jing hesitated on the phone for a moment, and then calmly said to Zhao Xun:

"I'm having nightmares......"

Listening to the quiet voice, Zhao Xun sensed that something was wrong with the quiet.

"Jingjing, are you alright? How about over there, there have been too many things at home lately, and I haven't bothered to contact you. ”

"I'm fine here, uncle's business, I can't go back, I've always wanted to say sorry to you, but I don't know how to speak."

"Where did you say, how can I blame you, you are so far away, besides, I can't bear to let you toss back and forth, I have this intention in my heart."

When his father died, Zhao Xunben didn't want to tell Jing the news.

It's just that on the day of his father's funeral, Zhao Xun posted a mood, and Jing Jing immediately saw that something was wrong with her.

After repeated questioning, Zhao Xun told the news of Quiet's father's death.

"Mmmm, when the child has summer vacation, we will go back to the country and find you when the time comes."

"Then it's a word, by the way, Ming'en is still sleeping, is she okay lately, is the new school suitable for it?"

"It's good, this kid is obedient everywhere, but he can't control his candy recently, and sometimes he secretly asks the foreigner next door for candy, and his teeth are broken several times."

"Bad teeth? Did that take her to the doctor? ”

"Don't worry, I go to deal with it regularly every week, but it's too expensive to see a tooth in the United States, hehe."

"Is it a problem with money?"

"No, no, don't get me wrong, Lao Xia gives Ming En a lot of living expenses, including where he lives, he pays the rent in advance every month, and he also hires a nanny for Ming En, and he can take Ming En to school every day."

"That's fine, you should be more relaxed."

"Easy ......"

"Honey, what's wrong with you, why do you always feel weird today?"

"No, it's not weird."

"No, you definitely have something to hide from me, tell me quickly."

"Then you have to promise me, after I tell you, you must not be in a hurry."

"Uh-huh, you can say it quickly, it's going to kill me."

"I went to the refugee slum."

"What?"

Zhao Zhao, who has never seen the big world, including when he was in college, has only seen these words on TV.

In Zhao Xun's impression, this is a place full of violence, blood and killing, and it is absolutely impossible for ordinary people to reach it.

"I knew you were going to react like this, so I didn't dare to tell you, but I'm safe, don't worry."

"Reassured? You tease me, do you think I can rest assured? What are you doing there? ”

"You know, when I first saw that report on the news, I really couldn't imagine that he was really around me, and I couldn't control myself."

"Tell me, then, what the hell are you doing there?"

"Why, you think I'm going to be part of the riot? I'm here to teach. ”

"Teaching? No, are you kidding me? When did you qualify as a teacher? ”

"Look, you don't know, if one day you can see the truth here, I believe you will make the same choice as me."

"But you're dangerous, do you know?"

"I know, so we don't dare to be too loud, and I'm only teaching 5 kids at the moment."

"Do uncles and aunts know about this?"

"I don't know, you must not tell them, or they will be worried about death!"

"You know people are worried, huh? Then don't you still do it? ”

"I thought you would support my ......"

"Jingjing, how to say it, it's not that I don't support you, we are more than 10,000 kilometers apart, and you are in such a dangerous place now, once you have something to lose, you let me, you let me ......"

Zhao Xun couldn't hide his excitement for a while, and actually cried on the phone.

"Find, calm down, you listen to me first, I'm in a safe state now, I'm safe, it's not like we usually watch on TV, it's not to that extent, and I don't go every day, I'll be more careful myself."

"Then you must not save phone bills in the future, you must report my safety regularly, okay?"

"I know! You can rest assured. ”

"You know, when I was a student, I only had you as a friend, and I was still waiting for Ming'en to graduate and you would take her back to China."

"Well, it will."

"By the way, didn't you just say you had nightmares? Tell me about it. ”

"I dreamed of the children in the refugee slum, they were lying in the moldy and smelly ditch, shouting, shouting, but I couldn't hear a word, I couldn't see any humanity in them, and they didn't even know what it meant to stand up ......"

"Jingjing, you listen to me, it's not your fault, and it's not something we can control, don't be like this, you can go in there and teach the children, you are already great, do you know!"

"But when I see them lying in such a place, suffering such physical and mental torture, my heart hurts, and they are even as big as Ming'en."

It was about the time when Zhao Zhao fell asleep, presumably it was already morning in Seattle, and it was time to set off......