Life is very long, so long that no matter what, we can't forget a person.

Life is so short that no matter what, we can't remember a person anymore.

Even if this person has made you feel unhappy in the past, this person may be your relative, lover, or friend.

However, so we always have to believe that as long as it is not a matter of life and death, these things that bother you and sorrow are not things after all.

One day, these stories that can move you will also become your stories and touch more people.

Zhao Xun said that her memory of the rainy night is special, whether it was when she was a child at the kind grandmother's house, or this time, for herself, it can be said to be a growth, or it can be said to be a redemption.

Zhao Xun pushed open the door that day and saw his father standing on a wooden bench in the middle of the old house.

Seeing someone come in, my father put down his work, first glanced at Zhao Xun, and then turned his head again.

The empty living room was even more empty, and the old father standing on the wooden stool was as lonely and helpless as a crumpled old newspaper.

Thousands of thoughts came to his mind at once, but Zhao Xun couldn't say anything with his mouth open.

At least now Zhao Xun can be sure that his father is safe and sound, and a heart that has been hanging all night can finally be put down.

"Dad, what are you doing? Why didn't you come home all night? My brother and I have been looking for you all night. ”

Father shook his head, still silent, still fiddling with the old electric light overhead.

This electric light can be said to be very historical, since Zhao Xun remembers, it seems that it has only been broken once, and it is also on a rainy day, but it is rare to see rain like that day, because the light is turned on when the thunder is on, I don't know if it is powerful, or the electricity is exposed, in short, the electric light on that day suddenly flashed.

It took a long time for my father to fix it, and the family was poor at that time, unlike now, all kinds of high-power electrical appliances are used every day, like what TV, and the computer is turned on all day long.

Zhao Xun remembers that when he was a child, in order to save a few electricity bills, his father yelled that he couldn't turn on the lights early every night, so he always waited until the sun went down every day, and there was really no light in the house before he was willing to let Zhao find the sisters and brothers to turn on the lights.

And the power of that lamp is also pitiful, it seems to be about 30 degrees, in short, in Zhao Xun's memory, it is like this.

If there is any rainy day, or thunder, lightning or something, if you don't turn on the lights, you won't turn on the lights, my father knew that Zhao Xun was afraid of the dark since he was a child, so he simply bought a small table lamp for Zhao Xun in the town, so that he could save electricity bills, and Zhao Xun didn't need to be so scared at night during a thunderstorm.

Zhao Xun, who had a false alarm, wanted to immediately tell his younger brother who was still looking for his father in the pouring rain about finding his father, but he didn't go out with his mobile phone, so it seemed that he could only let his younger brother be anxious for a while.

"Dad, haven't you slept all night?"

"Dad, Dad, Dad?"

Zhao asked tentatively, afraid of startling his father on the stool, but his father remained silent.

In this way, Zhao Xun looked at his father on the stool and seemed to be a little shaky, Zhao Xun went over and helped the bench, looking at his father with a serious face, Zhao Xun no longer dared to say anything.

The thunder gradually subsided, the dark night sky also dispersed little by little, and there seemed to be more pedestrians outside the door.

The air after the rain seemed to be much clearer in an instant, and Zhao Xun stood in the house, and he could see far away, very high, as if he had a wider field of vision than when he stood in the old house before.

With a "pop-" sound, the electric light suddenly turned on and stopped flickering.

"It's finally fixed!" The father clapped his hands and said, that expression, that action, that happy look like a three-year-old child.

Zhao Xun could feel the sense of relief between the lines of his father's words.

"Wow, it's really fixed, the lights don't flicker, Dad, you're really amazing, come, Dad, let's get down from here quickly."

The father did not answer, but was silent for a while:

"Let me tell you, I have been afraid of the dark since I was a child, I know that when this house is in a thunderstorm, this lamp is always not good, I came over overnight to quickly repair it, so that the child no longer has to sleep with a small lamp......"

Suddenly, Zhao Xun's tears were like a spring, and the nerves that had been tense all night were completely released at this moment.

Zhao Xun didn't know what to say, for so many years, when she was most wronged and sad, she had wondered if she was born by her father.

She thought about running away from home, about going to work in the field and never coming back, and even wanted to kill herself to give back to this resentful world.

At that time, she really hated the world, why other people's children were born with mothers but she didn't, why other people's children didn't have to do those jobs that belonged to adults, why other people's children didn't have to worry about tomorrow's living expenses, why other people's children could fall in love freely as soon as they graduated, but she wanted to marry a man who had been a bachelor all her life and was thirty years older than her......

