After her grandmother died, her mother's state has not been good, so Fang Chuchu had to move out of the dormitory and live with her mother. It was also during that period of cohabitation that Fang Chuchu knew that her mother had been smoking for five years, and when she dreamed back late at night, she would always find her mother's lonely and melancholy smoky back on the balcony.

Most of the time, Fang Chuchu would pretend not to see it and retreat into the room. Only in a few cases, Fang Chuchu would walk up, take the cigarette from his mother's fingertips, throw away the soles of his feet and step on it, and then say, "It's almost dawn." ”

Normally, my mother would turn around and walk away in silence, and there would be no more resistance.

In fact, Fang Chuchu also found that since her grandmother died, the mother and daughter have spoken less than one sentence. But Fang Chuchu never doubted that this was just a temporary pain caused by his grandmother's death, everything would pass, and everything would return to normal.

But it wasn't until the night that my mother's company finally declared bankruptcy after a few months of suspension, and there was no going back.

And ironically, Fang Chuchu had just found a job that day, and he was in a good mood to buy a cake and want to go home to share it with his mother, and even thought of taking this opportunity to shorten the distance between mother and daughter.

When he opened the door of the house, there was a strange smell, Fang Chuchu didn't care, and called out to his mother loudly, but there was no response. There was no one open the door, no one on the balcony, no one in the toilet and bathroom.

Fang Chuchu finally found her in the cubicle under the kitchen stove.

She was huddled in that small space, her eyes open, not breathing, and the blood on her wrists and ankles was gushing out.

Later, I learned that my mother had bipolar disorder and had been for many years.

That night, Fang Chuchu sat outside the operating room with a bright red body, thinking not about whether his mother was still alive, but about the small lattice in the kitchen filled with blood.

At the end of the operation, the doctor told Fang Chuchu that the rescue was timely and the person was still alive.

When the words fell, Fang Chuchu's whole person softened, and from the first time he saw that bloody scene, Fang Chuchu was as hard as a stone as if he had been turned into stone by someone who had cast a spell.

Dialing 120, pulling his mother out of the cubicle, covering the exit where blood gushed out, waiting for an ambulance, coming to the hospital and waiting for surgery, Fang Chuchu never made a sound or cried, and his whole body was so stiff that he could only roll his eyes.

But when he told his mother that he was still alive, Fang Chuchu couldn't bear it anymore, and the whole person collapsed on the ground, breaking down and crying, with only three words in his mouth, "Why, why, why ......"

In the eyes of others, this may be tears of joy and relief, only Fang Chuchu herself knows how wronged, helpless, scared, and overwhelmed she is.

Why do you cut your wrists, why do you kill yourself, why do you want me to die in front of my eyes, why do you let me see you like this, why do you mean me, why do I hurt the most when I'm the happiest, why, why, why...... Am I not your daughter, are you not my mother, why do you hate me so much.

Fang Chuchu had a lot of questions to ask her mother, but her mother only replied to her one sentence - "Why save me?" ”

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In fact, Fang Chuchu also wanted to ask Lin Sen this question.

When she opened her eyes and found herself lying in the hospital, Fang Chuchu guessed that it was his nosy, and she could even conclude that as long as she got up, Lin Sen would come up and ask questions.

However, life has always brought Fang Chuchu the experience of slapping his face, and this time is no exception - there is a girl sitting next to Fang Chuchu's hospital bed, a girl who has never been seen before.

The feeling of shame for being amorous is only a moment, and such an unexpected result is very much in line with the usual practice of the "Nyima" life, and over time, Fang Chuchu gradually has the expected joy - no longer having to entangle with Lin Sen This is definitely the best result.

Therefore, no matter where Lin Sen is now, Fang Chuchu needs to leave this ghost place immediately, "I ......"

"Lin Chu." The girl who had been cold said coldly.

Fang Chuchu remembered that she didn't ask for her name, so she reported to her home like this, which caught her a little off guard, "Oh-my name is Fang Chuchu." At this time, Fang Chuchu had already gotten out of bed, looking for shoes everywhere, and then heard the girl say coldly: "I know you." ”

Hearing such an answer, he was just stunned for a moment, Fang Chuchu found his shoes and put them on, and whispered, "Oh." ”

Dressed neatly, Fang Chuchu was a little embarrassed when he looked at the girl, "I'm leaving." And, thank you. It was also at this time that Fang Chuchu found that the girl was a little beautiful, even if she wore heavy makeup, she couldn't hide the natural beauty of the foundation.

"You should thank Lin Sen, I'm Lin Sen's girlfriend." Sure enough, the kid's vision has not been bad, Fang Chuchu only then understood what the girl was doing, and said casually: "So, can I go?" ”

To prove her innocence in front of her jealous girlfriend is to clear up any relationship with her boyfriend, and the most important step in this is to pretend that she doesn't care, Fang Chuchu knows these well, so she pretended to be very good and got the girl's pass, "You go!" ”

The moment the door of the ward closed, Fang Chuchu seemed to hear the girl named Lin Chu say, "You'd better always go away." ”

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Fang Chuchu also wanted to say this to Lu Yan - especially when he just walked out of the hospital, his head was still dizzy, but he saw him swaggering next to the swaggering sports car.

At this time, Fang Chuchu really wanted to say to him: You'd better always go away.

