Chapter 175 [Obsession with the Past]

When Su Jingyi arrived home, he saw Mu Lingxue sitting on the sofa alone without saying a word, and her face was not very good-looking.

"What about the heart? Slept? ”

"Hmm."

Su Jingyi changed his slippers and walked in, standing next to the crib, "Xinxin!" How do you sleep so soundly? When did you sleep? Shall we wake her up and eat something delicious? ”

"It's better to take it out when you're asleep." There was no trace of warmth in Mu Lingxue's tone.

"Oh, too. Let's go, I'll hold her. Su Jingyi didn't immediately feel Mu Lingxue's strangeness.

"Go by yourself, we don't have to worry about our mother and daughter." Mu Lingxue's words revealed a slightly angry tone.

"What's wrong?" Su Jingyi looked at Mu Lingxue with a blank expression. "Why are you suddenly unhappy?" He walked up to her and studied her face carefully, trying to find a clue in her expression.

"Su Jingyi, did you come back early today?" Mu Lingxue raised her voice.

"Huh? Am I late? No, I rushed home as soon as I got off work. Su Jingyi hurriedly said with a smile.

"I'm not talking back, I really think you went home too early today." Mu Lingxue crossed her hands in front of her chest, looking guarded.

"Isn't it good to be early?"

"Okay, yes, I just don't know where you've been?"

"What do you mean?"

"What do you mean by asking me?"

"Of course I ask you? What the hell is going on with you today? Keep calling me, you know that if you always check the post like this, our colleagues will see me laughing. ”

"What's there to joke about? How? Is it humiliating to answer my call? ”

"What are you talking about? Alright, alright, let's eat. Let's not make any noise. ”

"Am I arguing with you? You want to say that I'm being vexatious, right? ”

"I didn't mean that."

"You touch your conscience and tell me if you're in the company today?"

"What's wrong, Cher?"

"Since you don't admit it, then let me tell you, you're not in the company at all, are you?"

When Su Jing heard Mu Lingxue's tone so firm, he knew that he had been exposed. "You're going to the company?"

"Yes."

"What are you doing at the company?"

"I'll bring you lunch."

"You have it, why are you so virtuous that you like to bring me lunch to the company?"

"Didn't you? You conscienceless thing, haven't I ever done this on Valentine's Day before? ”

"Yes, but what kind of festival is it today, you want to be so excited, Qingming Festival?"

"Don't say it so ugly, why did I go to the company, don't you know in your own heart? Did you go to Xue Wanqing's hometown? ”

Su Jingyi did not speak.

"I asked you if you went to Xue Wanqing's hometown, I saw the ticket in your wallet, and you still want to lie to me?"

"I really didn't mean to lie to you."

"I've always wanted to give you a chance, wait for you to talk to me yourself, but unfortunately, you didn't tell me the truth until you went out and left this house, no, you didn't lie to me until you came back just now."

"Cher, I didn't mean to lie to you. I'm afraid you'll be unhappy if you tell you. ”

"Of course I'm not happy, how can there be a woman whose husband has been pretending to be a dead person in his heart?"

"Can you stop talking?"

"What did I say? She Xue Wanqing is dead, already dead, you are sober, how long will you still be entangled like this. ”

"I don't want to talk nonsense with you!" Su Jingyi said and turned around and entered the room.

Mu Lingxue didn't give up, followed into the bedroom, and shouted at Su Jingyi: "Do you always remember a dead person?" She won't come back to life? Do you want me to help you go to the temple and ask if there is any Dafa for rejuvenating the soul? ”

"You're enough! According to what you said, Wanqing is a dead person, is it interesting that you always hold on to her? ”

"I'm because of you, it's you who hold on to her, not me!"

"I've really had enough of you." As soon as Su Jing turned around and saw something strange in the trash can, he walked over, his face becoming more and more heavy. He was about to reach out to get it, but Mu Lingxue grabbed his arm. "Jingyi, forget about her, you still have me!" Mu Lingxue changed her strength just now and looked at Su Jingyi with begging eyes.

Su Jingyi didn't care, pushed her hand away, directly lifted the trash can, turned it upside down, and all the papers of the diary fell on the floor, everywhere, just like the heavy snow of memory, covered very thick and thick.

"What is this?" Su Jingyi roared angrily.

"That's right, this is Xue Wanqing's diary, I don't think you need to keep it, you should burn it and return it to Xue Wanqing."

"You've gone too far! You actually tore up the diary, and I want to divorce you! Su Jingyi gritted his teeth.