Zhao Xun felt that all this was unfair, why were they all his children, but his father had a different attitude towards his younger brother, she hated the father who kept saying that he was his own father and wanted to cover her whole day with one hand, she felt that it was her father who pushed her into the abyss.

She hated everything here, so much!

But at this moment, in the face of her father's words, Zhao Xun was ashamed of these thoughts she had had!

"This kid, what are you crying about, come, wipe it for you!"

The father pulled one sleeve, shrunk his arm very inward, and then stretched out in front of Zhao Xun.

Zhao Xun couldn't help but laugh.

"Dad, what are you doing, I'm fine, look at you, the lights have been repaired, then let's go back quickly, my brother is still worried outside."

"Okay, let's go."

Zhao Xun didn't know, in fact, at this time, her father's illness was already very serious, but she didn't want to believe all this, and she didn't want to see the worst outcome.

That's it, mediocrity disturbs herself, self-deception, she thinks it's good, at least the heart-wrenching pain can come later, later.

As soon as he brought his father home, Zhao Xun hurriedly called his younger brother back on the landline, and his younger brother was very excited on the phone.

Zhao Xun boiled a bowl of porridge for his father, and when he watched his father drink it all, Zhao Xun felt a trace of hunger.

Looking for his father, presumably his younger brother hasn't eaten all day, and when Zhao Xun was cooking for his younger brother, his younger brother happened to come back.

"Sister, where's Dad?"

Before I saw him, I heard my brother's shouting at the entrance of the building.

Zhao Xun hurriedly went out to greet him, and he didn't pay much attention to his brother's little face at night, under the light of the sun, it was so sallow, and Zhao Xun felt a sour feeling in his heart.

"Sister, what about our dad???"

"Hey, Dad was still in the living room just now, aren't you going back to the bedroom?"

Zhao Xun and his younger brother came to his father's bedroom, and it turned out that his father had already fallen asleep.

Looking at his father's sleeping face, Zhao Xun could feel the joy of his younger brother's smile, how to say it, it was a bit like the feeling of the rest of his life after the catastrophe, this feeling, Zhao Xun said that in the days that followed, she never saw it again.

Zhao Xun gently closed the door and came out with his younger brother.

"How? I'm hungry, my sister is cooking for you. ”

"It's okay, I'm not hungry, I don't feel anything, sister, where did you find our dad?"

"Alas, in fact, I was almost about to give up, I thought I would call the police after 24 hours, but when I passed by our old house, I suddenly saw the lights in the house flashing, so I went in to take a look, but I didn't expect to find our father."

"Isn't it? In our house? Did Dad say anything? ”

"No, Dad seems to be a different person, I asked him, but he didn't say anything, and then he came back with me, I guess he was too tired."

"Hmm, I guess I'm tired, let Dad sleep for a while."

After eating, Zhao Xun asked his younger brother to go back to sleep, and that day, Zhao Xun and the unit took a full day off, and she said that she wanted to accompany them.

In fact, in this life, whether good or bad, is God's arrangement, and who we meet or who we lose is probably not within the scope of our own decision.

Zhao Xun is like this, Liu Ya is like this, stepmother is like this, kind grandma is like this, and so is the landlord's cat......

In this journey, we are looking for the most authentic, primitive, and happiest self over and over again, but in the end, we find that we seem to have gone in the wrong direction unconsciously, or even lost our way, and then unconsciously become the most hated appearance of ourselves.

But can you say that you didn't work hard enough? Is it because you don't look good enough? Or are your connections not tough enough?

No, it's not, none of these are things, it's man-made, everything you are facing is you, and it comes from you, in the face of the desire for money, in the face of the panic of loss, in the face of the loss of loved ones, we choose to retreat, choose to escape, and even choose to forget, but we can't forget our original appearance.

Because we can't question those flesh and blood kinship that are dissolved in blood and water, because that must be the most precious and undoubted wealth in your life.

And those encounters, those losses, and those sadness during this period have constantly taught us to grow and how to meet a better version of ourselves.

With a famous saying that may be very earthy, that is: "Don't forget the original intention", you may think that this sentence has these bad streets, but when you can really read this sentence, it must be that you are young.

The love is separated by mountains and seas, and the mountains and seas can be filled.