The encounter is too short, and the longing is too long.

Talking about the past, we burst into tears, but at this moment, Liu Ya felt that she was let go and relieved.

We don't have any right or qualification to evaluate Liu Ya's life now, which has nothing to do with dignity, no love, no care, and no regrets.

Let those deep and shallow memories remain in the bottom of their hearts, even if they are mottled, even if they are gone.

Liu Ya's subsequent encounters Zhao Xun has no way of knowing, of course, these stories were written by Liu Ya into songs, poems, and then mailed to her unknown self, and now she can appear here, and then I am fortunate to share it with everyone.

I hope that many years later, Liu Ya will still be Liu Ya, and Wang Hao will still be Wang Hao.

In Zhao Zhao's 5th year of working in Unicom's business hall, one day, a strange man suddenly appeared in the house.

However, Zhao Xun seemed to be able to call his name and recognize his appearance.

My father said that because Lao Liu behaved well inside, he could be released from prison two years early.

On the day he was released from prison, his father went to pick him up.

What his father thought was different, this time Lao Liu did not have a beard, nor did he have the previous burly figure, I don't know why, my father said that his heart suddenly seemed to be haunted by something, in short, it hurt faintly.

"Lao Liu, long time no see."

"Long time no see."

"What's the matter? Go to your brother's house and have a drink? ”

"Take me to see Xianglian!"

"Okay."

Since Liu Ya's father went in, there is no one to go to Xianglian's grave every year, and his father is the only friend of Xianglian and Lao Liu, and he has been silently insisting on regularly sweeping Xianglian's grave on August 15, Chinese New Year's Eve, Qingming Festival, and it can be regarded as someone who has accompanied Xianglian to talk to over the years.

Father thought that after so many years, Lao Liu would definitely hug his head and cry when he saw Xianglian's grave, after all, it was his woman, and it was also his regret for many years.

But in the end, my father found out that this was not the case.

Standing at the grave of Xianglian, Lao Liu just pulled the weeds next to him, and kept chattering about Ming'er coming over to repair it for you, if it worked, he would bring the two children over.

The father didn't speak, and the father wanted to interject and ask about Lao Liu's situation inside, but his father said that he couldn't bear it, and he didn't want to ruin the reunion between Lao Liu and Xianglian after many years.

When his father was about to turn around and leave, Lao Liu suddenly stopped his father.

"Lao Zhao, thank you!"

"Huh? Thank you, why do you want to do it? ”

"The last time was the time you brought Xiaoya to see me, Xiaoya told me, since I came in, you have been helping me and Xianglian take care of our two children, I know, you have not been rich in the past few years."

"Oh, it's okay, I think you're going to say something."

As he spoke, his father turned around and left again.

"Lao Zhao, you listen to me first, I thought a lot of things in it, I figured it out now, the things I did when I was young were despicable, but it really happened, in your place, you can forgive me, and now I can take care of my children, it's that I'm not human, I'm sorry for you."

"Lao Liu, don't say that, at the beginning, I did something wrong......

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I've been repentant for many years, God has punished me, I only hope to be an upright person in the future, I swear by Lao Liu, I will never forget your great kindness to me!"

"Alright, alright, two big men, what are you doing! Gone, go to my house to drink, haven't eaten meat for a few days? Look you've lost a little weight. ”

Suddenly, the old Liu began to cry.

"Hey, hey, old Liu, what are you doing? Why are you crying? You should be happy today! ”

"You can still do this to me now, I regret it when I think of what happened before, I feel that I am not human!"

"Okay, okay, okay Lao Liu, I've asked you everything, you can't be blamed, you didn't mean it, don't put all the responsibility on yourself, okay?"

"You don't have to comfort me, I know that if it weren't for my irresponsible husband, Xianglian wouldn't have died, and my two children wouldn't have lived so hard."

"What? Xianglian? ”

"Well, Xianglian, you don't know yet, I think you must want to know why Xianglian died suddenly, Xianglian's death should be a knot in your heart for so many years."

