"Zhang Ailing" said - time and new love are the best way to forget your ex, and God only gives Gu Chen time.

Yes, he didn't forget the past for a moment.

It turns out that if there are too many sorrows and farewells in a person's heart, no matter how deep and good the concealment is, it will definitely reveal clues.

In Gu Chen's dreams, Ruo Xi would often wear that goose yellow coat and appear many times, she smiled like a flower, full of charm, he wanted to catch her, but she was so ethereal, so unreachable.

In the previous life, such entanglements were called "obsessions", just like Gu Chen and Ai Ziye, who made a long-cherished wish for three lives and three lives.

Maybe it's not long enough, maybe it's another 10 years? Or 20 years, he will always be relieved, right? He should always marry a wife and have children, I think the run-in of time will eventually make love become family.

Balzac, the father of modern novelists, once said: "In the stormy seas of life, we often learn to be the captain of a ship, throwing away the bulky cargo under the storm, in order to reduce the weight of the ship and ensure the safety of the crew." ”

So we were like a monkey coming down the mountain for the first time, picking up sesame seeds and losing watermelons, and the farther and farther we went, the more we lost them......

Perhaps, love is blind, when you fall in love with someone, maybe you have lost your rational thinking, and you are talking about women in love are fools, in fact, men are no exception.

At the ferry of time, he made a raft with chalk, and wrote the most beautiful encounter into his heart, the gentleness of the mountains and rivers of this journey, through the life and life, in this ninefold heaven, only Ruo Xi is his only one.

I met her that year, Gu Chen was 47 years old.

Sending away batches of children, the children who got ahead always come back with soju every year, and look at their original volunteer teacher, who let the children go out of the mountains and into the world.

They won't forget.

Zhang Ailing's sentence often becomes the focus of their conversation after dinner, in fact, the children know that this sentence is not the teacher's mistake, but the teacher adapted it and said the words that he has buried in his heart for more than ten years.

In 2020, among the batch of volunteer teachers who had just been sent, there was a single female teacher who was about the same age as Gu Chen.

She said her name was Zhao Xun, and she taught history.

He is about 1.6.5 meters tall and dressed extremely plainly, but he does not lose his demeanor at all.

A long black and bright hair also has a high ponytail, two deep dimples embedded in the round face, a pair of pure black glasses frames on the high bridge of the nose, clear eyes, blazing, and a lively appearance of a people's teacher.

Gu Chen thought her name was very interesting, and gradually, the two of them had endless words, and Gu Chen, as the "host", took Zhao to find a place to go around.

"Xiao Zhao, who gave you your name, I think it's quite interesting." Gu Chen quipped.

"Let Teacher Gu smile, my father gave me the name."

"Where, I think it's good, is there any deep meaning?"

Zhao Xun didn't say it for a long time.

"It's okay, Xiao Zhao, let's stop talking about it if it's inconvenient." After speaking, the two looked at each other and smiled.

Gu Chen took her to the river, to the rice fields, and to the top of the mountain.

Later, I heard her say that she came here to teach in order to fulfill a wish she had made for many years.

A few months later, Zhao Xun confessed.

Zhao Xun, an authentic Beijing girl, speaks fluent Beijing-style Mandarin.

She said that if she used color to describe her life, she felt that she had only used it in her life, black, white, and gray.

Before she was born for 100 days, her mother ran away with a fur man, of course, when she grew up and asked her mother repeatedly why she divorced you.

At that time, I hated my mother very much.

As for this name, in fact, before, she was not called like that, her name was Zhao Xinran, after her mother ran away with the man, his father found her another stepmother, the previous name was given to her by her mother, his father said that the slut woman left us and ran away, so she simply went to the police station to change her name, I will find you a stepmother, just call Zhao Find, I wish me to find a woman with long breasts and long thighs and big buttocks as soon as possible.

Speaking of this, Zhao Xun took a deep breath and took a big sip of peach blossom brew. (Home-brewed liquor in the name of the local village)

The new stepmother used to be a sitting, since she met her father, she changed jobs, pushed wine in KTV, served dishes in restaurants, washed feet in the city, but couldn't do anything, and then simply opened a bone tube with her father, selling all bones, pigs, sheep, cows, donkeys, and even dogs......

