In their lifetimes, Liu Ya and Wang Hao met in a narrow way, but the last brave man was not Liu Ya, but Wang Hao.

Since then, the mountains and rivers are long, one is wide, and they do not disturb each other.

No one knows where Wang Hao went back then, no one knows how Wang Hao is doing now, no one knows whether Wang Hao really paid sincerely, and no one knows what Wang Hao did with the 3,000 yuan.

Many years later, only a monologue by Liu Ya is dedicated to the youth that has passed away in those years:

When I saw you again, I never thought that it would be such a scene, nor did I expect that after so many years of obsessiveness, it would be so calm and calm.

Wang: He is very nice to me, they have a son, very cute, when he divorced his ex-wife, the son followed his mother, but now they have immigrated to Los Angeles, and they may come home for two days every year during the summer vacation.

I have been married to Lao Wang for more than 10 years, and we have long discussed that we will no longer have children.

But for a woman, she has never been a mother in her life, and of course she will not experience what it is like to be a mother.

In fact, sometimes when I see others going out to eat, they have a family of three or a family of four, and I am very envious, and I even think of my mother.

But at that time, I feel that it is the right choice for us not to have children, at least our children will not be like me in the future, without a mother since childhood.

As for the younger brother!

To tell you the truth, at that time, I worked hard to provide for him to go to school, and even worked hard for him to go to school, but then it may be that I really can't persevere, or maybe I was dyed by the big city of Beijing, and I was lost and hesitant for a while.

In this life, I want to live a life of struggle and hard work with my own hands, and to live a good and happy life like others.

But when you want to face life positively, life is like a grass and mud horse, and from time to time it will give you another kick, God closed my door but did not open the window for me.

So I can only take shortcuts, am I really greedy for vanity and wealth? Isn't it shameful for people like me?

On the way, I met Lao Wang, he gave me money, gave me a good life, helped me with my brother's education, and he also said that he wanted to marry me.

At first, I didn't say yes, I thought I was really young.

But later, in the face of my brother's high tuition, I didn't study much, and I didn't know that the cost of going to school would be so large.

Because of Lao Wang's help, his younger brother's tuition fee is also more relaxed, in addition to going to school, he can also buy his favorite sneakers, and he can also go to watch his favorite ball games.

It's just that I don't know why my brother is like a different person later.

Every time he came back, he asked me for a lot of money, and he talked to me less and less, and once, when he picked him up at the school gate after school, I saw that he had actually been with a girl all the time, and all his money was given to her.

It was also during my private investigation that I learned that the girl was actually the same as me, to be precise, like both of us, and she was also a child of a single-parent family.

Whether it's to warm each other or admire each other, in short, I didn't care about him, nor did I dismantle him.

I seem to see myself in them, and I also saw Wang Hao back then.

When I was at my most helpless and desperate, he appeared like a savior.

Lao Wang is very good, really good, good to me, and good to my brother.

After all, my younger brother didn't go to school, and finally spent money to go to college and study his favorite IT major, but he was expelled from the school in the second semester of his freshman year, and finally he had to be persuaded to quit.

It doesn't matter how much you spend, because the brother's heart is not there anymore.

Later, my younger brother once liked musical instruments, he said that he wanted to play music, and he wanted to go all the way west to Dali, but I was reluctant at first, I was afraid that he would suffer.

In this life, I am the only one left to rely on him, and my father can't get out of it, so I have the responsibility and obligation to take care of him until he gets married.

Maybe it's because my younger brother hasn't been waiting to see Lao Wang, he always posts some negative things on Weibo, and even hopes to go back to the past.

He said that although the previous days were hard, there was a sister at home, an uncle Zhao, and a sister, and life would not become as numb as it is now.

I know that my brother doesn't want me to suffer, and he also knows that a large part of the reason why I decided to marry Lao Wang in the first place was also because of my brother's schooling problems.

The younger brother has always looked down on himself, he thinks that it is because of himself that he has created his current life, maybe this is the so-called backbone in the mouths of men, they would rather sit on a bicycle and laugh than cry in a live BMW, but they ignore the most important point, that is, what a woman really wants.

The younger brother's academic performance has been plummeting, and later he also learned to fall in love, smoke, and drink.

I bought my brother a folk guitar, which was not expensive, only a few hundred dollars.

The younger brother said that he didn't want it to be good, and when he had the ability in the future, he would change it himself, and if it didn't work, he wouldn't want to come back.

