I have to tell you honestly now, I am a post-80s woman. My name is Cheng Weijing.

That's right, Cheng Weijing. You can call me Quiet. I provide you with a possibility and passage of "I want to be quiet". It's okay, you just have to think, just want to be quiet, though, it has nothing to do with me.

I don't have a livelihood, that is, I don't have any social work, I'm an otaku, or rather, a freelancer, and I can do whatever I want. It's as natural as eating whatever I want. Of course, it's like I can go wherever I want.

Yes, I'm the kind of person who can go wherever I want, and a trip or a hike is really a reality for me.

In this case, is it so important what to do and what it is?

Of course, if you had to give me a name, I would be classified as a writer. I live on words, and I make a living from the manuscript fees I get from doing self-media, coding words, and writing works.

That said, I'm a freelance writer. Earn a living by selling words or stories for money.

There are also many people like us who are now called code farmers.

Now, you're sure to read what I'm writing on your computer or phone, and yes, I'm the one who wrote it. The words you see are all written by me, and they are all coded by me.

I am a woman.

It's a woman who knows how to code.

It's a woman who can make her fingertips fly on the keyboard.

is a female keyboard warrior.

Of course, in order to make the money come faster, I occasionally take a few students, both online and offline, these students, some are primary and secondary school students, and some are professionals who have gone out into society, and they learn to write with me. So, they're all my students. Some of them are studying the kind of assignments they had in school, and some of them are learning how to write works, for example, some people learn to write novels with me, and some people learn to write prose with me. Both.

There are even people who learn to write official documents with me.

I once had an order from an electric company that asked me to give a writing lecture. The people who came to learn were middle-level managers and above of this company, and the company wanted me to tutor them in writing official documents, and even writing purchase and shipping orders. I wanted to refuse, but I still accepted the order, one morning, 3,000 yuan for the lecture. All I had to do was take a textbook on Kumon writing and slowly explain the first few chapters to them.

It's easy to do.

In the small city of Qinhu Lake, after all, I am a little famous. Who doesn't know a female writer with a pen name named An An?

A female writer, a female keyboard warrior, earns some quick money to make a living by teaching others to write, this is still not a bad thing, right? Decent, good-looking, and, earn a little bit of dignity.

Of course, you'd probably think that in order to get money faster, I might do something else, for example, the most convenient and direct way for a woman is to make friends.

Of course, you can also start a live webcast like little Lori. I'm still a little confident in my looks. My appearance is a bit responsible, and if I use some beauty routines, I, a woman who is nearly forty years old, can also immediately transform into a goblin. The content of the webcast can be how the forty girls are gorgeously transformed. Such a live broadcast must be very eye-catching. A one-night reward may break 10,000! This can happen. You say, don't you?

Of course, I know that your suggestion that I make friends is already a very euphemistic statement, and if it is even more ugly, I know that there will be a problem. However, I don't mind, and I don't shy away from saying anything more ugly. You just want to say, why don't you fall in love with a rich man, or, just be this big guy underground woman? No, you can think of me a little worse, nothing more than a man today, a man tomorrow, relying on the money from the man, to make yourself a decent woman.

Well, even if I'm going through this, or I'm going through something like this, so what? Can you restrict a single woman's dating and socialization? Can you limit a single woman's life? What does this have to do with you? Besides, if I did, would I have hurt someone? Have I hurt you?

No.

I didn't hurt anyone. At least, I didn't mean to hurt anyone.

Of course, I knew that if I did, I might indirectly hurt another kind woman, after all, intervening in the other person's family and emotional world. But I can always be hidden underground, all the time underground, and I made a pact with that man that I would never see the sun for the rest of my life.

But I swear to Heaven that I have never done so. At least, after Cheng Siping, I never thought about it that way again. Only Cheng Siping can make me like this, other men, don't even think about it.

I'm not who you think I am. I'm actually ashamed of this kind of life. I can't allow myself to hurt another woman.

I'm just a single woman. Why do you think so much about being a single woman? Do you have a ghost in your heart? Or, did you meet me that day and tried to hook up with me but didn't succeed?

Joke, where can you hook up casually. At this point, you really have to remember the old saying: you have to pee and take care of yourself.

Of course, being single is really annoying, and the thing that bothers me even more is that many people around me, whenever they get the opportunity, will ask me, "Why aren't you married yet?" ”

Actually, I really didn't understand why a woman has to get married. As for me, I have never understood, why should I get married? Why should I tie my life to another man's life?

If I have to marry myself in order to get married, if I have to marry myself in order to live with a man, then this kind of life is really not what I want.

Why should I get married? Why can't I marry into the door? Oh, no, it's a trick to get in the door. yes, why not?

No one knew I was thinking about this.

Actually, I sometimes don't know why I'm thinking about it.

When I thought about this, I was actually shocked that I was almost forty years old. A woman is approaching forty years old, and in the eyes of many people or even everyone, this life can be regarded as the end of sight.

What's more, there is a fallacy: men have forty-one flowers, and women have forty tofu dregs.

Actually, I think people who say this kind of thing are really scumbags. Why? Mother, I prefer to show off my flowers at such a time, and I look as beautiful as a flower. Can you handle it?

Actually, I have to tell the truth, and there is a saying that is right, once the sea was difficult to water. My emotional life, in that dog named Cheng Siping, is almost completely exhausted.

You say, what more emotion can I give to other men?

So, I have to tell you right now, actually, when I was seventeen, I started to experience my first love, I started to have my own love life, I started to throw myself into a crazy love affair with that man.

That year, I was just a freshman in high school.

Have you ever heard of a female high school student who has just entered her first year of high school fall in love with an adult man?

Moreover, if this adult man is not careful, he may also have some kind of relationship with your table mates and classmates, or even an ambiguous relationship, but you are desperate, like bravely jumping into a trap, jumping into such a complex relationship, and you are willing to sink into it, since the fall of a certain love castle. Have you ever been through such an emotional journey?

Actually, I know that many little girls have this experience. Some little girls don't dare to say it, girls like me, usually in school, are called female devils, and they are crazy people who can go crazy as much as they want.

They just didn't think that I was on a relationship with a man.

To be honest, I look down on the little girls in our class, and I think it's interesting to find a tall and handsome guy in the next class? That kind of tall and handsome guy looks cool, but in fact, if you really meet him once, you may scare them to death.

I don't play with them. I don't bother with them.

I know, it's all the little girls who say I'm a witch and that I'm a crazy girl. None of those young boys dared to say it. Not only did they dare not say it, but they were afraid to even look at me in the eye. I think they're going to be scared when they find out I'm hooking up with an adult guy. They will even make that tall and handsome guy desperate to PK with the adult man who has not surfaced, which is the most exciting way to make the little girl happy. Little girls like this routine.

However, they never dreamed that the deity just didn't like to come to this set. Immature!

However, I don't feel good. Very bad. It was in that moment that I gained a little envy and jealousy from them, and the rest of the long time was spent in endless torment by myself.

That kind of torment, sweet, sad, exciting.

However, that man, that is the male protagonist of my book, is a real power, which makes me irreversible.

I can only be trapped in his emotional world, and it is impossible to extricate myself, and it is impossible to get out of it.

You say, at such a time, with such a situation, how can I get married?

Who else can I marry?

This man actually writes novels, in a sense, a real writer, at least, my writing began under his influence.

That is, the way this man lived influenced me.

The man said that every man, was looking for the goddess of his dreams, Ayiguli.

In fact, he didn't know that every woman was also looking for Ayiguli, looking for their David, looking for their Apollo, looking for their Cowherd and Liang Shanbo......