Another Life, Another Self-Destruction (1)

Mother's Day in 2009 was May 10, and Fang Chuchu's mother came back — the first time she had come back since her mother left. Fang Chuchu clearly remembers that twenty-eight days later was her college entrance examination, and a month and ten days later was the third year of her parents' divorce.

So after all, Fang Chuchu has not seen his mother for 1055 days. 1055 days ago, my mother signed her name on the divorce agreement, packed her luggage, and said to Chu Chu, "I'm leaving!" "He never came back. 1055 days later, Fang Chuchu was reciting a book and was drowsy, when she was suddenly called up by the teacher, she was terrified, "Someone is looking for it." Then she caught a glimpse of her mother, who she thought about day and night, outside the window.

That afternoon, the head teacher gave Fang Chuchu an unprecedented afternoon off. Mom took her to the mall, bought a lot of beautiful clothes and shoes, she changed out of the simple school uniform and perennial sneakers, hairpin with a drape instead of a ponytail that has not changed for thousands of years, and finally looked a little girly. Mom also took her to KFC, "your favorite." Mom picked up the chicken leg and handed it to her, but she was silent.

"Who!" Lin Sen at the front table tilted his neck to look out the window, and asked her at the back table curiously.

"My mom." She replied.

"Then you don't want to go quickly." Lin Sen looked back at her.

When his thoughts returned, Fang Chuchu looked at the chicken leg in front of him and said in a daze, "I don't like to eat this."

The mother and daughter who met again after three years did not have the excitement and tears in the TV series, and some were just unspeakable strangeness and estrangement. Three years! How would a mother know that her daughter has grown up so fast, and the size she memorized three years ago can't match it three years later. How would my mother know that her daughter, who was yelling to go to KFC every week three years ago, had already pushed KFC out of her favorite option because of weight loss three years later. How could the mother know that the person her daughter likes the most suddenly appears three years later, and she needs to be reminded by others before she tremblingly walks up and calls "Mom", and now even the title of "favorite favorite" has changed the object, and the mother doesn't know it.

Three years ago, Fang Chuchu loved her mother the most. Three years later, Fang Chuchu liked Lin Sen. It's just these, only Fang Chuchu is clear.

The embarrassed mother and daughter finally did not regain their original feelings. In the evening, my mother sent Fang Chuchu home. When she delivered it to the door, her mother reminded her: "The house has been rented, just ask him to deliver your luggage." "He" is his father, Fang Chuchu nodded and waved goodbye. I watched the car drive out of my sight, then turned back to look at the familiar building, and saw the light in my father's room at a glance - I was at home at this time!

Fang Chuchu turned around and ran to the nearest bus stop to his home.

At the bus stop, Lin Sen was waiting for her with her schoolbag. Fang Chuchu approached and sat down beside him. "Your mom is gone?" Lin Sen asked, Fang Chuchu nodded, took the schoolbag and began to look through the homework inside. "You can rest assured that it has been installed for you." Lin Sen said softly, and then whispered, "Why do you want to lie to your mother, haven't you always lived in the school?" "Why? Do you want to come back to see that familiar house, or happen to meet your father who you haven't seen for a long time, or do you want to make your mother feel at ease? "I won't be able to live on campus in the future," Fang Chuchu didn't answer, "My mother will accompany me for the college entrance examination." "That's a good thing!" Although there was a silence, Lin Sen's voice was joyful. Grabbing the schoolbag, Fang Chuchu nodded mechanically - this is a good thing! Lin Sen looked at her and smiled softly, reaching out to rub the top of her head, "What's wrong with you?" ”

"Fang Chuchu!"

The voice seemed to come from three years ago, every time Fang Chuchu did something wrong, her mother always screamed her voice and raised the volume to call out her name fiercely. But at this moment, it happened in front of me - a sports car parked on the side of the road, and next to the car was my mother. Still the same voice, "How did you end up here." ”

Or else? As you wish, walk into that house, meet your father, and say "I'm back" – is that so? It's not been like this for a long time, the house belongs to someone else, the father is someone else's, and even the phrase "I'm back" is superfluous. Why is it so and why am I here?

"What do you say?" After the fright, there is an unusual indifference and calmness. Fang Chuchu slowly stood up, "What do you say?" How did I end up here, why didn't I go home, can you tell why? ”

Mom was already trembling with anger, and Lin Sen beside her was also persuading her, "Xiao Chu, what's wrong with you, this is your mother." ”

"Who is he?" The fingers were also shaking, but still pointing clearly. "Ahh Auntie, you misunderstood, I ...... with Xiao Chu"

"He's someone I like." With his head down, Fang Chuchu said, grabbing Lin Sen's wrist at the same time, like grasping a life-saving straw.

The bus also came in time, and before her mother had time to vent her anger, Fang Chuchu had already pulled Lin Sen into the car.

The moment the car started, Fang Chuchu finally had the courage to look up at his mother outside the window, and suddenly at that moment, tears burst into tears. The thoughts and favorites of the past three years have soaked and swelled in every bitter tear, and gradually turned into untouchable grievances and complaints. You were so ruthless and left me at the beginning, so now I'm going to be ruthless and destroy myself-

Destroy the pearl of your hand that you were once proud of and loved with your heart.