He only touched it lightly, and quickly withdrew his hand.

In fact, no matter how much he didn't want to admit it, Lu Zhan's heart was very clear.

Bai Rouying didn't love him at all.

Bai Rouying's feelings for him are completely different from the feelings she once had for Jin Yu.

"I admit defeat, Xiaoying......" The man slowly closed his eyes and let out a long sigh, "It's really a towel." ”

This feeling of not being able to love, not being able to ask for it, is too painful.

He could also feel it, even if Bai Rouying's mouth kept saying, he wanted to forget Jin Yu, he had forgotten Jin Yu, and tried to accept himself.

But she couldn't do it at all—or maybe not in her lifetime.

The night was like ink, and the whole sky was shrouded in black, and there were hardly any stars in the sky, only a crescent moon hanging high in the sky, gradually shrouded by dark clouds.

Looking at the weather, it seems like it's about to rain.

Lu Zhan stretched out his hand and pushed Bai Rouying's shoulder: "Xiaoying, wake up." ”

The girl in the passenger seat still had her eyes closed, and after being pushed, she showed no sign of opening her eyes, but just reached out and moved her shoulders, and then muttered lowly.

"Little Shadow ......"

Lu Zhan pushed Bai Rouying's shoulder again, as if he had made up his mind and made up his mind, he must wake Bai Rouying up.

After repeating this several times, it finally paid off.

Bai Rouying's eyelids trembled violently twice, and her long eyelashes kept blinking, and after a while, she finally opened her eyes slowly, and the bottom of her eyes was a misty and hazy color.

Her drunkenness has not completely faded, and her mind is not very clear at this time.

Lu Zhan stretched out his hand and rolled down the window, and the cold wind outside the car blew in, blowing in through the wide-open window, and the piercing meaning suddenly made Bai Rouying sober up a lot.

She blinked her eyes vigorously, and then she recognized that the person in front of her was Lu Zhan.

Bai Rouying rubbed her temples: "Brother Lu Zhan? ”

The tone of the voice was a little uncertain, and the voice was low, obviously the sequelae of drunkenness.

"How? Does your head hurt, what's uncomfortable? ”

Bai Rouying's alcohol consumption has not been very good, and she is prone to headaches when she drinks, Lu Zhan remembers these clearly, clearly.

When he was with Bai Rouying in the past, he would try his best to control it, so that Bai Rouying would not drink, and Bai Rouying would basically consciously not drink much.

And this time......

was able to make Bai Rouying suddenly drink like this, except for Jin Yu, he probably couldn't think of any other reason.

Thinking of this, Lu Zhan didn't hold back, and smiled bitterly, the bitterness and sourness in his eyes became even stronger.

Bai Rouying's reaction at the moment was still half a beat slower, and she hadn't seen anything wrong with Lu Zhan.

Her brows furrowed slightly, and she felt it slightly, and sure enough, in addition to the chaos, there was a feeling of dizziness, stuffiness and heaviness in her mind.

She shook her head vigorously, trying to sit up straight.

As a result, I just bent my waist, and my back was weak, so I couldn't do it at all.

Lu Zhan was very considerate and leaned over and stretched out his hand to shake the seat for Bai Rouying, and Bai Rouying reluctantly sat up straight.

She shook her head slightly: "My head is a little dizzy, I feel that my eyelids are a little heavy, I am ......"

The night breeze continued to blow and stimulate her cerebral cortex, making Bai Rouying's thoughts gradually sober, but she really couldn't remember what she had done before.

I vaguely remember that it seemed to be at the design ball of the School of Design of Northern Engineering University, and then ......

Then she met Jin Yu.

Thinking of this, Bai Rouying's eyes dimmed slightly, and she almost subconsciously clenched her fists.

"It's good that there's nothing uncomfortable." Lu stood in the driver's seat, looking sideways at Bai Rouying, almost taking in her every move, every expression, and even every look.

It's just that he just nodded, as if he didn't see anything, pulled the car door and walked down, and then came to the co-pilot's side, and very considerately helped Bai Rouying open the co-pilot's door.

"Be careful and get out of the car slowly."

While moving very gently, he stretched out a hand and made a gesture of helping Bai Rouying get out of the car.

Bai Rouying didn't react much, almost subconsciously reached out and put her hand on Lu Zhan's hand, and with the strength of her hand, she walked down from the car.

The dark clouds in the sky seem to be getting heavier and heavier, and there is always a feeling of sullenness, as if the heavy rain is going to fall.

Bai Rouying glanced up at the sky, and after a while, she reacted: "Is it going to rain?" ”

Lu Zhan nodded: "Look at this sky, it should be, you go back quickly." ”

Bai Rouying didn't think much about it, turned around and was about to leave, and after just taking two steps, she suddenly reacted and turned her head to look at Lu Zhan.

"Brother Lu Zhan, what about you? I don't know when this rain will come down, and if it rains a lot, it won't be convenient for you to drive at night, right? ”

Bai Rouying's apartment has a lot of rooms, so it is no problem for Lu Zhan to stay in the apartment for one night.

What's more, they are now also boyfriend and girlfriend in name, and Bai Rouying doesn't think there's anything wrong with this.

Or maybe she is forcing herself, slowly accepting this fact, and slowly squeezing out the only remaining figure in a corner of her heart little by little.

