"You are really a gift from God to my mother, Nian'an, do you know, do you know, my mother really loves and loves your father. But my mother can't be with your father, no, this is God's punishment for my mother, because my mother shouldn't fall in love with your father. But God still gave you to me, my mother is really happy, so happy......" She was excited, chaotic and incoherent, the deepest and deepest memories in her heart, the deepest and deepest love were awakened in this storm.

"I know that my father loves my mother very much, and my father will ask about my mother in every letter." Nian An picked the leaves and dead grass from her mother's head with her hands, pursed her lips, and asked with some embarrassment: "Mother, do you love your father and little sister?" ”

Ruojun took a breath, tears kept welling up in her eyes, her two lips trembled violently, her heart was crying for Ruikang, crying for the unsatisfactory relationship between her and Ruikang.

But Nian'an's question reminded her that she was married, had a happy home, a husband who loved her deeply, and two lovely and beautiful children.

She is a wife and a mother, how can she cry for other men anymore? But she couldn't help it, and after crying for more than ten minutes, she was finally able to reluctantly collect her mood, touched Nian'an's face, squeezed out a smile and said, "Of course love, I love them, I love love." Mother will hide your father in the deepest and deepest place in her heart, that place is just a small corner. And the rest of the place will be for your dad, you, and your sister. ”

Nian An hugged her mother tightly and muttered: "Mother, you must not leave us, don't leave us." ”

"Silly child, how could my mother leave you, my mother loves your father and won't leave him."

……

At ten o'clock in the evening, Shu Zhi returned home with a fish, a bundle of cabbage, and a box of pastries.

"Ruojun, I'm back!" As usual, he called loudly, and said with a smile on his lips: "Today's meeting has given me a box of pastries." Come and see. ”

Ruojun opened the door and looked at him fixedly, Shu Zhi was stunned for a moment, feeling that her eyes were a little strange.

Before he could react, Ruojun had already pulled him in, threw the things in his hand on the table at will, pulled him to the back room quickly, locked the door, hugged his neck tightly, kissed his lips, and took the initiative to poke the tip of his tongue into his mouth, teasing him, Shu Zhi didn't understand why Ruojun was so enthusiastic and active, but he liked it very much in his heart. He picked her up and put her on the bed.

"Shu Zhi, I love you, I won't leave you!" She whispered firmly in his ear, unbuttoning his shirt, taking off his shirt and unbuttoning his shirt.

"What's wrong with you today, why are you so enthusiastic?" He kissed her and untied her clothes, and asked with a smile, "But I like you like this so much." ”

"If you like it, then I'll be like this every day?"

"Okay." He breathed heavily, took off her jacket and unbuttoned her short clothes, his hands already unbuttoning her underwear, and kept caressing her softness. Panting and laughing, he said, "I'm just afraid, soon Simei will have a younger brother or sister again." ”

"If you want a few, I'll give you a few." She unbuckled his belt and took off his trousers.

"Don't, it's enough for us to have Nian'an and Simei, you are disemboweling this time, I don't want you to suffer again." He cupped her face lovingly.

"Don't you want another boy?"

Meng Shuzhi smiled: "Is my daughter bad?" Why does it have to be a boy? Don't be silly. I like girls. ”

She knew that he had pitied her for her, and she gently stripped off all his clothes and made him fit perfectly with herself......

That night, as they lay in bed, she told him that she had remembered everything.

Meng Shuzhi was silent, Ruojun kissed him and smiled, "You are starting to think nonsense again." Am I the one who is so easily changeable? ”

"No, I'm just afraid that you won't change your mind, and the person you love is always him from beginning to end. You're a very stubborn person, just like him. He squinted at her.

"No, Shu Zhi, after falling off the cliff this time, my memory was blank, the first person I saw when I opened my eyes was you, and the first person I remembered was you. Because the time with you is the happiest. You are the one I want the most.

I admit that I love Ruikang very much, but he never belonged to me, he belonged to the Zhou family, belonged to the country, belonged to other women, just didn't belong to me. I have his love, but in reality, he doesn't even have the opportunity to have a meal with me, so what's the use? Maybe it's providence, maybe it's fate, in short, he and I don't have anything to do with him in reality. I also feel sorry for it. I'm no longer eighteen years old, and after so much, I know what I want. I want a home, a simple and peaceful life. ”

Mei Ruojun sighed, she finally grew up, she finally understood that there needs to be an intersection between love and reality, if a love is so unforgettable that she and the people around her are constantly hurting, then how can this love survive in reality?

Shu Zhiwan smiled and said, "But why did you give up Brother Ding in the first place?" ”

"If Xiaohui had given me some time, maybe the ending would have been different, but he didn't give me time, and he left."

Shu Zhi hugged her tightly in his arms, buried his face in her hair, and said with a smile: "If Brother Ding doesn't leave, where will it be my turn?" ”

Ruojun touched his face with a smile: "It's me who I'm sorry for Xiaohui." ”

"What about me? What if Big Brother Ruikang comes back? Will you not want me again when you see him? ”

"Don't say stupid things, we're both married, how can I not want you, I can't bear it." Ruojun gently hugged his neck and said, "Shu Zhi, will you leave me like Xiaohui?" ”

Meng Shuzhi raised his head, winked at the ceiling, and said slowly, "Then you have to promise me one thing." ”

"What's the matter?" Ruojun asked.

