Love is like a kite with a broken string, flying to the blue sky, flying farther and farther, until there is no trace of it, Zhou Ruikang's late night and early morning began to be with cigarettes again, he was more silent than before, except for work, he was almost as dumb as a dumb.

He couldn't even put on a mask in pain, and even cried secretly in the bathroom, and he didn't even have the strength to perfunctory Jiaqi and Dingbang, and he was almost a living dead.

He was full of Mei Ruojun and the child in her belly, but the huge pain caused by this love made him also start to fear, he didn't dare to go to her again, too much pain, too much disappointment, too much helplessness, made him lose the courage he once had, he escaped again, gave up, what he wanted to escape was not Ruojun, not love, but pain.

Perhaps many women do not understand why men choose to run away when they encounter problems, it is only because men are not cast from iron to steel, they have their fragility and softness.

He can't leave Jiaqi, which means that he can't be with Ruojun, he can only helplessly look at the wedding ring on his ring finger, but he can't let himself play a good husband, he can't do it, he is upset and irritable as soon as he comes home every day, and in order to avoid conflict with Jiaqi, he can only try not to speak.

After taking a shower, he felt a little more energetic, he sat at the desk and read the newspaper, Jiaqi hugged Dingbang and said some words there, he couldn't help but look up at them, what a warm picture.

began to get confused in front of him, as if he saw Ruojun holding their child, his heart was sore and painful, Ruojun would marry Ding Xiaohui, his child would call Ding Xiaohui's father, and even change his surname to Ding...... Hehe, his woman, his child, he can't keep any of them, and this child is likely to be the only bloodline of the Zhou family.

Painfully threw down the newspaper in his hand, suddenly raised his head and laughed dryly, his hands on his face, he really wanted to shout, he wanted to be ruthless and solve everything. But he couldn't do it, he couldn't do it.

Cheng Jiaqi was startled by his sudden laughter, turned her head to look at him, frowned, she couldn't continue to ignore her husband's pain, the ostrich had been doing it for too long, she couldn't even deceive herself, her marriage must have gone terribly wrong, she couldn't continue to deceive herself, his pain had long been unable to hide, and how could she continue to turn a blind eye as a wife. She even felt that he was going crazy.

Put her son back in the cradle and take the courage to walk into him, she wants to talk to him.

"What's wrong with you?" She asked him softly.

Only then did he realize his gaffe, so he hurriedly restrained himself, shook his head and said, "It's okay, maybe I'm just tired." As he spoke, he reached for the cigarette on the table.

She stepped forward and pressed his hand, held it in her palm, and asked, "Ruikang, I think it's time for us to have a good talk." ”

"I don't want to talk about it." He took a breath, retracted his hand, stood up, paced to the window, and talked? What to talk about? Talk about your failed marriage or failed love?

He doesn't want to talk about it, if he talks, the result can only be a bigger turmoil, a bigger scar, he and Mei Ruojun are already covered in bruises, he doesn't want to drag another Cheng Jiaqi in, isn't he breaking up with Ruojun just to protect Jiaqi, if Jiaqi is hurt, then what is the point of his and Ruojun's sacrifice?

So no matter how much she tried to communicate with him, he resisted as much as she could.

"Your pain and sorrow are written on your face, how can you make me turn a blind eye? We are husband and wife, you can trust me, I will share your worries. Jiaqi asked thoughtfully.

Ruikang looked at her helplessly, her eyes were as pure as ever, although she added a bit of pain, but still flashed a clean light, if she didn't fall in love with him, how beautiful and smooth her life would be, she would be under the care of her parents and relatives, marry a good man who loves her, have children, and enjoy a stable and rich life, but she resolutely chose to follow herself and choose to love herself firmly.

Hehe, in comparison, Mei Ruojun is so fickle and weak, half-hearted, he doesn't understand why he can't fall in love with Cheng Jiaqi, if he gives half of his love for Mei Ruojun to Jiaqi, then all the problems will be solved.

He raised his hand, gently stroked her face with pity and sadness, smiled faintly, put on the mask again and said, "I'm fine, don't worry." ”

She also touched his cheek, shook her head, and said, "You don't look good at all, Ruikang, is there something on your mind?" Isn't it...... Isn't it...... Because of feelings? She asked cautiously tentatively.

He chuckled in his heart, could he be so obvious? He subconsciously shook his head: "No, it's not." You know that the war is tight, and the traitors are very active. ”

"Are you...... Want to go back to Beiping? She hung her head and frowned.

"Back to Beiping?" He didn't react for a moment.

She took a deep breath, raised her head, and stared at him deeply, her brows furrowing more and more: "I don't think we should shy away from that name, the name that is seared in your heart." Mei Ruojun. ”

Ruikang's heart was shaken, but his face was not obvious, he didn't know what she wanted to say to him, he just frowned at her.

"Do you miss her?" She asked.

He didn't know how to tell her, Mei Ruojun, Mei Ruojun, Mei Ruojun, this name was about to drive him crazy, he didn't want to mention this name again, this name made him feel irritated and painful.

He clenched his fists, shook his head, and said, "No, no, no." I don't want to mention a name, I don't want to mention this person, why do you have to mention her? He said irritably.