"It doesn't matter." Lu Zhan smiled, "You go back." ”

His expression was gentle, but his expression was unmistakably firm.

Bai Rouying hesitated for a moment, but nodded slowly, and didn't say anything more.

She turned and walked towards the apartment, and when she was about to reach the door of the apartment, the way of the cattle suddenly opened up.

"Wait."

Bai Rouying turned around in surprise, and turned back to face Lu Zhan's slightly complicated and tangled gaze.

Bai Rouying's eyebrows raised slightly, and her eyes were full of doubts: "What's wrong?" Brother Lu Zhan, is there anything else? ”

How can you show such a look of wanting to speak but not talking, hesitating and tangled to the point of not working.

In Bai Rouying's impression, Lu Zhan has never been such an indecisive character.

Although he looks gentle and gentle, he can't be more assertive, and every time he does something, he can be called a vigorous sentence, and there has never been such a time.

"Little Shadow." After a while, Lu Zhan whispered Bai Rouying's name.

His fists were clenched tightly, his heart seemed to be grasped by a big hand, and it was constantly tightening, and a painful and uncomfortable feeling kept coming from the depths of his heart, slowly spreading to all his limbs.

The pain was so painful that he could barely move, unable to breathe.

However, Lu Zhan still raised his head firmly, looking at Bai Rouying's gaze with unprecedented firmness, as if he had completely made up his mind, and there was no retreat from Bai Di.

"Let's part, Shadow."

Bai Rouying was stunned for a moment, and didn't react for a while: "What did you say?" ”

Lu Zhan closed his eyes heavily: "Let's separate, Xiaoying." ”

From now on, no matter where people are, they are only regarded as ordinary friends, ordinary brothers and sisters, at both ends of the world, each is well, and does not interfere with each other.

"Brother Lu Zhan!" Bai Rouying's brows were furrowed tightly, she really couldn't figure out why Lu Zhan suddenly said this, "What's wrong with you?" Is something wrong? ”

Bai Rouying has always known very clearly in her heart what kind of feelings Lu Zhan has for herself.

From the very beginning, as soon as he encountered any difficulties, Lu Zhan appeared by his side, and stood firmly behind him without hesitation to accompany him, Bai Rouying was very clear about Lu Zhan's feelings for him.

It's just that at that time, her heart and eyes were full of golden reputation, and she couldn't let go of any other person, and she couldn't tolerate any other person.

But as time went by, too many things happened, and she accepted too much kindness from Lu Zhan, and Bai Rouying felt that she couldn't just pretend that nothing had happened.

It was precisely because she knew Lu Zhan's feelings for herself that Bai Rouying's heart felt more and more guilty, more and more sad, and she was more and more determined to repay Lu Zhan's feelings.

She gave herself three years to forget about Jin Yu and be with Lu Zhan three years later.

Obviously, everything seemed to be going in a good direction, but Bai Rouying really didn't understand what was going on, and would suddenly say such a thing.

"I'm fine, nothing happened, nothing happened."

Lu Zhan shook his head gently, his tone still gentle.

Bai Rouying looked at him again at this time, only to feel that he seemed to be more determined than before, and the man's eyes were full of determination, as if he had forced himself into a desperate situation where there was no way out.

Moving forward was the only way he could go.

"Why are you saying this all of a sudden, since nothing has happened?"

"Little Shadow ......"

Lu Zhan suddenly let out a long sigh.

A strong sense of exhaustion slowly rose from my heart.

He was really tired and uncomfortable.

"We were always wrong." The corners of his eyes were slightly raised, as if he was smiling, but the smile was too bitter.

The man said: "You don't love me at all, and you can't let go of the person you have always wanted to let go." ”

Hearing this, Bai Rouying's heart panicked, and almost subconsciously wanted to shake her head and deny: "No, Brother Lu Zhan ......"

She wanted to say that she had really worked hard to forget Jin Yu, and tried very hard to love Lu Zhan and accept Lu Zhan.

But when the words came to his lips, he couldn't say a word.

yes, what right does she have to say that?

It was Lu Zhan who paid more from beginning to end, and it was Lu Zhan who had been doing things for her silently.

She just wants to leave now, so who is she to say no?

"I ......"

Just said a word, Lu Zhan on the other side suddenly shook his head.

He suddenly took a few steps forward and stood still in front of Bai Rouying.

Bai Rouying's height was a head shorter than Lu Zhan, and the man took advantage of his height to easily reach out and gently rub the top of Bai Rouying's hair.

"Xiaoying, I know what you want to say, you don't have to think like that." He said, "Everything I have done is what I am willing to do, it has nothing to do with anyone, you don't have to feel guilty in your heart, and you don't have to have any burden." ”

You don't have to choose to stay with me because you feel sorry and want to make it up to me.

This will only lead to more suffering.

Lu Zhan seemed to have figured it out suddenly, only to feel that the big stone pressing on his heart had been completely pushed away, and a feeling of sudden realization and brightness suddenly appeared.

He said: "Xiaoying, this kind of thing can't be forced, I used to want to force it, but now I finally found that it is useless to force it." ”

If it shouldn't be a love that belongs to you, then this life doesn't belong to you.

The relationship between him and Bai Rouying should have been a childhood sweetheart that everyone envied.

It's just that fate and feelings are too mysterious.