"Lao Liu, don't get me wrong, I am only like an elder brother to my sister to Xianglian."

"I know, let's go, let's drink."

Lao Liu wiped his tears, still wore a pair of pants when he went in, knelt on the loess with full legs, and didn't shoot.

My father said I'll change your pants when I get home, but they're a bit old.

But Lao Liu still insisted on wearing these pants, and he also said that these pants were bought for him when Xianglian was there, and the mall was on sale, and the knee had several stitches, and he was reluctant to change them.

Lao Liu said that if you change it, it will be gone, and if you change it, you will never find it again.

The father didn't say anything more, he felt that he should respect Lao Liu's decision.

After Zhao Xun got off work, he saw Lao Liu at home, but he just treated him like a guest from afar, without saying much or asking more.

Zhao Xun feels that this should be the quality that a junior should have.

Zhao went to wash his hands after saying hello to the door, and then wore an apron into the kitchen to work, and his father woke up two bottles of liquor.

Seeing Lao Liu, who was looking for Zhao, suddenly burst into tears, he asked his father, how is Xiaoya now, is she also as old as Zhao'er, why didn't you come to pick him up today, is it that the child doesn't know the time, or is he still holding a grudge against his father.

His father didn't know how to tell him, because his father didn't know if Liu Ya was really doing well now.

"Then let's go back to your house later, Xiaoya, she is in Beijing now, you can call her back after dinner."

"Oh, my girl is really promising, and she went to Beijing? Is it really Beijing? Think about it, he has never been to Beijing a few times in his life. ”

"Well, it's Beijing, Xiaojing is also in Beijing, and he follows his sister."

"How long has it been? So where do the children live? What are they doing in Beijing? ”

"Lao Liu, let's talk while eating, they were still young when you went in, and now that the children have grown up, they should have their own lives."

"Okay, then let's not talk about them, as long as the children are promising, we will naturally rest assured that we are fathers."

"Here, braised pork, skillfully mixed with pig's ears, and one more dish is ready, Dad, you and Uncle Liu eat it first, and the dish will be ready immediately."

"Find a child, don't be busy, these dishes are enough to eat, this is much more abundant than the dishes I have in it, you wash your hands quickly, come and eat together."

"No, no need Uncle Liu, I've already eaten with my colleagues in the unit, so hurry up and eat."

"Come here and eat some, young man, eat more and digest faster, by the way, child, where do you work?"

"Uncle, I work in a Unicom business hall, and I answer the phone to engage in customer service and logistics."

"Oh, then I know, this job is pretty good, it just so happens that you are usually quiet, but I don't know where Xiaoya works now, and I don't know if she's doing well, Beijing is so big, it's not easy for her to stay there as a girl."

Zhao Xun and his father just smiled slightly and didn't speak, because no one hoped that Liu Ya would have a bad life, and everyone hoped that she would have a good life.

On that day, Lao Liu said something that had been hidden in his heart for many years.

He said that it should be fair to Xianglian when he said these words, and he should also learn to face the past bravely.

In fact, Xianglian just didn't say goodbye back then, and she didn't even have time to leave a word to Liu Ya, Liu Jing, and the world.

And just like that, leaving behind a cold, speechless corpse.

The medical examiner said that the corpse is the only language left in this world, and the only evidence, and it is worthy of respect.

But here in Xianglian, all this is in vain, before dying, Xianglian had no breath, no heartbeat, no language, and no evidence.

And so she went, quietly, quietly, silently.

Didn't say a word, didn't even say a hello.

"On the day of my accident, the police called home, I didn't call the landline, I was afraid of being picked up by the children, after Xianglian received the call, I think Xianglian should be on the other end of the phone Xianglian has trembled into a disfigured right!

The policeman's simple narrative pierced each other's hearts one by one.

Liu xx, it's your husband, manslaughter, please come to the police station!

