Some people want to travel the world with you, some people want to follow you with oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, but I just want to follow you.

I didn't feel this kind of unforgettable, but I did.

I feel sorry for Wang Hao, I feel sorry for him for getting this disease at a young age, I feel sorry for him who is close to middle age but was dumped, I feel sorry for all his unsatisfactory.

But what can be done?

I also have to take care of Lao Wang, who is also hospitalized, Lao Wang has always been very good to me, I can't be ungrateful just because I met Wang Hao at this time, that will be punished by God.

I remember when Wang Hao was seriously ill, the whole person was getting thinner and thinner, he couldn't eat, he couldn't drink, even if he endured the pain and drank some water, he vomited endlessly, like any water and electrolyte disorder, it was a trivial matter, and later there was black stool, and the doctor said that it was the digestive tract that began to bleed.

Relying on a large amount of fluid every day to maintain basic physiological functions, and later almost inserted a urinary catheter, we don't want Wang Hao to suffer that kind of suffering.

Now as long as the condition can be controlled, it is good, in order to treat the disease, Wang Hao does not know how much money he has spent on it.

I dragged a lot of friends to help me pay attention to experts in this area, and finally invited a specialist to come for a consultation.

The advice given by experts is to first undergo dialysis for half a year, then improve nutrition, enhance resistance, and wait until all the functions of the body are supported, which is the best time for kidney transplantation.

But now the problem is again, there is no suitable kidney source, where can I find the kidney source, this is another thorny problem.

Wang Hao, who was tormented by illness, even thought about giving up treatment, but when he thought of the children at home again, the desire to survive made him have to be strong, and he wanted to live.

He just wants to live, even if it is a life without quality, for his daughter, for his wife, and for himself.

Maybe this is the truest thought of a dying person, even if he is lying in the custody unit without dignity, he wants to live.

It is better to die than to live, and people die like lights out, as long as people are alive, there will be hope.

The sadness of reality, the helplessness of life, there are many people who choose to end their lives in the most extreme way, there are all kinds of strange reasons, and some people desperately just want to live.

For Wang Hao, who is riddled with diseases, how difficult it is to live.

Finally, Lao Wang still put a stent in the heart, two imported foreign stents, spent tens of thousands of yuan, and we were discharged from the hospital after almost recuperation.

But Wang Hao is still far from being discharged from the hospital, and now there are only two results, either to replace the kidney or to die.

When I asked him why he didn't go to the dialysis room, Wang Hao said that he didn't have any strength anymore.

When I was about to say something, Wang Hao told me that my daughter-in-law might have run away with someone, and the family's money was almost spent, so I asked him to sell the house, but she didn't do it, and her name was written on the house at the beginning, and she held the real estate certificate.

Later, she said her true words, she said that she was about to lose standing me, she was still young, even if my illness was cured, my kidneys would not be good, and she probably didn't want to serve me as a patient for the rest of her life.

Besides, how much does it cost to replace a kidney?

But I don't blame her, I don't hold a grudge against her, she's a woman, and I can't ask him to share my ups and downs, as long as she can take care of our daughter in the future.

I also don't want my daughter to see myself at this time.

After listening to Wang Hao's words, I was very uncomfortable, I didn't know how to comfort him, and I didn't even dare to look at his eyes, I had to keep my head down and keep peeling apples, he said he couldn't eat them, I didn't listen, but I kept lowering my head and peeling the whole plate of fruit.

I think, this time, I must help him, I must help him.

Lao Wang's side must be unable to hide it now, after all, it takes such a large sum of money, and I am still in and out of the hospital frequently.

I told Lao Wang that the poor man in the hospital was my old classmate, who used to take good care of me, but now he is sick and very serious.

Lao Wang didn't say anything, he just gave me a card, and I didn't say thank you.

I think in this life, the luckiest thing for me is not that I have met Wang Hao, Lao Wang is here with me, more like a relative or an old friend who has been talking for a long time.

I give him enough freedom, he gives me enough dignity, in fact, that's enough, what more can I ask for?

I didn't know much medicine, I didn't read much, and the doctor said it was a neurological symptom caused by kidney disease, anxiety, depression, and worst of all, uremic encephalopathy.

Sometimes when I have just come back from fetching water outside, Wang Hao will ask me why my children have not finished school yet and what they are going to eat at night.

Actually, that's not the worst part.

Because I want to strengthen nutrition, every day I try to bring some high-nutrition meals to Wang Hao, he has a bad appetite now, I also have to match the color, and the delicious food is also very important.

I asked the nanny at home to check the information, searched Baidu, and every day I went to the hospital with my home-cooked food.

