I finally looked up, because I knew, and I was running out of time, and I looked into her eyes.

She couldn't say a word, but we were a woman who had slept on a pillow for so many years, and I could tell what was in her eyes.

"I just want to look at our kids again."

Just one glance she was satisfied.

With hard work, she conceived in October, and she used her last strength to give birth to a child.

She just wanted to take a look, a look.

What's wrong with her?

She's begging me, she's praying for me, she's praying for me!

Until the tears of forbearance turned into bitter water and swallowed into my stomach, I really couldn't stand it anymore.

At that moment, I seemed to suddenly understand, to be so kind, to be soft-hearted, to be so conscience to discover!

God treats Lao Tzu like this, when did Lao Tzu do so much evil? Or when did Lao Tzu burn and plunder and harm one party?

So, I got dizzy and rushed straight into the nursery.

I saw a lot of children there!

There are really a lot!

I listened to their cries one after another, and I felt as if they were my children, my sons.

At first, I noticed that my hands were shaking so much that I tried to calm them down.

So, by the darkness of the night, I touched the cot one by one, but they all wore wristbands on their hands, and I couldn't know what to do.

A few beds, a certain son, such and such a woman!

It's like a steel knife that sticks it in my heart and kills me.

Gradually, I shed blood all over the ground, and finally suffocated me.

Suddenly, thunder roared outside the window, and a loud thunder rumbled down.

At that time, I was out of the way, and I felt that I was not afraid of anything!

Even if it costs me a lot more for it!

I felt as if Heaven had heard my sincerity, and as if God was taking pity on me.

By the faint light of the hallway, I cautiously groped my way forward.

Suddenly, I saw that on the small bed in front of me, the child did not seem to have a wristband on his thin arm.

At first I thought it wasn't my eyes that were spent, so I stood there and rubbed my eyes.

After a while, I stepped forward, and yes, he was not wearing a wristband.

I wondered, is this a chance God is giving me, is this a gift from God to make up for our dead children?

I looked around, and at that moment I didn't hesitate, really didn't hesitate.

When I picked up the child, I didn't think anything about it and rushed straight back to my hospital room.

I even felt like this was my dead child!

I locked the room as I carried my baby to her bed.

She burst into tears, and with the last of her strength, she cried out:

"Mu Xuan!"

Mu Xuan, yes, our child is called Mu Xuan.

What a beautiful name, she had already thought of it, but she never told me.

I'm afraid that this will be discovered, after all, it is illegal.

I took the child out of the window overnight, and after returning to the hospital, I hastily went through some follow-up procedures.

That night, I waited outside the hospital until I saw that there was nothing unusual about the hospital, and then I slowly went back.

I was very nervous when I went back, until one day I finally mustered up the courage to go to the hospital again.

I asked the security guards there, as well as the confinement lady and nurse who were stationed there.

They all said that there had been no recent changes in the hospital, and no one had come to ask them about the loss of their child.

When I got home, I was still a little scared, so this child, that is, your younger brother at the moment, is he really our child?

It wasn't until I gave him a full moon birthday, a 100th birthday, and watched him grow up healthily day by day, and then I really seemed to think of him as our child.

Seeing that he also had a good relationship with his sister, I greedily thought about bringing this shocking secret into the coffin.

I even had the luck to turn this big lie into reality.

It was my mistake at the beginning, one wrong step, one wrong step.

Because after all, he is not his own, and he can't deceive others by blood, so I have to redouble my energy to treat him, and I try my best to be good to him.

It seems that only in this way can my conscience be at peace for a short time, and it will not be used as a handle by others later.

I know that when you were a child, you must have thought that I would only be good to my brother, and I would not need him to do housework, and I would not need him to do odd jobs, and you would envy him and envy me for being good to him.

In fact, I just thought, I have to double to him, I owe him, I have to make it back.

Quiet days until your brother goes to high school and you graduate from college.

Your brother suddenly has a strange illness that costs him a lot of money.

You were out of town, so we didn't tell you about it.

That time about Liu Laizi's wife, I know that you must have always looked down on me.

