My name is Lin Xi and I'm a gangster.

At some point, I suddenly realized that I seemed to like Gao Zijian.

When I first met, he came with my friend Duan Wenbo, who was wearing a black down jacket and standing next to the gym equipment, which was very conspicuous.

I asked Duan Wenbo, "Is this your brother?"

Duan Wenbo asked me with a mouse's eyebrow, "Matched?" Tell you about it?"

"Get out." I rolled my eyes.

Yes, I've always behaved very well at home, but I don't only have a lot of friends who are older than me outside of school, but I'm also very outgoing.

"What's your name?" I asked Gao Zijian.

"Gao Zijian." He still looks a little cold.

"High what?" Forgive me, I really didn't hear clearly.

Gao Zijian looked at me like a mentally handicapped, and replied evilly, "Uncle Gao." ”

Bah! I spat on him ten thousand times in my heart.

"And what's your name?" Gao Zijian asked me.

"Her name is Lin Xi." Duan Wenbo hurriedly answered.

"Contact?"

Well, I think Gao Zijian's ears are also a little bit wrong.

The first time we met, there was a scene, and after I went home, I decisively asked for Gao Zijian's contact information, and became friends with him with my live (smelly) splash (not) outside (to) (face) spirit.

When we met again, it was a few days later, and that day I had another argument with my grandmother.

Integrity and harsh winter, Duan Wenbo and they have to play, and my best friend Yin Wenqian and I can only watch from the sidelines, but Gao Zijian didn't go to play, he said he didn't know basketball.

"Why do you quarrel with your family every day?" Gao Zijian always scolds me, and he also calls it healthier.

"I'd love to!"

The wind was cold, so I wrapped my padded jacket tightly, craned my neck and said, "I'm going to freeze to death!" ”

"I'm cold, too." Yin Wenqian said.

At this time, a wide down jacket was placed on me, and Gao Zijian was only wearing a small shirt.

"You're not cold?" I was stunned.

"It's not cold." He stood upright, as if he was immune to the cold winds.

I shook my head secretly, not exposing his childish but somewhat heartwarming lies.

In the days that followed, I always hung out with Gao Zijian.

He was very nice to me, he would bring me a bottle of drink every time we met, he would lead me when I crossed the street, and when I got to the other side of the road, he immediately let go with a shy face.

He would take me home, but he was afraid that my neighbors would see me, so he always stood far away and watched me leave before leaving.

As I became more and more rebellious, the quarrels with my family became more and more serious, and when I ran away after arguing with my family, he would always accompany me under the pressure of being scolded by his family and help me wipe away the tears that flowed.

He was always there for me whenever I needed company.

He told me that his family was always arguing, and his parents never had a time of harmony, so he hated coming home.

We are like two injured mice, huddling together to keep warm.

Once Yin Wenqian asked me, "What is the situation between you and Gao Zijian?"

"It's a friend." My eyes wandered.

In fact, I can feel that I like Gao Zijian, and he likes me, but neither of us said it.

My grandmother found that she couldn't hold me anymore, so she called my father.

My father took me to a restaurant, and after ordering, he ordered two bottles of wine and a bottle of juice for me, which I thought was a meal as usual.

Halfway through, Lin Jun said, "Your grandmother asked me to watch you." ”

"Hmm." I silently put down the juice that was brought to my mouth, feeling a sense of foreboding.

Lin Jun: "You can be at home this weekend, call me next Friday, I will pick you up, and you will stay at Dad's every weekend in the future." ”

I just heard that something was wrong, and deep down, I had an indescribable fear of Lin Jun, and I shuddered even more when I saw his eyes through his glasses.

I cautiously said, "Dad, you've got to give me some free time, right?"

"What free time do you want?"

"I've got to hang out with my friends, too." I gritted my teeth and let it go, anyway, I don't have too much intersection with Lin Jun, so it's a big deal that I won't see you in the future.

"Why don't you go out? Do you see a serious person next to you?" Lin Jun suddenly raised his voice, attracting the attention of many people.

