Qin Ran looked innocent, as if the person who was squatting in the corner just now was not him, and stuffed the second dog in his arms that was about to fall out of his eyes that were about to fall out of his nervous hand.

Dusted off the cat hair on his body, and went upstairs as if nothing had happened.

Entering the house, Jesus was just about to close the door, Qin Ran slammed his toes to block it, whistled behind him, and motioned for him to dodge aside.

Jesus, "Honey, ...... you do this"

Qin Ran, "Mmmmmmmm......mm

"I support you in whatever you do, and I will always be your most solid backing!"

Qin Ran rolled his noble and cold eyes at him, and continued to pick the crack in the door.

The living room on the first floor sat quietly facing each other, and after a long time, Qin Ye spoke first, "Why did he leave?" ”

The old professor shook his head, "I don't know, what he told me was that he was in a hurry to return to China in advance." ”

Qin Ye sighed physically and mentally exhausted, "He should be hiding from me, I don't know why, but I'm sure he must be avoiding me." She laughed as she spoke, "Weird, isn't it?" ”

"You like him a lot, don't you?"

Qin was also stunned for a moment, and replied to him for a while, "I have a personality she... It's called Ye Husheng, I like him very much..."She lowered her head and paused, "I like him very much...... He probably felt a little bothered, and I can understand that. ”

Qin Ran leaned on the crack of the door, eager to put his ears on the lips of Qin Ye and the old man to hear what the two of them were chatting about.

It's a pity that I didn't understand the number, and I almost tumbled down the stairs.

Fortunately, Jesus quickly stopped him and hugged him, so that the story of Qin Ran's love to pick up the crack in the door did not turn into an accident.

The two people on the first floor looked up at the second floor in unison.

Qin also looked at the old professor embarrassedly, "I'm sorry, my brother is not very good at his brain, so I'll send you back first." ”

The old professor shook his head and looked at Qin Ran, with an expression on his face that I knew what you were thinking.

Smiled confidently, took out a mobile phone number with a phone number written on it from his pocket and stuffed it into his chest pocket, patted it, made a call gesture in his right ear, and blinked his left eye, "Call me." ”

Qin Ran, "........." Is there a gay sucking stone in this room?

Jesus easily got rid of the clingy old professor.

When I came back with a disgusted face, I bumped into two people standing by the wall fighting cocks.

Qin Ran grabbed Qin Ye's neck, his eyes were cracking, he wanted to strangle her, and said in a low voice, "What did you just say?" Do you give it to me again? ”

Qin also didn't have any temper at all, and let himself be grabbed by his neck like a puppet and dangled around, "I said I don't want to be cured." ”

"Why the do you say give up?"

Qin Ye suddenly lost his temper and shook off Qin Ran's hand, and shouted in a broken voice, "I can't cure it!" No one can cure me! Do you know what kind of life I've been living every day since I was twelve, Qin Ran? ”

She pointed to a corner of the living room with red eyes, "I have hallucinations every day, I can see the vastness every day!" She cried at me and smiled at me, calling me sister! Ask me what I'm wearing today and how I wear braids! She's right there, what can I do! I knew it was a hallucination, I knew! But I'm cured, and I'll never see her again in my life! I can't bear it! ”

Qin Ran had never been so scared, it was an extreme sense of weightlessness like losing gravity, the fear that something he had been holding in his palm suddenly lost control.

He said in a trembling voice, "Why didn't you tell me? ”

Qin Ye's voice was low and depressed, and he asked repeatedly like a demon, "What am I telling you?" What do you want me to tell you? ”

"Qin Ran, do you know how much I hate you! But I'm not qualified! I was looking for you back then, I begged you to take me away, I am not qualified to say that you are not good, I don't have the ability to support her. I sometimes... I thought, if I hadn't been born by He Yufen from the beginning, if she had beaten me to death directly when I was young, I wouldn't have suffered this crime! ”

"Ten years!" Qin also roared heartbreakingly, "Ten whole years! Do you know how I'm getting by? I've had enough of this place! Language barrier! Racism! ”

"I work day and night on papers, on projects, I only sleep four hours a day, how tired I am, you know? I've lived enough! ”

"I've lived enough!"

Qin Ye's face was full of tears, her eyelids were red and swollen and she couldn't open them, she leaned against the wall, lowered her head and breathed: "Brother, you spare me, I really have lived enough." ”

It was like a body that had been pulled out of her body with only a layer of skin left, and she sat limp in the corner of the wall.

Obviously chose a dead end, but she had a rare feeling of relief, a feeling of lightness that she had never felt before.

Qin Ran stood aside stupidly, unable to say a word of rebuttal, his head was blank, he listened to every word Qin Ye said, but it seemed that he didn't understand every word.