When she was a child, she had to go to the bone tube to help after school every day, and when she was busy, she didn't have time to do her homework, and none of the final exams were passed, and her father often beat and scolded her, saying that she was the same as her mother who ran away, she was a cheap bone, and she would be the same in the future.

When she was 13 years old, she came back from school one day, and suddenly saw that her father bought a chicken, two days of fresh fish, a pigeon, and a big bag of red dates and brown sugar.

My father had made a lot of money this time, but he was very excited.

The stepmother's belly is getting bigger and bigger, and she is about to give birth in a few months, she and her father came to the hospital to wait for delivery, and wanted to hold her son, but the father was so happy.

Her father walked anxiously up and down the hallway, and she was the only one sitting on the bench in the hallway, and that day, the whole hospital was quiet, there was no crying, no prayer, no noise from doctors and patients.

After a while, a doctor in a green surgical gown with a pair of blood-drenched gloves came out.

I can't help but feel a chill.

The doctor in the surgical gown told my father that your lover was bleeding heavily, and the form was so severe that it was uncontrollable.

My father screamed in a panic, unconsciously, so can my wife be saved? What about my child? What about children? Will the child be safe?

Fathers only care about their children!

The doctor told the father that the child was safe.

That's right, the stepmother died on the operating table with massive hemorrhage, and without leaving a word, she left a son, a healthy son, the lifeblood of the old Zhao family.

Although it is said that the stepmother is not as good as other people's own mothers to her own children, the stepmother has not stumbled her in life in the past few years, she is a good woman, in this life, in fact, her life is very hard.

The younger brother was born, and his father gave him a name.

My brother and I are the closest, and he doesn't know that he and I are not brothers and sisters.

At the age of 23, I finally graduated from college and I was finally able to catch my breath.

Since high school, she has been working and studying part-time, and until college, her father's bone management business is getting worse and worse, and the few money she earned are spent on her younger brother, and she can go to college because of her persistence and hard work.

After graduating and working for a year, she saved a little savings, bought a new mobile phone for her father, bought a new clothes for her younger brother, and went away with her schoolbag.

She said that she went to many places, all the way to the north, Shigatse, Lhasa, Kanas, Erguna City, Hulunbuir......

She had stayed in a small hotel, slept in the passage of the bridge, and slept on a park bench, because she didn't have a lot of money, and only a few dollars to pay for the journey.

She just wanted to go out and see.

She met a lot of backpackers, also met a lot of locals, added WeChat, left a phone number, and in this trip, she established her desire to teach in the frontier, and she also wanted to do something for this country.

Because you don't know, there are really people in this world who are living lives that you can't imagine, and poverty fills everyone's cells.

Finally, her younger brother is about to go to college, and the family conditions are getting better, she went to find the neighbors around her, she wants to go to find her mother, she wants to ask her face to face, why did she run away with that man in the first place, and for so many years, she didn't come back to see her once, don't you want her? Anyway, she was also a piece of meat that fell from her.

finally asked for the address of her "grandma" from a lady, and in her heart, the word grandma was vague.

Zhao is happy, although there is resentment in her heart, but after all, this is her mother, after all, mother and son are connected, and mother and son have no overnight hatred!

Zhao found the address on the paper by herself, of course, she had to hide it from her father.

When I went, I found that the doors and windows were broken, and the yard was overgrown with weeds, and it looked like it had not been populated for many years.

Is it moving?

Eventually, she found a few houses where people lived, and after asking about them, the man told her that your mother had died a long time ago.

It was like a bolt from the blue that hit her head.

Listening to them, it turned out that her mother was not beaten away by her father, and there were no wild men at all, in this kind of small county, like running back to her parents' house because of divorce, she didn't dare to publicize it more, so the neighbors didn't know too well.

"Your mom died of cancer."

Zhao clearly remembered this sentence, this was an old man who said it to her, eighty years old, and since then, this sentence has stirred every inch of her skin! Countless nightmares haunted her.

Esophageal cancer.

When I die, I can't even eat, I can't swallow water, milk, or anything, alas, it's really pitiful to say, what a sin!

Zhao's life was miserable, she was kicked out of the house by her husband just after giving birth, and when she returned to her parents' house, she was overly sad and contracted this bad disease.

She thought that she could find her mother, she thought that her life could be painted, she thought that she could find people to love and be loved in this world, but she thought that what fate gave her was just the beginning.

It turns out that growing up is not the happiest.