Chapter 46: Sadness and parting, far away to peace
The night was like water, the starlight was silently fluttering on the horizon, the wind drove the rustling of green plants, and there were a few bottles of medium-strength wine lying on the white table.
"Gourd baby, gourd baby, seven flowers on a vine..."
The funny mobile phone ringtone can only be made by Xin Xiaoluo, a wonderful girl, no matter how hard it is, it no longer seems so sad to put it on her, how fortunate to meet such a friend.
"Hey! Da Bing, only call me once in half a month? I miss you!"
I haven't seen her for more than ten days, and when I hear her voice, it seems like it was yesterday again, and they laugh and make trouble together.
"Xiaoluo, I miss you too, how are you doing?"
"I keep a small shop at home and work as a helper for Xin's father, and my mother said that as long as I keep the store honestly for twenty days, the pocket money is more than five hundred, five hundred, which is not a small amount!"
Converted into twenty-five yuan a day, she has become a cheap laborer, but she is very satisfied with her salary, her family's money is not earned in vain, and it is not good to earn more, five hundred is just right.
"How's the business?"
"Ahh Forehead... It's okay, it's okay. How embarrassed she was to say that she didn't sell much in the store, and she ate a few boxes of ice cream by herself, and she couldn't make ends meet.
"Oh."
"Da Bing, what about you, how are you doing? If it's not fun to come to my house, I'll entertain you!"
A warm invitation, she didn't know how to respond for a while.
"If you don't have a good time, you can't go to your house."
Really hurt to answer, looking back at the messy living room, lifeless and gray, she couldn't find the slightest sense of belonging, home is not home, people are not like people.
"What do you mean? Are you unhappy at home? Lian Bing's voice on the phone was very bad, and the unprovoked sadness overflowed through the screen.
"Xiaoluo, I'm going to Colombia tomorrow, the plane at twelve o'clock, and I can't accompany you for the next three years. I'm sorry to tell you now. ”
"Why didn't you tell her if you went abroad as an exchange student?" She doesn't like going abroad, but she will never be a stumbling block to her friends.
"Xiaoluo..."
"Did you ask for leave to go home and get the documents that day to apply abroad?"
"Yes, I lied to you. It was later that I decided to go abroad, because I was almost out of breath and I wanted to stay away from here. You're mad at meeting a friend like me. ”
"I'm super invincible to explosive gas!"
"But I'm angry that you hide your emotions too deeply, and if there are any unhappy things to say, I can share them for you. Leaving is an escape rather than a relief, and you will be trapped in a cage and it will be difficult to get out. ”
The opposite of being too normal is abnormal, and even Bing basically doesn't show her bad temper in the past year, and she's quiet to a terrible degree, unlike her who writes all her joys, sorrows, and sorrows on her face, and she doesn't have to guess at all.
"I'm used to hiding, those painful memories will drown me like a flood that breaks the gate once opened, and you can't save me ashore, it's not that you haven't tried to say it, and the consequence is to fall into an infinite vicious circle."
It's not that I don't want to say it, it's just that it hurts too much, it hurts too much.
"Da Bing, I don't know why you have to leave here, but I know that everyone needs to have their own hearts and secrets, and if you say your thoughts and secrets will hurt you, I don't want to hear it."
It's true that she is a big grinning person, but she knows to give the other party a space to store unassumable emotions.
"Xiaoluo..."
"Da Bing, it's been a pleasure to live with you this year. Woo, I'm sorry I can't hold back my tears now, you wait for me to finish. I don't believe you'll stay abroad forever and be the first to come to me when you want to come back! I'm going to settle accounts with you about the first cut and then the prelude! Also, I will live well without you, and I will meet friends who are a hundred times better than you!"
Without you, no one would have brought me breakfast again; Without you, no one would ever pay attention to the new milk tea and cakes for me; Without you, there would be no 175 big beauty to protect me.
"Thank you, my Xiaoluo, I want to keep this way forever, I know the hurt but I am warm, pure and not stupid, goodbye."
When I feel like I can come back, I'll tell you my story, and I'll be reborn and indestructible.
Xin's Cottage –
"Woooooooo Ahhhh
"Woooooo Ahhhh
"Hey, what's wrong with my daughter Xiaoluo? What are you crying about, is the male protagonist dead or the female protagonist dead? ”
Xin Xiaoluo's earth-shattering crying of ghosts and gods shook Xin Jiangguo in the next room, and it was the first time he heard his own girl crying so miserably.
"Dad Xin, I'm going to have no friends in the future, she... She's out of the country!" The whole person cried and swallowed his saliva, and he couldn't breathe.
"A good friend is going abroad?" Wiping sweat, her girl is finally normal, not crying for messy things.