Actually, even I look down on myself.

You've always felt that I don't deserve to be a good father or a good husband.

If I said I was paying for your brother's medical bills, would you believe me now?

I didn't even expect to fall into their trap, and in the end, not only did I not make any money, but I also lost my bones and piped in.

I had no choice but to go to extremes.

At that time, Lao Deng came to me, and he said that he could help me solve my brother's affairs, but he lacked a daughter-in-law.

I immediately promised him to help him find a daughter-in-law.

Who knew that he actually said that his daughter-in-law was you!

God may be such a trickster, in my life, in fact, it is not even a tragedy, I am like a clown, let others put it up, let others slaughter it.

I was indecisive and indecisive.

Let your brother's illness get worse and worse, and later, I really can't help it, I can't help it!

I had to promise him that he would not only cure your brother's illness, but also promise to bring me his own restaurant.

But what a temptation it was, I was confused!

That day, when I got my report card at the hospital, I sat on the hospital corridor for a whole day.

I know that this must be God's retribution for me.

It rained heavily that night, and I knew you were afraid of the dark, so I went to the old house to fix the lights until you found them.

I can imagine how frightened you would be on your wedding night when you were faced with an old, ugly face.

I drank too much wine that day, and the neighborhood thought that I had sold my daughter and made money, and I was happy.

I'm not afraid of their spittle, really, I'm really not afraid.

I'm afraid that your brother will leave suddenly, just like his mother did back then, and I will be caught off guard.

I wasn't drunk that day, only I knew in my heart how much pain I was and how uncomfortable I was.

I drank and drank desperately, but I found that the more I drank, the brighter my heart became, and the more I drank, the brighter my heart became.

Oh, all this is my sin!

I know!

My big girl, you could have had an infinite future waiting for you to create.

I provided for you to go to school, and you were angry yourself, but now I have been buried like this.

I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for you, so will you forgive me for my selfishness?

Maybe I was always ashamed before this, and I never dared to be your father.

I know you have a grudge and a grudge in your heart.

But I really can't help it, I don't have any great skills in my life, when I was young, I lacked food and clothing, and I did so many messy things, and when I was old, I got sick again, and I lived a whole life.

Maybe this is the fate of ordinary people, and I am destined not to be able to give you the best.

When it's coming, I still can't tell the whole truth.

When I decided to say all this, my heart was relieved, and maybe I would have a good night's sleep for the day.

I know that this will definitely be a very heavy blow to Mu Xuan.

But Mu Xuan, you must know that in the past twenty years, except for the day you were born, I have always treated you as my own son, and even you are my son!

Whether you recognize me as a father in the future or not, but in my eyes, you are my son, now, in the future, and in this life!

As for Zhao'er, you have actually followed your mother since childhood, but we divorced very early, and I rarely mentioned her in front of you.

You are not like me, you have your ideals, you have your ambitions, and I have seen your hard work for so many years.

Go ahead, do what you want to do.

As for Mu Xuan, even if he blames me or blames me, I don't dare to ask for his forgiveness, maybe because of me, he will live a better life than now, it's my selfishness......

The old people all believe that people have a next life, but I don't believe it, because I don't want to be such a father in the next life.

My children, I will bless you forever where you can't see it!

In this life, I can only accompany you here, I'm sorry.

father

Seeing this, Zhao Xun and his younger brother were already crying.

Even Zhao Xun couldn't imagine how much effort his father used to write down everything one by one at the last moment of his death.

"Dad, my brother and I won't blame you, whether you are wrong or not, you will always be our father, a father for one day and a father for life!"

The street lamps shone with a faint glow, reflecting the scattered stars in the sky, and I can't remember how many days I haven't looked up at the starry sky.

The city is sleepy, and Zhao Xun and his younger brother have a tacit understanding and choose to visit their father. Only this time, a different state of mind, the same identity.

The younger brother is a conscientious person, and after that, the younger brother seems to have kept silent about his father's letter.

He never even thought about finding his biological parents, not even a single thought.

Even Ziyi had never heard of it.

Yes, let this shocking secret remain in our hearts forever!