So the moment he saw Lu Yan, Fang Chuchu stopped his pace. On the contrary, it was Lu Yan, who saw Fang Chuchu and confidently got into his sports car, as if waiting for her to come in.

Fang Chuchu couldn't help but want to laugh, this man saw her very clearly, she was really tired and didn't want to walk at all after tossing all night.

But Fang Chuchu didn't want to weigh his heart, even if he was tired of himself, he didn't want to accept the conditional kindness of others like this.

So ignoring the swaggering sports car, Fang Chuchu went straight to the side of the road and successfully stopped a taxi, the door just opened, but it was closed by an external force. Fang Chuchu looked up at the recipient of the "external force", and sure enough, it was Lu Yan.

"Lu Yan!" Fang Chuchu was reminding him not to meddle in his affairs. But Lu Yan ignored it and still had to meddle in his affairs. He skipped over Fang Chuchu and communicated directly with the driver, "I'm sorry, she doesn't need it." ”

The driver saw a lot of noisy scenes of such a small couple, and he didn't need to explain much, so he stepped on the accelerator and walked away. Watching the taxi go away, Fang Chuchu couldn't make any reservations, and Lu Yan, who caused all this, said calmly: "What? Don't get in the car yet? ”

Did he really treat her as his emotional little girlfriend?

"Why are you?" Since jumping out of the car and being hospitalized, Fang Chuchu has been indifferent to all of Lu Yan's actions, just to repay his affection for being hospitalized and taking care of her. But now that his methods are getting worse and worse, Fang Chuchu finally can't bear it anymore.

Seeing her angry like this, Lu Yan inexplicably felt a sense of familiarity, "You also talked to me like this a month ago." ”

"So what?" Fang Chuchu didn't understand why Lu Yan mentioned this stubble, was it just to remind him that he used to take care of her who was "paralyzed" like that?

"I just think...... Time flies, and we've known each other for more than a month. Lu Yan actually smiled.

Fang Chuchu couldn't figure out this man's routine at all, she was really angry, but being so disturbed by Lu Yan, Fang Chuchu felt that she was a little unreasonable. "Lu Yan, let me go!" Unable to come hard, Fang Chuchu could only ask for softness.

But as soon as he asked for softness, Lu Yan came to the hard one, "No." Unusually firm tone.

These two words stunned Fang Chuchu, and the first thought that popped into his mind was that the reason why Lu Yan didn't let her go was to ask her to pay back the money, but reason immediately suppressed this impulsive thought - how much did a rich person like him care about asking for money from her, a poor person?

However, it's not scientific, why is this answer? At the same time that Fang Chuchu was confused to find the answer, Lu Yan's expression was quite serious for a second, and then softened, and said with a smile:

"You're a weird girl. I didn't answer so many calls to you yesterday, even if you were tired of listening to the ringtone and turn off or hang up to indicate that you were still alive, you had to let me listen to the whole piece of music before I knew that no one answered, and the consequence of this was - I thought something had happened to you. As a result, I went to check the list of hospitals, and sure enough, I found you. I thought you had some kind of car accident again, but I rushed to tell me that you had taken the wrong drug, what the hell did you do yesterday? Why do you always find you in the hospital? Is the hospital your home? Do you have any reassuring times throughout the day? ”

Fang Chuchu didn't know why, how did the people who were already very annoying get along more, the more they looked at it, the more pleasing it became.

Just like Lu Yan, who was chattering like a mother at the moment and constantly training her like a child, Fang Chuchu watched his expression change from a gentle smile to a frown and worry, knowing that he was really worried about her, and he was really afraid that something would happen to her, knowing that he might be the only person who cared about her now regardless of the consequences and costs.

Fang Chuchu's heart warmed for a moment, but it was only for a moment, but only for a moment, after "a moment", Fang Chuchu still said coldly, "You don't have to worry about my business." ”

Lu Yan listened to it and laughed again: "I don't care who cares, sleeping on the side of the road and picking up the tattered beggars?" ”

"They can take care of it, and they don't want you to take care of it anyway." Fang Chuchu suddenly became anxious and unreasonable. When Lu Yan heard it, he was stunned for a long time, and his smile became even brighter.

If the previous laugh was a sneer, then now it is a laugh that can be described as rejoicing, although Fang Chuchu doesn't understand what he is glad about. "What you mean is that others love them as much as they want but me. So, I'm so special to you? ”

What brain circuits? Misunderstood like this, Fang Chuchu was really helpless, "I didn't say you were special,"

"I'm not special?"

"Not really."

"That's special!"

"It doesn't mean anything in particular,"

"Oh, that's that I'm different from everyone else."

"Not really!"

"I got a perfect score in elementary school for my language comprehension ability, so you don't have to fight with me about this."

"It has nothing to do with language comprehension, it's literal."

"What's that literally?"

However, here's the problem, after arguing for so long, Fang Chuchu forgot what the two of them were fighting for—what did that literally mean Fang Chuchu really didn't know.

"I'll tell you, literally - you like me."

Before Fang Chuchu could refute, this ambiguity was finally interrupted, "Fang Chuchu! The man hurried over and shouted her name. Lu Yan consciously stood in front of Fang Chuchu and asked the visitor, "Who are you?" Fang Chuchu also wanted to ask this question, although the man in front of him was a little familiar, he was a stranger after all.

The person who came hurriedly said: "It doesn't matter who I am, the important thing is that Lin Sen needs you." ”