"What did you say?" Mu Lingxue was really startled when she saw Su Jingyi's reaction, although he knew that Su Jingyi would be very angry if she knew about this matter, but she didn't expect him to say the word divorce to her. Her heart ached, and her eyes gradually changed from anger to sadness, "It turns out that I am in your heart, not as good as a diary of her Xue Wanqing." ”

Su Jingyi ignored her, squatted on the ground and began to pick up the pieces of paper one by one.

"If I knew I would have torn it to shreds, I think what's the use of you picking it up?" Mu Lingxue bit her lip and looked at the man in front of her, feeling unfamiliar like never before.

"Even if you burn to ashes, I will pick it up and save it, this is my freedom!"

"Su Jingyi, who is your wife, is it so unimportant for me?"

"You're not anymore."

"Okay, count you ruthless!" Mu Lingxue bent down angrily and pulled out the box from under the bed.

"What are you going to do?"

"Can I go?"

"Whatever!"

Mu Lingxue kept shedding tears while packing her clothes into the box. Finally, he put the document bag into the box and said to Su Jingyi: "You want a divorce, don't you?" OK! As soon as we divorced, I went to An'an and reborn them and told them the truth about it. Let them know how much of a lie you Su Jingyi told! ”

"Stop!"

After Mu Lingxue finished speaking, she dragged the box out of the house, and the door slammed shut. At this time, Su Xin burst into tears, probably frightened.

Su Jingyi hurriedly walked from the bedroom to the living room and picked up Su Xin, "Oh oh." Don't cry, don't cry, Daddy is here. ”

Su Jingyi coaxed the child while hurriedly making milk powder for the child. When Su Xin fell asleep again, it was already dark, and he remembered that he hadn't eaten yet, so he ordered a takeout and sat alone in the living room watching TV.

Before falling asleep, Su Xin began to cry again, he hugged him and coaxed him all the time, but he still cried a lot. I thought: What's the matter with this kid? I've never cried like this before, have you? Why do you keep crying today? Can you feel it when your mother is gone? He could only walk around the living room with Su Xin in his arms, this method didn't work, he put her in the cradle again, kept shaking her, and when he made her milk powder and put the bottle to her mouth, she still cried and refused to drink.

Now he is really six gods and no master, he thought that Mu Lingxue was just having a temper and would come back when she was angry, but it was ten o'clock, and she hadn't come back yet. He picked up his phone and called her, but the call was connected, but no one answered. He had no choice but to continue to pick Su Xin up again, patted her on the back, and imitated Mu Lingxue to coax the child, and after a long time, Su Xin calmed down and fell asleep.

Only then did Su Jingyi know that it was so difficult and tiring to take care of children, and now he felt dizzy and weak, which was not as easy as working overtime. Su Jingyi was a little worried and sent a message to Mu Lingxue. "Cher, where are you?" After a long time, there was no response, and then he continued to post a second message, "Come back and say something, it's not safe for you to be outside at night as a woman." ”

"Don't worry, I won't be able to die for a while, we all need to calm down, I'll go back after you think clearly."

"Xue'er, don't make trouble, it's me who said something heavy today."

"Okay, I can understand your mind today, it turns out that I am so worthless in your heart. You just don't care about me, take care of Su Xin! ”

This night, Su Jingyi lay in bed, tossing and turning, unable to sleep. Su Xinzheng was lying quietly on the small bed beside him, and he had sweetly entered his dream. He turned on the night light, and he could see Su Xin's appearance while lying down, he didn't dare to turn off the light, for fear that he would sleep too much and not know, because Mu Lingxue used to get up in the middle of the night to take care of Su Xin, although he hadn't done these things, but he knew it.

Every time she got up quickly after Su Xin's first cry, picked her up, coaxed her, changed her diapers and soaked milk powder, and never called him to get up. Sometimes he slept too soundly to hear it, and sometimes even if he heard it, he didn't bother to get up, because he knew that all this was Mu Lingxue. So he can always continue to sleep with peace of mind.

He remembered that Mu Lingxue had also complained to him, "You are not a good father, do you know how many milliliters of milk powder your baby drinks a day?" Do you know how many diapers you change a day? Every time you cry in your heart at night, you don't move, you know sleep, I haven't slept better at night, you know? ”

But complaining is complaining, there is no night when Mu Lingxue has called him to help because of Su Xin's matter, in fact, he can feel her distress for him, but it seems that more often, because of her suspicion and her suspicion, he blurred the focus.

He couldn't help but start to feel guilty, he knew that what Mu Lingxue said was angry, she wouldn't really take the information to find An An, he believed her, just like he believed that she should also know that the divorce he said was just a moment of urgency and said the wrong thing, that can't be counted. Although sometimes he really thinks that she is just unreasonable, and even unreasonable many times, he still thinks that she is good to himself. He's not stupid, it's impossible not to feel it.