During that time, like all rebellious children, Zhao Xun also tried smoking, drinking, dyeing her hair, swearing, and even fighting, but the only thing she didn't try was to fall in love.

In her place, this is the line of defense, and it is the final bottom line.

She couldn't bear to touch it, and she didn't dare to touch it, about love, about sex, it really made her pay too much for it.

No matter how she stood under the faucet shower, how she rinsed and rubbed, those memories of dirtiness can no longer linger, but they are like a nightmare, in the deserted street, in the dark night, scene after scene, scene after scene......

It wasn't until later that Zhao Xun realized that maybe that kind of life was not suitable for her.

And so that firm, crisp, lovely voice sounded again.

"Life is always indescribable, in fact, the most important thing is to live in the moment and have a clear conscience."

Maybe when you really experienced these things only in adolescence, maybe when you are old, you can confidently say that Lao Tzu was once young.

But when Zhao Zhaozheng went through these things, she had already become a woman.

She is no longer young, and she is no longer young, even if she has thousands of emotions in her heart, she is the same as all living beings, she also needs to run for tomorrow's livelihood, she also needs to calculate for the firewood, rice, oil and salt of the family, and she also needs to calculate for eating, drinking, and Lazar, just like that, day after day, year after year.

Once upon a time, Zhao Xun also asked herself if this kind of life was what she wanted, but all the answers after that didn't seem to have made any substantive answers, so, day after day, year after year.

Sometimes Zhao Xun feels like a walking human flesh machine, day after day, year after year, seeing the same people again every day, doing the same things over and over again every day.

Every time she felt that she couldn't hold on, Zhao Xun would curl up on her small bed like a little girl, telling the long night about her affection and misfortune.

Or lean down, and then touch my own shadow, and tell myself that I am okay, I am okay, even if life ravages me in every way, I want to treat life like my first love.

Because Zhao Xun always believes that there are really people in this world who are living the life she wants, who can work from 9 to 5 and wander the world.

In this way, the past does not look back, so Zhao Xun has no hesitation, day after day, year after year......

It never stops, this is courage, faith, and redemption!

Zhao Xun finally made up her mind to buy the house she had negotiated before, and God knows how much courage it took her to decide to embark on a long journey to see the house again.

After talking to the intermediary about related matters, Zhao Xun called his younger brother, and his younger brother said that he was busy with work recently, so he couldn't take leave, and he was always running all over the world, so he didn't go back to see the house first, and it was all up to his sister to decide.

Since the last lesson, Zhao Xun has been very reluctant to look at the house, although she knows that this time the intermediary was introduced by a colleague in the unit, it must be the most reliable one, but she thinks it is better to be careful.

The time was set for a Sunday, and Zhao asked a girl from the unit to go with her, which can be regarded as the two of them being able to strengthen their courage in the past.

Zhao Xun and others went to see the house, whether it is hardware or software facilities are just right for Zhao Zhao's appetite, two rooms and one living room, with kitchen, with bathroom, covering a total area of almost 80 square meters, after all, he and his father live, and there is no need for a big house, but this small square meter does not seem to be so crowded.

After discussing it in the long run, it didn't take long for Zhao Xun to pay the down payment.

Zhao Xun sent a few photos to his younger brother, and his younger brother also agreed, and his younger brother also thought that this house was quite good, and his father would definitely like it then.

After all, it was such a big surprise hidden from his father, Zhao Xun sometimes felt a little uncomfortable, somehow, that kind of emotion was really amazing.

After the house was handed over, the keys were handed over, and the house now officially belongs to Zhao Zhao, but after Zhao Xun discussed with his younger brother, the name of his father was written on the real estate certificate, and they felt that this house should belong to his father, and his father had worked hard all his life, no matter what the result was, these two children were brought up by him with a handful of shit and urine, not others.

We are all human beings, we all have feelings, and now it's time to repay our father.

At least now Zhao Xun thinks so, I hope God doesn't mind, because before Zhao Xun really thought about leaving this home, leaving her father, and never coming back, so she studied hard, took exams desperately, and desperately left here, but later, including now, this idea really doesn't exist, God testifies!

There is nothing happier in the world than to have a smile on a person's face because of you.