The younger brother never asked where his father had gone, and I think he should know by now.

The day I sent my brother away, if it wasn't for Lao Wang by my side, I think I would have fainted when I went out, or crashed when I went out, in short, I felt that day, the sky was gray, there was no light, I was afraid, I was desperate, I couldn't breathe, I even thought I was about to die suddenly.

Lao Wang patted me, and we returned to a peaceful life.

Lao Wang is still the same as before, going to work and socializing, not going home all night and all night, going on a business trip all month long, and there are only me and the dog in the big room.

Eat and sleep, sleep and eat again, don't need me to cook, Lao Wang hired a nanny, once Lao Wang came back drunk, fell asleep, I found two movie tickets in his clothes.

I can even smell the faint smell of perfume on Lao Wang's shirt.

I didn't say anything, I didn't ask anything, and I knew that even if I did, nothing would end well.

To tell the truth, now I have a superior material life, I have a big house that others envy, a sports car that I envy, although I don't have a job, but my life can also be at my disposal.

For the rest of my life, I just want to spend it quietly, and I don't want to toss anything anymore.

Irregular life, a life of good wine and meat, Lao Wang can only get fatter and fatter, fatter and fatter.

What high blood pressure, diabetes, hyperlipidemia, like mortars, came one after another, and one by one they came to the door.

We went to a lot of hospitals, and the end result was to take medicine, take medicine, and take medicine again.

Lao Wang rarely goes out at this time, his son has grown up, I heard that he has to make up classes or something during the summer vacation, and he rarely goes back to China, and Lao Wang often chatters with me that he misses his son.

There's nothing I can do, I can't let me have another one at my age.

Although Lao Wang takes medicine on time every day, he usually has some necessary coping, and diabetes once tortured him very badly.

First there was a problem with the skin, then there was a problem with the eyes, and finally the heart was also bad.

From the end of taking medicine to hospitalization, I knew that Lao Wang had suffered.

I thought that money could solve all problems, but in the end I found out that it was not, money is not everything, and sometimes no amount of money can buy health.

On the recommendation of a friend, we were later transferred to the hospital, and in that hospital, I met him, Wang Hao.

Wang Hao, who is nearly middle-aged, seems to have added a touch of loneliness and helplessness, I don't know if it's masculine, or more romantic, whether it's charm.

However, I didn't feel excited, and of course I didn't ask about saying goodbye again.

Wang Hao didn't talk to me at first, and pretended not to know me, I definitely didn't do it, I just stalked, followed him, what I didn't expect was that when I walked to the door, I clearly heard "12 beds Wang Hao, injection"!

It turned out that he was also in the hospital, and he was also a patient.

I pushed open the door and stood at the head of his bed, a woman about 30 years old was sitting there, thinking that I was in the wrong place, I told her confidently that I was Wang Hao's friend, an old friend!

That woman was his wife, and I heard Wang Hao say that they had a lovely child, a girl.

The goodbye that year was actually that Wang Hao went back to his hometown to marry her, because there was not enough money at that time, Wang Hao used that money to buy a ring, which was still a diamond ring.

In this regard, Wang Hao said that he felt very sorry for me, and he begged for my forgiveness, but I did not speak.

Looking at Wang Hao on the hospital bed, I asked him what his illness was, he didn't speak, he kept saying that it's okay, it's okay, I'm fine.

After chatting about the current situation, I went out to look at the license plate of the department, and I probably knew something about "nephrology", but I wasn't sure.

I asked the nurses at the nurses' station, and I said that I was Wang Hao's family, and they checked my medical records, and that diagnosis really hit me straight to the heart, which is still unforgettable, and also made me pay a lot of price for it later, but I was willing.

"Uremia!"

That's right, it's uremia, the kind of disease that requires long-term dialysis that is particularly annoying and costly.

Later, Wang Hao told me:

"The poor can't afford to get sick."

I haven't felt this kind of helplessness, but I know poverty, and I know how unbearable or miserable poverty can make a person's life.

I went to the ATM to withdraw 50,000 yuan in cash, I told Lao Wang that it was a deposit, Lao Wang didn't ask anything, he said let me do it myself.

Every day I am shuttling in the wards of Lao Wang and Wang Hao, although he has deceived me, but I still can't help but want to be good to him, after all, he has given me things that others have not given me and warmth.

(To be continued)