My name is Lin Xi and I am a thief.

Outside the house, it was my father Lin Jun who slammed the door, put down the knife in the house, turned around and lifted the stool was my grandfather, it was my grandmother who stopped my grandfather, and my mother was sitting calmly on the sofa playing with her mobile phone.

And I, holding the bottle, sat in the middle of the sofa and bit the pacifier.

The memories of my childhood are frozen on this picture, and even after more than ten years have passed, that picture is still clear.

At first, I didn't understand why the family had to fight like this, but later I learned that it was called a divorced family.

When I was young, my father would visit me every once in a while, buy me beautiful clothes, and take me to eat delicious food.

But my grandmother told me, "You remember, it's Lin Jun who doesn't want you and your mother anymore, you have to hate him for the rest of your life, don't give him a pension in the future!" ”

I used the methods that my grandmother taught me and flattered him over and over again, but in fact, I still liked this father a little in my heart.

As time went on, I saw the tattoos on my father's arms, I saw the waves of women around him, and I saw how many drunken and crazy nights he had.

At first, these pictures were just in the corner of my mind, but then with the subtle influence of my grandmother, the term 'father' became more and more unbearable in my heart.

My mother's marriage failed, but neither did my grandmother and grandfather's marriage.

There was a small quarrel for three days, a big quarrel for five days, and there was a serious quarrel, but I found the neighbor's grandmother, and the 'war' was resolved.

When I was nine years old, my grandfather contracted lung cancer and passed away after emptying our family.

The burden of supporting the family fell on my mother's shoulders, and I saw her less and less often throughout the year, from once every three months to twice a year.

So, I started a life with my grandmother.

Every night, I always think of my departed grandfather, and then I will secretly drop a few drops of golden beans, I am afraid that I will also die, if I die, there will be nothing......

When I was twelve, I began to yearn for the beauty outside, and children of the same age cheered outside, and I was envious.

I also told my grandmother before about going out to play, but she always vetoed it.

"Grandma, can I go out and play with them for a while?" Once again, I plucked up the courage to go to my grandmother, but I still didn't dare to look up into her eyes.

"Wait until you're done with your homework." The unprecedented grandmother did not refuse.

After finishing my homework, I went to my grandmother with irrepressible joy, and my grandmother said, "Let's go out after dinner." ”

When dinner was over, I went to my grandmother with hope, and this time, she said, "It's too late today, let's go out tomorrow." ”

I finally realized that this was nothing more than a beautiful lie created by my grandmother, and that my childhood was confined to a small yard, and I could only see the occasional sparrow that landed next to my bed.

My grandmother never gave me pocket money, and when my father came to visit me, he always left a small amount of money and told me not to tell her.

I gave all the 100 yuan tickets to my grandmother, and only a small amount of money went into my own pocket.

Sometimes I buy some rare small items to take home, and I don't dare to tell my grandmother the truth, so I say that it was a friend who gave it away.

One early morning in the winter of fifteen, when it was about time to go to school, my grandmother suddenly said that she had lost her money.

"Lin Xi, did I give you the money yesterday? I lost a hundred bucks. My grandmother asked me while rummaging around the house.

I ate at the table, not taking this matter to heart at all, "You didn't give it to me, you see if you put it somewhere." ”

Grandma found the bedroom from the living room, but still found nothing, and muttered, "This is strange." ”

When my grandmother went back to the living room to rummage through it, a hundred yuan appeared in the bag that she had turned over.

"Found it." Grandma breathed a sigh of relief and sat on the couch pondering something.

I smiled helplessly, my grandmother's memory was really broken, this smile was too late to take it back, I heard my grandmother's words.

"Lin Xi, you took the money, right?"

I didn't have time to chew the fritters I had just bitten into, so I swallowed them with a lot of gulp.

"What?" I asked.

"I rummaged through all the bags when I was looking for it just now, and now the money has appeared again, can the money still grow legs and run by itself? I'll just say, which friend of yours can be so kind and often give you things?"

Before I could refute, my grandmother said, "I recently thought that the money in my bag was wrong, how many times did you steal it?"

The word 'steal' stung my eardrums so deeply that I explained, "I didn't take it." ”

"Then the money ran away on its own? Your grandfather's soul was taken?" Grandma had a tough attitude, and she didn't admit it when I was dead.

I explained and explained, "If I took it, why did I put it back for you?" Waiting to be found by you?"

Grandma was stunned for a moment, but she still insisted that I took the money, "Who else could it be if it wasn't you?"

"It's not me!" After saying this, I ran to the bathroom to brush my hair.

stared at myself in the mirror for a long time, I cried angrily, crying while combing my hair, I was wronged, I was inexplicably infamous as 'stealing'.

I didn't come out for a long time, and my grandmother couldn't wait to come in, and when she saw me in tears, she sighed, combed my hair for me, comforted me and said, "Grandma remembered wrongly, grandma misunderstood you." ”

Hearing my grandmother say this, I cried even harder, I was really innocent.

"Okay, okay, don't cry, let outsiders see it and think I'm doing something to you." My grandmother wiped my tears and waited until I stopped crying before sending me out to school.

I thought that was the end of it, and the next day I came home from school, and the atmosphere in the family was very solemn.

My grandmother was sitting in danger, her eyebrows and eyes full of fierceness, and she asked me, "Don't you think you have something missing in your bag?"

Subconsciously thinking of the money I had hidden in my shoe covers, an electric current spread to all my limbs, and my heart began to tremble.

"And you said you didn't steal? How did you raise such a white-eyed wolf ......?" all kinds of offensive words came out of my grandmother's mouth.

Tears slid down his jaw and hit the floor, "I didn't steal the money, my dad gave it to me, he won't let me talk to you......"

In a moment's time, I betrayed my father.

My father was called by my grandmother, and I also hoped that he would come and restore my innocence. I sat across from him and suddenly felt a little sorry for my father.

"That's how you teach your children? She is used to spending money on flowers, and she is used to stealing family money. "No matter how you explain it, my grandmother just insisted that I stole the money.

The father seemed to hear some joke, "I gave her pocket money, why did she steal you?"

Grandma angrily grabbed her father's collar, and the scene got out of control for a while......

It wasn't until later that I couldn't clear the charge of 'thief', and this matter was put on my grandmother's lips again and again, and I was insulted by this word again and again.

Finally, on a sunny morning, I ran away from home in a fit of rage and asked a few friends to meet up at the park.

It was the first time I stepped out of the courtyard where I had been trapped for 16 years, and I was deaf to my grandmother's countless phone calls that day.

When I came home in the evening, I saw my grandmother, who had always been strong, sitting weakly on the sofa.

I was shocked, and my heart was turbulent, could I finally be free?

On the day I ran away from home, I met Gao Zijian, who, like me, lived in a strong and oppressive family, but he learned to resist.

I envy him from the bottom of my heart, because I don't even have the courage to resist.

He said, "Lin Xi, you can learn to escape. ”

I fled again and again, gradually freeing myself from my grandmother's grasp.