Wang Hao sometimes almost can't recognize me when he is tired, sometimes I can't control it, I cry in front of him, he is like a child, wiping my tears, and then continue to look at me.

Look at me like you used to, the same way you used to look.

Wang Hao seems to be thinner now, the hospital gown is worn on him, like a huge quilt wrapped around his body, he is thin and he is hiding next to the hospital gown, I feel sorry for him.

But I can't replace him, this level, it must be him, and only he can get through it, I can't empathize, I can only give him money and companionship.

Every morning there is liquid to do dialysis, noon to take a lunch break, the doctor asked him to bask in the sun, I arranged Wang Hao into a single room, although the cost is a little more, but it is much more convenient, when I am not at night, I also invited a nurse to come over to help take care of Wang Hao.

Every day after 4 o'clock in the afternoon is our rest time, I push Wang Hao in a wheelchair to go out for a walk, every time I go out, Wang Hao is very awake.

At that time, my favorite thing was the afternoon every day.

We could talk about some of the things we had when we were younger, and the first time we met and I had a dark drink, and I would have felt so embarrassed, but not anymore.

It's a pity that if there is no if, if there is no later.

If there were ifs, if there were later, would we not be the end we are now.

After all, Lao Wang is also sick, and I still have to allocate part of my energy to take care of Lao Wang, running between the hospital and the family every day, I desperately amuse each of them and try my best to cure each of them.

They are all the most important men in my life.

Maybe because of my company, Wang Hao's body is getting better and better, and several functions of the body have basically recovered, I quickly contacted the expert who came to the consultation last time, and the expert said that now only the kidney source is left.

Maybe this is the fate of the world, impartial, waiting for so long for the kidney source, even when I was about to despair, I watched a TV series, and the heroine in the play donated a kidney to her lover, and it just matched.

I didn't say a word, I didn't think about it, I decisively went to register and then checked the relevant inspection items, the amazing match was in front of me, I didn't tell Lao Wang, I was afraid that he was in a hurry, and I was afraid that he would misunderstand.

I just said that I was going back to my hometown, and he agreed, and when I left, I bought him a small box of medicine that could not be stopped, I was afraid that he would always forget to take medicine without me.

Before donating, I asked to sign a confidentiality agreement, I don't want Wang Hao to be guilty for the rest of my life, he has already borne me once when I was young, and I don't want him to carry so many things alone.

The doctor told me that if the transplant was successful, my daily life should not be affected too much.

For Wang Hao, there may be some post-transplant rejection, or rejection symptoms, which are determined by his own physical condition.

I also asked the doctor about the survival rate, and the doctor said that if you survive the initial stage, it may be about 5 years, but everyone's situation is different, and this is not a conclusive conclusion.

The 10-year survival rate is 1%, but there are also people who live for 20 years after transplantation.

I didn't think about it that much at the time, I just wanted Wang Hao to be able to spend the past few years peacefully, if God was really so ruthless to take his life at that time, we wouldn't say anything more.

Only this time, we must change our lives against the sky! I hope God forgives!

When I was lying on the cold bed in the operating room, looking at the ceiling, looking at the shadowless lamp, and looking at the chief surgeon, I seemed to see Wang Hao smiling at me, and he also said:

"If one day, you are really a first-timer, please don't forget that marrying you is also my lifelong dream, I'm afraid it's too late in this life, in the next life, I will definitely not let you suffer for me anymore."

I didn't know anything about what happened on the operating table.

When I woke up, the nurse told me that the surgery was a success.

I pushed the infusion stand to the door of Wang Hao's ward, but the nurse didn't let me in, saying that she was afraid of infection.

Wang Hao overcame the slight rejection, and now he has been discharged from the hospital, returned to his hometown, and when he left, he went to my house and said that he wanted to see if I was doing well.

But I didn't see him off when he left, and I didn't say goodbye to him, because I was afraid that I would never see him again.

My brother couldn't take it anymore, he called and said that he needed money, a lot of money, and he said that he would definitely pay it back to us.

The younger brother said he formed a band over there, previously he was a guitarist and now a drummer.

At that time, African drums were popular in the south, and my brother said that he also learned African drums.

A good singer is not necessarily a good drummer, but a good drummer must be a good singer, and my brother said that he is a good drummer and a good singer.

Although my younger brother has not been famous until now, his life has always been good, and he has no troubles of being popular, but he is also a flyover, a passage, and an Internet celebrity.

The band formed by my younger brother broke up soon after, and my younger brother went to the old town of Lijiang alone, sang in restaurants and bars, and became a pub singer.

Wang's health is getting better and better, and we are going to travel from north to south after a while, but Wang said that he still wants to go to Seattle and Los Angeles!

I said yes, I knew what he was thinking, I said yes.

July 21, xx

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