Shu Zhi put his head to her ear and whispered, "Every day when I go home in the future, you have to greet me like today." ”

Ruojun's face flushed, he laughed out loud, slapped him coquettishly, Shu Zhi laughed: "I waited from the age of nine to the age of twenty-four before marrying you, how could I divorce you easily?" ”

As soon as he said this, Ruojun felt a lot of emotion in his heart, lying in his arms, the two looked at the moonlight outside the window together, indescribable warm and happy, Mei Ruojun raised her head and looked at Shu Zhi, she asked herself, if Ruikang stood in front of her now, how would she choose?

The answer is so obvious......

The night sky after the storm was exceptionally clear, and the moon was as bright as a large disc shining with white light. The past is like dust, like dust floating in the air under the moonlight.

//

The days are still peaceful and flowing water, and the slightly special thing is that Ruojun sometimes walks alone in the woods, in a daze, sighing......

In the afternoon, Ruojun sat in front of the window, sewing socks, and Nian'an sat opposite reading a book.

Ruojun stopped what he was doing and began to look at his son's face in a daze again, with a hint of a smile on the corner of his mouth, but his eyebrows were frowning.

"How is your daddy?" She finally asked.

Nian An looked up at her mother in surprise, since she fell off the cliff, she had never asked about Ruikang's situation, even if she knew that Ruikang and Nian An had been in correspondence, Ruikang would send them money to supplement the family.

Nian An didn't know why her mother suddenly asked about her father's situation today, hesitated, took out a letter from England from her school bag, and gently pushed it along the table.

Ruojun stared at the letter in her son's hand, looking at the flowing handwriting as before, her heart surged, but there were not too many traces on her face, she shook her head lightly, pushed the letter back, and said with an indifferent smile: "Mother doesn't read it." Just tell your mother. ”

Nian An said: "Daddy is not good. He was sick. ”

"What?!" "Ahh The tip of the needle pierced her finger, bright red blood beads came out of her finger, she took her finger into her mouth, she suddenly remembered that Shu Zhi once said that it was Ruikang's blood transfusion for himself back then, and their blood had already fused.

She asked in distress, "What's the matter?" What's wrong with him? Is it serious? Have you seen a doctor? Do you have any medication? Does he have someone around to take care of him? ”

Nian An shook his head: "He has been sick for more than half a year, and he won't let me tell you." ”

"Half a year?!" Ruojun almost fainted.

"Originally, it was just a fever, but then it turned into pneumonia, and then it kept going back and forth, coughing, wheezing, and he kept telling me that it was okay......"

Before Nian An finished speaking, she took the letter and opened it:

"Dear Nian'an,

Daddy didn't write to you last month, I'm very sorry, just because I suffered a little bit of cold, and stayed in the hospital for a few days, but you don't have to worry, I have been discharged from the hospital and recuperated at home, but I still have some cough, and it is fine.

I am very pleased to know that you have excelled in your studies and your grades, and that your father is very proud of you, and that you love literature, and that if your grandfather were alive, he would be proud of you.

I have asked someone to send you "The Complete Works of Shakespeare", "Robinson Crusoe", "Gulliver's Travels", "The Little Prince", "Notre Dame de Paris", "The Count of Monte Cristo" and other English books, I hope you like it.

Daddy specially built a larger study room for you at home, and from now on, Daddy will collect excellent books from all over the world for you, and when you come, you can wander in the ocean of literature in the study.

Although I don't know if there will be a chance to reunite with your mother in my lifetime, but Daddy will take care of the plum forest and rose beds, your mother likes flowers and plants by nature, elegant and gentle, Daddy will plant more flowers and trees, maybe one day she comes, she should love these beautiful flowers.

Nian'an, you must unite and love your classmates at school, respect your teachers, and be filial to your mother and your father at home, your father's inability to take care of you has always been the deepest debt in my heart. Especially for you, since you were born, I have not fulfilled the responsibility of a father, and I think it is really shameless.

Daddy is now a companion with flowers and plants every day, taking care of your younger brother in Dingguo, and his life is very peaceful.

Is your mother in good health? And is your dad going well at work? And your little sister must be cute. Tell your dad about it when you have time. Every time I receive a letter from you, it is the most pleasant moment for me.

Father: Ruikang word

Summer ...... 1956"

Ruojun read Ruikang's letter, and he had already burst into tears, and he couldn't put the letter paper on his heart at all, as if he wanted to use the letter paper to plug the long-standing wound in his heart.

"Mother, why don't you write back to your father. I think he's going to be happy. Maybe it's good for his body? Nian An frowned and said.

Ruojun turned her head to look at the cradle, Simei, who was more than three years old, Simei was very beautiful, with a pair of big eyes, as deep as Shu Zhi, with long eyelashes, round face, like a doll, she wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, pushed the letter back to Nian'an, hugged Simei on her body and shook her head, and said: "You let him take care of himself more and smoke less......" said and hugged Simei to the yard to play games.