My name is Bottle, I am a preschool teacher who specializes in dealing with children, and I am also a bachelor who is about to enter the ranks of 30 years old, walking in the 29-year-old journey with confusion, panic, and reluctance and helplessness for the gradual passing of youth.

I once thought that thirty years old was still a very distant thing for me, but when time slipped away, when I looked in the mirror and saw the faint lines on my face, I began to understand that my youth was gradually leaving me, and it turned out that thirty years old was getting closer and closer to me.

Walking on the edge of thirty years old, my heart was so overwhelmed, once anxious to severe insomnia, my heart was constantly struggling, how many painful insomnia nights my heart was tortured and exhausted, but that kind of pain can only be experienced by myself, after all, the collapse of adults can only be deeply experienced by themselves.

As time passed, I began to learn to calm my mind, to talk to myself, and to listen to my innermost feelings and thoughts.

I began to ask myself, why did I become anxious in the face of the approaching age of thirty? Why are you confused?

When I watched the people around me get married and have children, and watched the people around me succeed in their careers, I began to understand that compared to being afraid of the coming of thirty, I was more afraid of seeing my youth disappearing but achieving nothing, and I was more afraid of seeing myself who was always lonely.

Before the age of 29, I stumbled all the way, too many thorns, too many disappointments, too many helplessness, and my youth accompanied me except endless waiting and lonely figures, and there was nothing else.

I often look up at the night sky and ask myself again and again, why is this my life? Why is this my youth?

I still often look up to the happiness of others, and ask myself why I am always a supporting role in looking up to the happiness of others?

However, when I experienced more and more things, I also began to realize in my continuous growth that every step in life counts, there has never been loneliness and tribulation for no reason, and every step taken is the result of my initial choice, and people must always learn to grow up in those choices.

At the age of 29, I experienced confusion and anxiety, and gradually learned to accept and face, learn to smile and embrace the tail of youth, thirty years old, but a new starting point in life, thirty years old, but a new stage of life, thirty years old, is more worthy of embracing the age, thirty years old, just numbers, everyone can still have the most desired life, as long as the mind is relaxed, as long as you work hard enough, you and I can have the most wonderful life.