Except for the address of the police station, they did not leave a word in any other language.

At that time, Xianglian should have been outside, and I could feel Xianglian's panting, and I could also feel Xianglian's nervousness and fear.

But it did happen, and I couldn't escape it, and I couldn't shirk all the blame, and he was lying there at the time, covered in blood, and I can't forget that scene, including now.

It's like a nightmare, I've been trapped in it for so many years, I can't get out, I found that the more I tried to pull it out, the deeper I sank, and finally I found that it was Xianglian who appeared.

She lay there desperately screaming for help, help, help me!

There was nothing I could do, I could only watch it happen right in front of my eyes.

It was when the police took me to the scene to confirm that the most unexpected thing happened to me, and it was also something that I couldn't let go of in my life.

Really, it was really only 5 meters away at the time, and she suddenly lay there, really,...... Only 5 meters! It's true! ”

Looking at Lao Liu, who was close to aphasia, his father didn't know what words to use to comfort him, his father had never seen a man like this.

"Okay, okay, it's all over, Lao Liu, you are stronger, do you want Xianglian to see what you are now? Do you want Xianglian to see that you are still in deep self-reproach after you are released from prison? ”

"No, you don't know, it was really only 5 meters away at the time, I wanted to run over to save her, but I was handcuffed with both hands, I couldn't run over, and by the time I ran over, it was already too late, Xianglian was hit by them, and I hit her steadily.

She probably saw me across the road, and she watched the people in uniform handcuffing me, and she was in a hurry, and she didn't even look around to see if there were any cars, and she just rushed over like that.

She yelled at my name so desperately that when I looked back, I could see her lying in a pool of blood, I don't know why the car was driving so fast! I do not know! ”

"You know what? She fell right in front of me, she fell in front of me! ”

"You know what? She fell right in front of me, I saw her fall in a pool of blood, I don't know why the car was going so fast, I really don't know ......"

"Lao Liu, don't be like this, don't be like this."

"Xianglian, she fell in front of my eyes, I have no way to save her, I can't save her."

"Don't be like this, it's not your fault, it's fate! That's fate! ”

"Do you believe in your fate?"

"I believe in my fate!"

"I picked up Xianglian in the pool of blood, I desperately called her name, I called Xianglian Xianglian, but she only looked at me, didn't say a word, when she looked at me, I didn't dare to look at her, I didn't dare to face her.

As soon as they saw that things were not good, those policemen were busy dialing 120 over there, and when 120 came, Xianglian was gone because of excessive bleeding.

The doctor finally took out a roasted bright red sweet potato from Xianglian's arms, which was not stained with blood, but the kind that was roasted and red.

The doctor said that maybe it was left by the patient on purpose, because people in times of crisis, especially such times, generally do not keep a thing so intact.

When I saw the sweet potato, I burst into tears, including when Xianglian fell in front of me, I didn't leave a single tear, I don't know what's wrong with me, is it putting the cart before the horse? Is it ruthless? I don't know, I really don't know!

Maybe it's really me who has done too many things in my life for lack of morality, and God wants to punish me like this.

I took the sweet potato, and I ate it all, even the skin, and I thought it was the best sweet potato I've ever tasted.

In fact, they didn't know, when I left that morning, I just said, I want to eat coarse grains, I have been eating meat recently, I should scrape the oil, and then I told Xianglian to buy vegetables, if you meet a sweet potato seller, you will buy two back.

Maybe Xianglian also wanted to save money, so she bought one anyway.

But this one, I ate it all, it was very well roasted, and it was very flavorful, and I ate all the skins, but it was really cold that day, but the sweet potato was hot. ”

"It's hot!"

"Come, let's drink."

Father poured Lao Liu full of wine, this time, it should be not drunk.

Later, Lao Liu got drunk, and his father said, this may be the reason why you haven't told me about this all these years, I think I probably know now.

Lao Liu didn't speak, because he was already drunk, and he was a drunken mess.