Chapter 858: Estrangement
Under Du Yiyi's scrutinizing gaze, Cheng Jiayi turned his head evasively, and in his sight, the man-eating flower appeared again.
"I guessed about part of your thoughts. I remember we all discussed these ideas, and I don't understand why you care so much. Du Yiyi asked quietly, "Are you still unwilling to tell me?" ”
Cheng Jiayi didn't squeak, but the hand holding the corner of her clothes betrayed the tension in her heart, or anxiety.
"Jiayi," Du Yiyi's voice sighed, "If you have reservations about me...... Or do you think that even I can't give you security and trust? ”
"No, it's not." Cheng Jiayi's head shook a few times, "I'm just ...... It's a bit hypocritical. It'll be fine in a while, just ignore me. ”
"Jiayi." Du Yiyi accentuated his tone, stretched out his hand and pulled Cheng Jiayi over to face her, "Do you have the heart not to tell me, are you afraid that I will think you are hypocritical?" Two days after the mutation, I saw you stop in front of me with a gun, and you rushed forward to get food.
At that time, you didn't dislike me for being cowardly, I am a man who needs you and a girl to protect, now what do you think, if I think you are hypocritical, am I still a person? ”
Cheng Jiayi avoided Du Yiyi's gaze.
What Du Yiyi is saying now may be what he really wants, but people change, and one day when he remembers what she said today, he will feel that she is not only hypocritical, but also despicable.
There are some things that cannot be said anyway to anyone. She still understands this truth.
"I'm just not in a good mood. Didn't we discuss it before, once the crystal is absorbed and changes color, it will amplify the negative emotions in my heart, and I am already trying my best to restrain it. ”
Cheng Jiayi didn't know how she said it casually, and she believed it a little after saying it.
"You see, I'm going crazy for a while this time, so the sequelae should be longer, get some sleep, and you'll be fine tomorrow. If you don't eat it, it's going to be cold. Cheng Jiayi said again as if he had consolidated his psychology.
It was the first time that Cheng Jiayi had closed her heart so tightly, so strict that Du Yiyi couldn't guess what she was thinking in her heart.
Du Yiyi ate half of the meal. His stomach and intestines have not fully recovered, and Cheng Jiayi doesn't seem to have eaten yet.
Cheng Jiayi swallowed the other half of the meal, and the lunch box was taken to the yard and washed directly with snow.
The words that were unconscious just now made Cheng Jiayi feel a little lower and uncomfortable, and it also reminded her of the last time, and there was such a time last time.
Time will dilute everything, and those things that she originally cared about slowly faded into oblivion with the passage of time.
You can't be too greedy. You can't think about collecting crystals to strengthen yourself, but you don't want to get blood on your hands yet.
The little girl is innocent, and everyone else deserves to die? The animals in the mountains should die? Should you forcibly take the cannibal out?
It's just the jungle. The way of the world is different, and the concept of morality is also different. There is no need to look at the behavior of people at this time with three views in peacetime.
Cheng Jiayi rubbed her face with a handful of snow, and remembered what she had said to Qin Feng again, and her heart tingled again.
I must not say much in the future, be cautious in my words and deeds.
She rubbed her face with the snow in her hand again.
Time is indeed a good medicine for inner trauma, and after another night, Cheng Jiayi is already normal on the outside, except for some silence.
She woke up early, served herself and Du Yi food in the cafeteria, nodded kindly to all the people she met, and said hello, but when she saw Qin Feng's figure appear, she quickly avoided it from another exit.
She knew that Qin Feng wouldn't say anything to people, and she also knew that logically speaking, she should sincerely apologize to Qin Feng.
But she couldn't open her mouth. Even if you do, you won't be sincere.
When he went back, Du Yiyi had already woken up, saw her from the window, showed a big smile, and followed out of the window to pick her up at the door.
A smile is contagious, Cheng Jiayi's face couldn't help but feel a lot more relaxed, handed him the lunch box, and asked while taking off his shoes: "It's all right, happy?" ”
Du Yiyi smiled and waited for Cheng Jiayi and said, "Okay, of course I'm happy." ”
The two entered the house together, sensing Du Yi's gaze one by one, Cheng Jiayi shrugged and said, "Look, time is the medicine for healing, and I'm not much better." ”
Du Yi nodded and helped Cheng Jiayi open the lunch box, "Then, this will be able to be said." ”
Cheng Jiayi's movements paused, then shook his head and grabbed his chopsticks: "Don't you know everything?" ”
Du Yiyi glanced at Cheng Jiayi thoughtfully, and changed the topic: "This is black bear meat, I didn't eat anything yesterday." ”
Cheng Jiayi did not answer.
The two finished their meal in silence, and Cheng Jiayi wanted to pack the lunch box, but Du Yiyi took the lead one by one.
This time, Du Yiyi stayed in the yard one by one, silently washing the lunch box with snow, and after that, he sat in a daze.
Cheng Jiayi knew that she had hurt Du Yiyi a little, but she didn't want to tell her heart.
The love of the peach, what a typical example. Not to mention that even she herself despised the thoughts in her heart.
Xu is Cheng Jiayi's previous madness was terrifying, and then he went to the mountains and forests in the middle of the night, and then he and Qin Feng seemed to be unhappy, and there was also the relationship with Anton.
After all, they are still nominal mercenaries, and Anton is still their nominal employer, although the contradictions between employers and employees have reached the level of fighting each other.
Perhaps because of the presence of black bears that threatened their safety, the whole town was still shrouded in a tense and serious atmosphere.
During the day, Qin Feng came to discuss with Cheng Jiayi the candidate and plan for the action, and after that, Cheng Jiayi finally couldn't help but ask Anton's attitude again.
Cheng Jiayi thought that Anton should have a deep grudge with her, and he should be going to die. If it were her, she must have thought and done so, of course, she hid these thoughts in her heart and did not say them.
Qin Feng talked to Anton, Anton was very negative, seemed to be disheartened, and only said that it was best to get a few macaques back, but if he couldn't get them, he would forget it, and then he would return.
I had already said this once the day before, and it seemed superfluous for Cheng Jiayi to ask again, but from Cheng Jiayi's point of view, it was understandable.
In this exchange, Qin Feng was completely businesslike, without saying a word, and after Cheng Jiayi nodded, he left.
And between Cheng Jiayi and Du Yiyi, it seems that they have suddenly lost the state of talking about everything in the past.
Du Yiyi's mood then fell. It was the first time he felt that he still didn't know anything about Cheng Jiayi.
The crystal inspires a rage in people's hearts, Cheng Jiayi understands this, and he also understands that what they did when they entered the island country this time is not bright, and Cheng Jiayi and she all know that this can't all be counted as their fault.
Qin Feng may have the same attitude towards Cheng Jiayi as Li Li, which is also what they all thought of, and they all understand and approve of it temporarily.
So why? What can't be said?
But no matter what, Du Yiyi knew that Cheng Jiayi would not think that he was the same as them.