Wang Yan felt as if she had been hit by a heavy object, and her whole body was immersed in the aftermath and could not be relieved.

The sweet world that he built with shame was destroyed by the ashamed creator himself, Wang Yan didn't care about how many fragments remained after the collapse of the world, but used his body to watch Brother Peng personally walk and tell him the wrong path. The contemporary version of the story of only allowing the government to prevent fire and not allowing the people to light the lamps is staged around him, and he stupidly believes that the events of four years have become a joke now, but the person who created the joke is ignorant and unconscious, and he is silently sad for this matter, and the two of them staged two channels in parallel live versions on this matter.

Reason told Wang Yan that she should ignore it, and sensibility kept stabbing her heart with a needle, and her heart was only painful, but strangely there was no blood.

Mom once told her what love was. Love is a life transition, a state of life that you are stuck in and don't want to leave. The beginning of this state of life is made up of two people, you and him. His strengths are what you appreciate the most, and his weaknesses are those that you don't hate. There are so many people around you, and you are the most comfortable with him. He doesn't have to be the most handsome you've ever seen, not necessarily the best, not necessarily with a strong family background, not necessarily with his own financial resources; He may be ordinary, worthless in the eyes of others, or in the eyes of outsiders, the two of you are very different. But you will still be attracted to him, and after you are together, you will feel that you have the whole world, and the world will become a better place with him.

"I'll take a phone call and talk another day."

Wang Yan edited this WeChat with the little reason left in her brain, and sent it to complete the work, and after doing this, the last bit of understanding dominated her limbs and turned off her phone. Wang Yan sat slumped on the ground, stunned, wanting to cry, but her tears had already dried up. The brain can't tell whether it's really unflowing, or whether it's not worth it.

The holiday when they graduate from high school and are about to enter college is a memorable time for them, and here are the days when they formalize their relationship. Because the mothers of both sides are colleagues and live in a community, there are traces of Brother Peng at the beginning of the memory, and the memory is deepened because of the cousin's pick-up and drop-off at school, and there is a sense of intimate familiarity, which is a feeling of difference and piglets, a desire to possess each other, and a kind of spiritual connection. Both of them seem to be able to feel the difference between each other, but they don't say it, they get along according to the usual way of getting along, the two hearts are gradually getting closer, and the window paper between them is getting thinner and thinner, and during this holiday, the paper is torn and they are together.

Wang Yan felt that his world had undergone earth-shattering changes because of him, and they were destined and a match made in heaven. The day of college registration is approaching, and they must separate. That school and the city where it is located is my dream. Brother Peng knew about this matter a few years ago, and a few days before the report, Brother Peng's behavior made her feel guilty about destroying love, and the guilt turned into shame. This shame accompanied four years of college life.

Such a sense of shame turned into a joke at this moment, and the corners of Wang Yan's mouth were crooked, and she sneered constantly. Whimsically wants time to stand still, and thinks about the source of the pain in his heart for the first time. To explain such an event that the two are different people, lame and absurd are on both sides. Wang Yan understands in her heart that reason will eventually triumph over sensibility, and the taste of this process can only be borne silently by yourself, and if you choose him, you can't give him up at all, you can only accept all of him, accept everything about him, including the imperfections in your eyes. But why should I suffer this pain in silence alone? This thought lit up a nerve in my brain and called WeChat to edit such a paragraph.

"Brother Peng, before I went to college, you once told me that if a lover separates is a disaster, no matter what the reason is, the culprit of this disaster is a sinner through the ages. I don't know if you remember this sentence now. ”

After sending, waiting for the other party's response, every second in her heart felt like years apart.

"I went abroad to dig wells for our future. Drilling wells abroad pays wells, and only when we have money can we have the capital to realize our dreams. When I come back, let's quit our jobs and leave here together, go where you want to go, and live the life we want. ”

"The place where you can have a good salary when you go abroad is a place where the conditions are difficult. Middle East, Outer Mongolia, Great Desert, etc. There was danger everywhere, and my high school classmate's father, who had gone to work in the Middle East, was attacked by an armed attack, spent days in a bomb shelter, and came back mentally ill. People rely on taking medicine to maintain a normal life. I'm so scared. If you want to be short of money, I have it, and I have earned nearly 400,000 yuan from growing up in New Year's money and buying stocks. Can we not go? ”

In order to deepen her strong attitude that she didn't want her boyfriend to go, Wang Yan found a tearful little girl's emoji and sent it over.

"You said that uncle's example is a special case, I won't. I'm strong inside. I protect myself. Keep your money, keep it for yourself, I don't want it, I shouldn't be a white face. I'm a man, and I'm earning money for you to spend, not spending your money. What is a man who spends a woman's money? That's not a man. ”

"We are equal, we are not separated from each other together, and my money is also your money. When my dad spent my mom's money, he was very happy, and there was no point of view like yours, and your point of view was Northeast machismo. ”

"I'm not a machismo. I am responsible. I'm going to be a big tree, to give you shelter from the wind and rain, and for those who don't think well of us to see. I'm also someone I can rely on. ”

"Your actions are for others to see, not to consider my feelings, you make me understand you, how can you ever understand me. I give up a lot for you, you always turn a blind eye, I don't do it for you, I will be willing to fall here and waste my life. ”

"You came back to work, because you were not capable enough, Hugh has to put the reason on me. How good the oil field is, state-owned enterprises, good places. You see it's good to come back here. How I didn't consider your feelings. I went abroad to dig wells for you. This is to have more capital to marry you. ”

"You are insulting my ability to learn. I'm better at learning than you. You keep saying that going abroad to dig wells is for our future, I am just a cover you take out, you only have yourself in your eyes, we have known each other for more than 20 years, we understand each other, you are to paint and save capital, not anything else. Do you dare to say no? ”

Wang Yan edited the answers analyzed in her heart into a message and sent it over, waiting for the other party's answer. But what I got was a sentence. "Good night.".

"Good night." After Wang Yan replied, her nerves were excited, and she still needed to go to class tomorrow, but tonight it became a city that never sleeps that only belonged to Wang Yan, and the falling snowflakes remained on the ground just below zero, and also remained in Wang Yan's heart.