After entering the subway gate, Xia Zhi withdrew his hand from Su Xiao's palm.

She walked ahead of him and said, "Why are you here now?" ”

"Me? I'll be here as soon as I hear from you. ”

"If you don't come again, I'm afraid I won't be able to hold on."

He walked up to her and saw that her eyes were red and her face was very bad.

In fact, she wasn't sure if Su Xiao would come. She hurriedly messaged him as she left the restaurant and didn't look at her phone since. She had a premonition of what would happen, but she couldn't escape the shackles of fate.

"Summer Solstice, are you okay?" Su Xiao looked at her worriedly.

Xia Zhi shook her head, she didn't know if she was saying "it's okay" or saying "it's not good", she said: "I look down on him, but I'm afraid I can't help but promise him, and then I will look down on myself too." ”

"You won't."

"How do you know that I won't, I'm not a moral saint, and I need it."

Su Xiaomune nodded, and he asked cautiously, "You guys...... What's wrong? ”

He guessed that Pan Rui was the person in Xia Zhi's heart, and he even imagined this person, Pan Rui in reality was very different from what he imagined, he thought that it should be a more free and neat man.

Xia Zhi was silent for a moment before saying, "He's married." ”

There had been countless entanglements between her and him, but in the end, she could only summarize these four words.

"Then why did he come to you?" Su Xiao's tone was slightly displeased.

"I don't know, don't ask me." Summer Solstice walks briskly and hops on the train before the subway doors close.

On the train back, she sat on the acrylic baffle next to her seat, her head shaking with the slight shaking of the car. There were not too many people in the carriage, there were seats, and there were a few passengers standing.

Most people look down at their phones, indifferent to each other, even if there are people around them, they prefer to pay attention to the world thousands of miles away on their phones.

It's so quiet that you can't bear to break it. Summer Solstice sat in the crowd, and all he could hear was the scream of the train breaking through the wind and his own breathing. and Su Xiao's gentle gaze beside him, falling on his face, seemed to have an echo.

"Shall I send you back?" Coming out of the subway station, first passing through Fenglin Garden and then to Nuanjia, when he was about to arrive at the gate of Fenglin Garden, Su Xiao said.

Xia Zhi stopped and glanced into the community: "Is there any wine?" ”

"I've stocked up on a box for you, is it enough?" After the last time the summer solstice came unexpectedly, Su Xiao bought a box of wine and put it at home, in case she ran up again and couldn't find the wine to drink.

Xia Zhi nodded, reversed the direction of his steps and entered the community.

But when she arrived at Su Xiaomen, when he took out the key to open the door, she changed her mind again.

"Forget it, I'd better go back." On such a night, it is really not suitable to go to the house of a single man.

"Summer solstice, are we friends?" Su Xiao opened the door and turned to her, "Come in, it's okay." I...... No, it won't. ”

The latter sentence implicitly points out her doubts. She shrugged her shoulders and exhaled. What's the matter, she is alone, and there is no one to control her. Reed bamboo forest

She walked into the house, took off her shoes, and consciously grabbed a few cans of beer from the fridge. Su Xiao turned on the computer, turned down the volume of the speakers and played some soft music.

He picked up a can of beer from the low table, pulled the tab, and sat down on another couch beside her, frowning slightly as he took a sip of it, and placed the can on the carpet.

Xia Zhi looked at him sideways and smiled: "Compared with three years ago, you don't seem to be any different." ”

It's not that he hasn't drunk with her, but he always frowns, like he's drinking poison. She remembered the first time she had a drink with him on the beach in Yejing Bay, when she had just been separated from Pan Rui for half a year. They got acquainted with it after that.

He also seemed to remember the sound of the waves surging on the seashore, and smiled faintly: "You wait a minute. ”

He jumped up and climbed up to the attic, and Xia Solstice heard him tinkering with something on the floor, and it wasn't long before he came down with a guitar.

"I rarely play, and the sound is inaccurate." He sat cross-legged and tried the strings.

"Stop playing." Xia Solstice said softly.

Su Xiao looked up at her, her gaze fell on a void corner of the floor, as if she was missing.

"Okay." He leaned his guitar against the floor-to-ceiling window, the farthest point from them.

When he came back, he said, "I'm sorry. ”

She shook her head almost imperceptibly: "He played that song to me just now, but I don't think I love him anymore, not at all." ”

"Until tonight, you still love him."

"yes." She had to admit.

"That'...... It's a good start, and you should be happy. ”

The sofa was too soft and unshaped, and it was impossible to drink by straightening up, so Su Xiao simply sat on the carpet and leaned on the sofa as a backrest. Xia Solstice also followed his example and sat down.

"You don't understand, I'm sad not because I love him or I don't love him, it's because I think we shouldn't have met but had to."

"Summer solstice, don't make tongue twisters with me, my brain is not very bright." Su Xiao's words made Xia Zhi laugh all of a sudden.

"It's just ......," she tried to explain to him, and she tried to explain to herself, "I still love him, he loves me, we all secretly pay attention to each other like fools, we shouldn't be like this." ”

After drinking the jar of wine in her hand, Su Xiao also turned the bottom of the jar towards the ceiling, and after pouring the last liquor, he opened a new can and handed it to her, and also opened a can for himself.

Xia Zhi took a sip before saying, "Then after we met, I realized that I fed myself a piece of." I'm a madman. I actually loved such a person for seven years. He was the best memory of that kind, but from this day on, it is no more. ”

Su Xiao pricked up his knees and put the hand holding the wine jar on his knee: "If not, you will continue to think about him." ”

"I know." Xia Zhi's nose was sour, and for a few seconds he couldn't read the words on the wine can, "It seems that there is no beauty in the adult world." ”

"Don't think like that, let him go, and you can love others."

"Why should I love others? None of the people around me are doing well. Whoever doesn't love with hope, who doesn't work hard because of love, love will eventually be consumed. You will find that the person who stays by your side is not the same person you love at all, and what you love is the impression he left on you at a certain moment, not him as a person. ”

She opened her mouth, her nose no longer able to breathe smoothly, and every inhale, with a heavy stopper. She wiped away the tears that slipped from her palm: "He's not what I imagined, never was." ”

Su Xiao looked at her quietly, listening to her, he clenched the empty wine jar in his hand, and the jar was grabbed flat, making a "crackling" sound.