For a moment he felt as if someone was holding a sledgehammer and chiseling hard at his heart, and his heartbeat was as loud as an autumn cicada, and every time he beat his ears, he could hear a ring, a buzzing sound.

He subconsciously reached out and helped the wall, slid down the wall and sat on the ground.

Can't say a word.

I don't know how long it took, Qin Ran spoke first, his voice hoarse like a monster, "I'll accompany you." ”

Qin Ye turned his head abruptly to look at Qin Ran.

Qin Ran wanted to smile at her, but unfortunately the effect was not so successful, laughing was uglier than crying, "You don't want to live anymore, I'll accompany you." ”

"Brother......

"I... I, go upstairs first, the meal is in the kitchen, and I will eat myself when I am hungry. ”

After speaking, he stood up with his arms and staggered himself, bowed and walked away.

Jesus silently followed Qin Ran upstairs.

As soon as Qin Ran entered the room, he immediately changed his face, spun and jumped, turned 360 degrees on the spot, and quickly picked up the crack in the door to look at Qin Ye in the living room.

As he watched squirmingly, he asked Jesus, and whispered, "How was I doing?" ”

Jesus, "I almost believed it. ”

Qin Ran laughed and sighed, "If you don't do this, you can't help it." ”

Jesus, "There's only one brother like you, she cares about you." ”

Qin Ran sat down against the wall with a headache, and looked out along the crack in the door, "It's me who is not good, I only cared about making money before, and then I stayed in prison for three years, and I didn't care about throwing her such a big child abroad." ”

Jesus nodded, then frowned again and said confusedly, "I read the report before, she was quite big when she was twelve, why is she so big?" ”

"........." Qin Ran was speechless for a moment, "Actually, you and Wang Zhili are quite like brothers sometimes." ”

It was already dark, and no one turned on the light on the first floor, so Qin also turned on a table lamp and placed it at one end of the long dining table, and sat at the other end, looking at the light.

When she was very young, she didn't like to turn on the light when she was doing homework at home, so she liked a small table lamp, not because she wanted to save electricity, but because it was too bright and insecure, the light was dim as if she was gently hugged by the light, as if someone was accompanying her, she was too lonely.

She leaned back in her chair and stared intently at the dim light.

Some things really can't be controlled by man, just like now, she can see the vast space sitting under that lamp and doing her homework.

"I'm leaving." Qin Ye whispered at her.

The little girl under the lamp ignored her, still quietly flipping through the book.

"This time I'm really leaving."

The little girl's hand flipping through the book under the lamp paused, and she looked up at her, "Is it because you can always see me?" ”

Qin Ye staggered his eyes slightly, forcing himself not to look at her, "It's that I'm too tired." ”

After a long time, neither of them spoke.

"I'm homesick, let's go home together."

The little girl grinned at Qin Ye, "Where my sister goes, I'll go." ”

Qin Ye looked at her for a long time and frowned, "Why have you grown so big, and you are still as black as a sheep dung egg?" ”

He narrowed his eyes in disgust as he spoke.

The little girl was not happy and pouted and "hummed".

The two looked at each other and laughed in unison.

The little girl finished laughing and said, "Sister, it's time for me to go." ”

"Why?"

"I'm not vast, I'm just a person you imagined in your heart, you know that I don't exist but let me appear for ten years, I accompany you every day to eat, sleep, and study. But now you're living too hard because I'm working, I have to leave. ”

"You're still young, you still want to live. You're just too tired, just take a break. ”

Qin also listened to her quietly, "Aren't you going home with me?" ”

The little girl shook her head and pointed to her heart, "I've always been here, you can take me anywhere." ”

"But I want to look at you."

"You know what to do, you should live, you still have a lot of places you haven't been to, there are too many scenery you haven't seen, don't let the vastness become a hurdle in your heart that you can never get through."

The voice seemed to come out of the bottom of her heart, trying her best to hold off her little remaining desire to survive, and roared loudly with all her might, stay!

The little girl continued, "Your brother, he and Jesus are not married, you can't be so selfish. ”

After a long time, Qin Ye finally nodded and said, "You go, I'll take care of myself." ”

The little girl tilted her head playfully at her, packed up her textbooks on the table, put them in her school bag, got up and said, "As long as you always remember the blank, she has never left." ”

Qin also nodded, watching her disappear, her heart was surprisingly calm, without the slightest bit of turbulence, there was a kind of silence that could also be said to be a lifeless emptiness.

She didn't know what to do, and the sky outside the window didn't know when it started to get dark.

Another sleepless night.

Qin Ye looked out the window with dark eyes, and sometimes she wondered if she could look out the window motionless in one place and see death for the rest of her life.

Hide forever, no one can find yourself, if you are lucky, you can directly die without the slightest pain, it will be better.

No longer walking on the street to see other people's mothers leading their children to speak softly and jealously.