I understand that he is drinking too much.

From the restaurant to the house, my grandmother was always on the sidelines.

"Lin Xi, let me tell you, don't force me to check on you, don't let me find your group of fox friends and dogs, do you believe that if anyone dares to play with you again, I will discount their legs." Lin Jun used his drunkenness to let loose his words.

"You are unreasonable!" I ran back to my room and closed the door in a fit of rage.

He sat on the ground with his back against the door, tears falling to the floor one by one, and a flower bloomed.

I'm scared, I'm afraid Lin Jun will really do that, I have nothing but those friends, I'm afraid of being alone.

While complaining to Gao Zijian, I pricked up my ears to listen to the situation in the living room, and I was afraid that my grandmother would agree to let me go to Lin Jun's place.

Lin Jun has not intervened in my life for sixteen years, and to me, Lin Jun is a stranger without blood.

I couldn't hear what was said outside, but fortunately, in the end, Lin Jun left, and I think it should be my grandmother who refused.

After he left, I said to my grandmother, "Don't let him intervene in my life." ”

There is a scenic spot in the southern suburbs, called Fengtou Mountain, there is a four-look pavilion on the top of the mountain, there is a small building in the pavilion, that is the highest point in the southern suburbs, standing on it can overlook the entire southern suburbs.

The last time I saw Gao Zijian was in that small building.

It was he who took me for a break that day, and we trekked for half an hour, climbed a long staircase through the woods, and when the sun rose in the middle of the sky, we arrived at Siwangkaku.

Ascending the small building, we stood side by side, the cold wind mixed with the warm sun on our faces.

As far as the eye can see, a thick layer of snow has accumulated on the roofs of the city, and from this angle, it looks like a rolling snow-capped mountain.

The endless silver white made my troubles disappear in an instant, and a faint smile hung on the corner of my mouth.

I'm looking at the scenery, and Gao Zijian is looking at me.

Gao Zijian's appearance is very ordinary, there are two or three pimples on his cheeks, and the lack of whiteness makes him look a little vicissitudes, with a height of one meter seven or eight, not fat or thin, he is such an ordinary person, with the same sadness in his eyes as me.

When we look at each other, we resonate.

"Little bunny, let me catch you, right?"

Suddenly, several men rushed up from the small building, one of whom was holding an electric baton in his hand, and when he pressed it, he would make a 'zilazila' sound.

I was flustered for a moment, at first I thought it was Siwang Pavilion that didn't let people in, these were the managers, and then I saw Lin Jun walking up the stairs.

Are they stalking me?

I didn't get angry, I didn't make a fuss, I was sad the most.

I know that Gao Zijian and I are finished, we will never see each other again, the light that once brought me out of the oppressive world is about to disappear, and we can no longer redeem each other.

I heard Lin Jun's cursing, I heard Gao Zijian's defense, and then I couldn't hear anything.

I saw Lin Jun punch him, I saw their mouths open and closed, and then my vision blurred.

Before being dragged away by Lin Jun, I saw Gao Zijian's confused eyes, and I suddenly wanted to ask him, is my crying look very ugly?

I sat on the couch and listened to their generous presentations.

"If it weren't for the fact that kid wasn't an adult, I'd definitely bring him back and let you beat him!" Lin Jun took the lead in asking my grandmother for credit.

"Don't bring it back and let the community see the joke." Grandma said.

"Lin Xi, let me tell you, from the moment you went out, your little brother and I have been following you, we all know your every move, do you understand self-love as a girl?" Lin Jun's finger touched my nose, as if he would slap me in the next second.

I raised my tearful face, "Why are you following me?"

"Do you have any reason with that kid in the woods? If your dad hadn't followed you, you two would have slept right now, right?" My grandmother always picked the worst words to humiliate me.

I laughed, and more tears rushed out, and I let them dig out my pride and crush it to the ground, over and over again, until it was shattered, until it was bloody.