After talking about business, Qin Feng looked at Cheng Jiayi again.

took off the coat of rage, and Cheng Jiayi under reason returned to the harmless appearance of humans and animals, her white skin lined with black eyes became clearer and clearer, and her eyes seemed to flow as if spiritual light flowed.

But Cheng Jiayi at this moment is still different from her when she first met. Unconsciously, she faded a little of her youthfulness and gradually revealed the composure of an adult.

"I have to make a patrol in the evening, you haven't shown up for a day, do you want to take a look?" Qin Feng asked.

Cheng Jiayi shook her head without thinking too much, she didn't want to see anyone, there was Qin Feng outside, she didn't have to leave.

However, Du glanced at Qin Feng and persuaded: "It's okay to go out and take a look, see if there is anything to eat, come back and bring me a bite." ”

Cheng Jiayi stood up at this time.

Towards evening, the town was still covered in a thick layer of snow, and the roofs of the antique houses were also thick with snow, and the few roofs were cleared, and the road surface was cleared as a path for walking alone.

Qin Feng led Cheng Jiayi around the periphery of the town for half a circle, greeted several guards, and came to a quiet garden.

The snow is so heavy that many branches are crushed and covered by snow, and the top of a wooden pavilion is also covered with thick snow, and the edges are jagged with branch-like decorations, which has a kind of ancient charm.

Qin Feng stopped, and Cheng Jiayi suddenly realized that Qin Feng was going to say something to her.

"The last time I came to the island country, it was an academic exchange, and I competed with my colleagues in the island country. For some reasons in history, both of us were cheering and would rather be injured than lose. ”

Qin Feng's voice recalled with melancholy and regret, "At that time, one of my teammates dislocated his right knee when he fell, and when he turned over and sat on the ground, he slapped his knee back with his hand and persevered until the end of the game. Now I revisit the old place, and I think of the past, as if it was just yesterday, and suddenly it is like a dream. ”

Cheng Jiayi turned around slightly and looked at Qin Feng.

Qin Feng put his hands in the trouser pockets of his camouflage uniform, and his side face was amazingly handsome in the afterglow of the setting sun, especially the deep eyes looking at the distant mountains, making the whole person seem to have just come out of the watercolor painting.

"Once upon a time, like yesterday's death. From the latter, such as today, to be born. You should be familiar with this sentence, boss. Qin Feng turned his head to look at Cheng Jiayi.

Cheng Jiayi's ears were slightly hot, she listened to it and understood what it meant, but she didn't know the source of this sentence and the meaning of the connection.

"Every time we finish a mission, we will do psychological counseling, this sentence is what my psychiatrist often says. After hearing it for the first time, I went back and checked the original text, and by the way, I saw several people who have mixed reviews in history, all of whom have borrowed this sentence to try themselves. ”

"Did your teammates lose that game? Or did you comfort him with such words? Cheng Jiayi said suspiciously.

"No," Qin Feng shook his head, "I'm thinking about that game and the present, yesterday's everything, it's really like yesterday's death." ”

Qin Feng's gaze gently fell on Cheng Jiayi's eyes, "Each of us has experienced a different yesterday, some beautiful, some sad, and some unforgettable. But yesterday's is yesterday's, and no matter how much you think about it, it won't be today. And we who are alive always have to look forward. ”

Cheng Jiayi didn't know what to say. A person as powerful as Qin Feng would not indulge in the past, and naturally he would not understand the thoughts of a person like her, who was not psychologically strong or strong.

The person who imposed it will not care about the pain that has been inflicted on him, because those pains have become a thing of the past, and even because of those pains, he has turned into a butterfly.

These words seem to sound high-sounding, but everyone who survives, who hasn't experienced it this way. If you listen to it, everyone has endless sadness, remorse, and is willing to trade their lives for time relapse. ”

Cheng Jiayi finally said: "Are you too?" ”

"You know I'm a soldier." Qin Feng said quickly, "Even if you are discharged from the army." But what I have done since I got out of trouble has become more and more distant from my duties as a soldier. Reality pushed me to move forward step by step, and when I suddenly became alert, it was already contrary to my original intention, far, far away. ”

Qin Feng turned his head and looked at the snow-covered pavilion in front of him again, his side face was full of indifference.

"Where is there a precipice. My precipice is to draw your salary from the bottom of the kettle. The past, indelible, the future, unpredictable. ”

Qin Feng looked at Cheng Jiayi again and asked slowly: "I have thought about it, every night, every morning, and even just now, I am saying to myself that all kinds of things in the past, such as dying yesterday. From the latter, such as today, to be born. ”

But listening to Qin Feng's words, the more she listened, the more uncomfortable she became. She thought that Qin Feng was here to persuade her, but she didn't want to, she went around in a circle, or was he wronged?

What does he mean by doing things that are contrary to his status as a soldier? What is the precipice of the horse? Did she ask him to do this? Did she ask Qin Feng to follow her to the peninsula to fight the nation's side and go to the island country?

He didn't want to be completely able to walk away like Li Li, who forced him to stand on his side?

The past appeared in his mind in a mess, anger, grievances, regrets, and self-blame made Cheng Jiayi burst out: "What does Team Qin mean by this? Which of these many things is not worthy of your identity? ”

Cheng Jiayi knew that her tone was full of sarcasm and sarcasm under her anger, and when she rushed out, the scenes of fighting in ports and small towns flashed in her mind, but at this moment, her brain seemed to be completely out of her control, and those words that she had only thought about in her heart rushed out without thinking:

"Is it on the peninsula? Or is it here? What did you do that was contrary to who you were? Do you dare to say that your comrades-in-arms are not standing on the same ground doing the same thing, or even more excessive?

Oh, you didn't go so far, you didn't use your fellow human body as a vessel for feeding crystals, you didn't force us to kill each other, you didn't watch our family die, did you? ”

Yesterday's everything, once again, broke into my mind uncontrollably. The falling plum blossom, the same falling rag doll, and the last falling girl's corpse, accompanied by accusations, reappeared in my mind, and finally turned into Sun Dong's corpse.

Cheng Jiayi's eyes were red, and his eyes were suddenly cold and terrifying.

"Can you say that all of those things are over? What yesterday is like yesterday's death? Hehe. Cheng Jiayi sneered, "You say this because you have never regarded yourself as a person, only as a knife, a knife in someone else's hand!" ”

Qin Feng was stunned.

"Isn't it? In the past, you carried out orders, military orders were like mountains, you didn't have to think about right and wrong, you just used yourself as a knife and completed it. Now, you're still carrying out the commands. Because you know that if you're still in the ranks, what you're going to do now is exactly what you're doing! ”