When Zhao Xun and his younger brother handed over the key to the new house to their father, his father smiled, and the smile was very sweet.

Although his father muttered about spending money indiscriminately, he still bought a big house to live in when he was old, and he didn't like to live in a building.

Zhao Xun actually knows very well in his heart, his father must be happy, this may be the stubbornness from the old father's heart, he has suffered all his life, although his father has little study, but he still understands this, he doesn't want the children to live exactly the same life as their generation.

In fact, Zhao Xun originally planned to wait for the house to be renovated before telling his father, or to bring his father over directly, and at that time it must be even more surprising than now.

But after all, decoration also requires a lot of money, and there are some refrigerators, washing machines and other tables, chairs and benches at home can still be used, there is no need to spend extra money to buy a new set of furniture, besides, the younger brother is so big, it is time to think about marrying a daughter-in-law in the future.

At that time, my father was very resolute anyway, and he said that the last thing he wanted to change when he went to a new house was that color TV, no matter how heavy, he just wanted to move in together.

Zhao Xun remembered that other people's homes were basically installed with that kind of ultra-thin cable TV at that time,Only my own home is still the Changhong color TV,It seems to have it when she was a child,Although it's not the old eight-button TV,But you also need that kind of small video pot to adjust the signal。 (I don't know if you know this kind of TV with a pot)

This kind of color TV is not only heavy,And when it rains and thunders on a cloudy day,Sometimes the signal will be bad,The TV screen flashes and flashes,Now there are conditions,Zhao Xun has long wanted to change it,But how can I stand my father's bad temper,My father said that I must move,I must move over,Even if I don't bring it when I move,My father will still secretly come back and move over。

Maybe the older generation of people like nostalgia and the past, so my father always likes those old things, so that after moving over, a lot of furniture does not need to be bought, except for some common items in the kitchen and bathroom, and I don't spend a few more money to buy new furniture.

Father also said that you young people nowadays, when things are broken, they throw them away, and then they have to replace them with new ones, which was not the case in the days when they bought them, when things were broken, they could be repaired, including people's hearts.

At that moment, Zhao Xun seemed to be able to understand the humiliation of his father's ability to forgive the former self who kept calling Liu Laizi to splash his skin.

Things are almost moved, the fly in the ointment is that there is no bedroom for the younger brother at home, but this is the same as before, in the old house, the younger brother did not have a bedroom, when he was young, he always slept with his sister, and then when he grew up, the younger brother began to sleep with his father.

The younger brother always said that he didn't mind, he couldn't come back to the house a few times a year, and it was actually good to squeeze and sleep in a bed with his father when he came home.

Zhao Xun finally relied on his father, so that the renovated new home and the old house were not the same, but his father said that there were only two words to live like this, comfortable!

For a long time after that, Zhao Xun didn't seem to find anything wrong with his father, his father was still the same as before, the building was the square to live, and the square was to live in the building, he was still used to bringing some things back from the restaurant, but now this is a three-story building, or a walking ladder, and the heavy dozens of kilograms of things are not a joke.

Looking at his father's increasingly white hair, Zhao Xun still couldn't help but remind his father carefully, and then his father would suddenly say a few words funny, he had forgotten to move to a big house now, and said that he might really not enjoy this high house, and sometimes he would stand at the door when he came out of the restaurant and think about how to return home from that road for a long time, and then the two looked at each other and smiled.

Zhao Xun knew that in his father's heart, it must be sweet at this time.

Several times Zhao Xun would tell his father euphemistically that now he is also a little older, there is a younger brother and her at home, and life is getting better and better, so the small restaurant is really not good, so it will be transferred.

It can be regarded as reducing the pressure on his father, although Zhao Xun can't accompany his father to say where to travel, but he can also ensure that he has three meals a day without worrying about food and clothing, and playing chess, fishing, and square dancing is also uninterrupted.

Father is really an old father, he also has his stubbornness, when he has the strength, he will never be idle, he will sometimes say that he will eat as much as he wants, eat more and eat more, we are a society that distributes according to work.

Every time Zhao Xun was made to laugh by his father's broken thoughts.

In fact, life is really so simple sometimes, but it is to be with the person you love, three meals a day, and then eat many, many meals together.