"You're running away!" She said sternly.

"Yes, I'm running away, are you happy?" He tumbled off the windowsill, and the pain and annoyance in his heart turned into fire and burst out.

"Why do you have to mention that name? Why do you have to ask? Why can't we let a name disappear completely, bury it completely, and destroy it completely? He cried out in pain.

"Because she never disappeared, never buried, never destroyed, she has always lived in your heart, in your mind, even in your eyes!" She also raised her voice and told the truth.

It was the first time she had spoken to him in such a loud voice, and he looked at her with some surprise, but he was still angry, why did she have to talk about this difficult topic, why did she have to expose the beautiful lies?

"You're still living in the past, you've never forgotten her, you've never let go of her, you've never loved me, have you? So you're miserable, you're silent, you're depressed, you're smoking, you're staring at the horizon in a daze. She choked up as she spoke, tears rolling in her eyes.

He felt very annoyed, his head hurt, he really didn't know how to answer her, he and Mei Ruojun had broken up, wasn't his marriage with Jiaqi already saved? He just needs time to heal his wounds before he can put on the mask again and be a good husband who is competent.

He was speechless, he didn't know whether to confess everything to her or continue to lie.

There was a long silence, a long silence, and only Dingbang was babbling in the cradle in an incomprehensible language.

"Ruojun and I are over, really and completely. Jiaqi, don't press me. I promise you, I'll be fine. ”

"Did you secretly write to her?" She didn't intend to let him go and continued to interrogate him.

"Nope." He sighed and replied weakly, pinching the corners of his eyes with his thumb and forefinger.

"But you've changed in the last few months. Why? Could it be that my father wrote to you and said something? ”

"Nope. Nobody told me anything. In the past few months, the war has been tight, and many people have died in the city, so I am in a bad mood. It has nothing to do with Ruojun. He tried his best to suppress the irritability and pain in his heart, answering her question.

Cheng Jiaqi was not satisfied with his words, she tried to make him face his heart disease: "Why can't you let go of her for so many years?" Maybe she is already married to Ding Xiaohui, why can't you forget her? You know, you two are uncles and sisters-in-law, and they are originally against human ethics, and there will be no results. Why are you so stubborn? ”

As soon as he heard "uncle and sister-in-law" and "disobeying human ethics", he felt that his heart was pierced with an awl, and his emotions suddenly collapsed, and he roared: "No, no, she is not, she is my woman, no longer my sister-in-law, never again." ”

He really hated the title of "uncle and sister-in-law" that hung over him and Ruojun's heads, because of this title, how much unbearable torture they had experienced, he didn't want to hear anyone call them by this title anymore, his eyes were almost bulging, his handsome face was flushed, and his facial features were distorted to be a little terrifying.

Jiaqi was shocked at this moment, his angry expression, his eyes full of flames, were telling her that his heart was burning, burning for Mei Ruojun, what was even more terrifying than his expression was that she heard something in his words, he said that Mei Ruojun was his woman, why did he say that? There were countless question marks in her sensitive heart.

"Jiaqi, don't ask, don't force me." He didn't realize that he had said the wrong thing, but he really didn't want to talk about Mei Ruojun with her, he was afraid that if he continued to talk about it, he would tell her everything he really wanted, so how could their marriage continue?

Frowning, he grabbed his cigarette, lit it, and took a deep breath, nicotine seemed to have some anesthetic effect, relieving his tense nerves a little.

She saw that his fingers and lips were trembling, that he was hiding something from her, that it was a very important and terrible thing, and that what he was hiding was enough to destroy her, to destroy her hard-earned marriage.

She was afraid, she was afraid that he would really say something that she could not bear, and she compromised again, bowed her head, and continued to be her ostrich, and stepped forward to wrap her arms around his waist and pressed her face against his back.

Women, how weak is in love, she has retreated again and again for this relationship, this marriage, lost in the dust, she only begs that their marriage can be maintained, white head to old age, she believes that one day, his heart will be transferred to her, yes, they are still young, they are smart and capable, they can help him rise to prominence, he will one day forget Mei Ruojun, one day he will fall in love with himself, she will not give up, as long as their marriage exists, she will have the opportunity to move him.

With the help of nicotine, Zhou Ruikang finally slowly relaxed, and he began to blame himself again, Jiaqi is so affectionate and righteous to himself, and he is accompanied by such a red face, what more can his husband ask for? Compared with Mei Ruojun's three and four days, Jiaqi has always been the same to herself.

Don't talk about Jiaqi, even Xu Manlin, Mei Ruoli, these women who have appeared in his life, which one is better than her, yes, everyone is better than her, yes, she is an unfaithful woman, she was unfaithful to her eldest brother Ryan before, and now she is not loyal to herself, a bad woman, he cursed her in his heart, she is a bad woman, she deceived him with her beauty and weakness, she made him smeant, but she wants to marry another man with his children......

If you hate her, you must hate her, he kept saying to himself in his heart, because it is much better to hate her than to love her...... He frowned, snuffed out the cigarette butt, turned around and took Jiaqi into his arms, and silently said to himself that from now on, there will be no Mei Ruojun in his life, he wants to love his wife well and make her happy, he lowered his head and kissed her curly hair.