Her eyes were red and swollen, and she nodded vigorously, "Mmmmmmmm
Xin Jiangguo sat down on the edge of Xin Xiaoluo's bed, patted her back with his hand, and told her gently and lovingly:
"Xiaoluo, people spend their lives in meeting and parting, without exception. The lover who can accompany you for life will also go, the eternal law of nature. What we have to do is to cherish every feeling, not let time dilute them, and maintain the best appearance. ”
"Dad, what you said is so philosophical!"
"Is that not it?" Where is it like the ghost crying wolf howling just now, and now he looks like a monkey.
"Dad, I want to do something, but I need your support, can you help me?" The big eyes are rolling around, black and not slipping, innocent and cute.
"You say, Daddy!" Let's just say that there was a time when he didn't help?
"I'd like to borrow your money! Don't tell me no, I see you're hiding, Dad. ”
Cunning! Count it and he'll deny it!
"Huh? This... How much to borrow? ”
"A few hundred dollars is fine!" He hid a total of a few hundred yuan and raised a black-hearted daughter!
Kitasato Airport –
There were still twenty minutes left before boarding, Lian Bing looked at the surging crowd with her suitcase, no one came to see her off, and it was expected that the hope was no longer pinned on the immature parents, and she would not be looking forward to them.
Before she came, she deliberately walked very slowly, trying to carve the familiar place into her mind, and at the end of leaving, she was most reluctant to be a friend at school, after all, it was the only place that had given her happiness, and she fled because she was more suitable for free loneliness, and her situation did not allow herself to be exposed to them.
Let's go, let's go, don't look back, can't look back.
"Da Bing, wait for us!"
Is it a hallucination? She saw Xin Xiaoluo's bright smiling face, and the big man Zhang Yunjie, why was the illusion so real, she couldn't take a step, and she couldn't suppress the tears that fell.
"Da Bing, we're here, are we surprised, surprised?" Xin Xiaoluo bent his crescent-shaped eyes, eccentric.
"Lian Bing, we're here to see you off." Zhang Yunjie is thinner than before, and his silhouette is heroic.
"You... How did it come? ”
"I informed Zhang Yunjie overnight yesterday, I got the earliest ticket from our city to here and rushed here, I think you need our send-off!"
She robbed Xin's father of all his private money last night, left home and ran to the airport while they were sleeping, came here in the dust, and met Zhang Yunjie first.
"Thank you."
She couldn't repay the touching she took.
"Everything is in plain sight, the last person to hold one as a farewell."
"Hug me first, Da Bing!"
"Hmm."
Xin Xiaoluo threw herself into Lian Bing's arms, and she leaned on Lian Bing, "Da Bing, don't mention the past, have a safe journey, remember to miss me." ”
"Hmm."
"Okay, it's time for Zhang Yunjie, if he boards the plane, he will hate me."
I couldn't control it, my eyes were still red, and I was fine before I came to the airport.
"Yun Jie, hug..."
Suddenly hugged tightly, the hands that clamped her back burst out, pressed her head in her arms, and couldn't tell her intelligible like, rubbing into the bone marrow couldn't solve his thoughts, and hugging into his arms couldn't get rid of the dull feeling of happiness and pain.
"Lian Bing, I like you. I've never officially told you that this is the last chance, and I'm useless to even say such a simple "like", so I'll tell you before you leave. You don't have to be stressed, I will be relieved and will forget. ”
"Xiaoluo didn't tell me why you left, and I didn't ask, it doesn't seem to make much sense to me to know too much, so I wish you well, happy and happy."
Lian Bing put his hand on his back, he really lost a lot of weight, and what he touched was a rugged and hard skeleton, this was the first time I hugged him, but I didn't expect it to be in the way of goodbye. She wasn't mistaken, he would be fine, he would be healed.
"Yun Jie, you are very good, I have no blessing, goodbye."
No matter how good it is? You don't see, you don't care, a short hug, a fruitless like, will eventually flow into time and be buried in the years.
However, there are no regrets.
The roar of the airplane resounded in the sky, drawing indescriptible shapes in the sky, which left a unique mark on the departure and parting, which people forget, it will remember for them, but the wind will blow away.
The man behind the white square pillar watched this humble farewell, he watched her frown and blush, watched her look back at the crowd on her fingers, watched her resolutely choose to leave, could he be selfish to think that she was thinking about him for a second when she looked at the surging crowd in confusion?
He is not a person who is easily hurt and gives up, and he will not throw his heart away because of a few words she maliciously stabbed him. Those intimacy and the past are mostly due to his compulsion and obsession, but he doesn't believe that she is not tempted, she can deceive others but can't deceive him. When he found out that she was going abroad, he was angry and manic at first, and then when he found out about her past and her family, he gave up trying to stop her, maybe the distance was where she belonged.
However, he will not allow her to stay outside forever, she must come back, no matter what means, she must return, return to his arms, and leave the wounds that are not well healed to him.
Three years, how long? Wait for her.
Three years, how short? To grow, to expand power, to strengthen wings.
For three years, he hoped that she would harvest, solve difficulties, and be relieved.