Volume 1 I'm afraid that meeting is a dream Chapter 42 I'm your backup

Cheng Yunjing lowered his head and didn't say a word, and the dim light obscured his expression at this time.

Gu Mo was forcing a smile on his face, at this moment.

The tears on the movie screen are the true portrayal of her heart.

Almost all multiple personalities are based on split experiences. When the main personality encounters terrifying tribulations that ordinary people can't imagine, it will split into other personalities, and let it bear this part of the memory to maintain the normal operation of the main personality.

But it didn't work.

Because the whole life that a person has cannot be artificially separated, the emotions and thoughts between personalities can never be truly independent.

Building a personality is like building a new archive, putting the things that you want to delete from the original personality but can't change in a new folder, sorting and summarizing, to seek some kind of ingenious symbiosis.

It's sad and stupid.

Because the best way to eliminate fear is to face fear, and avoiding it can only relieve the pain for a while, but not for a while.

But it takes a lot of courage to face a fear that is strong enough to break down.

So before that, people would take care of him, spend a lot of time doing full research, carrying a bag that was enough to extinguish fear fifty times, and constantly wandering around the ghost gate of life and death.

Even then, they only dared to look inside.

Finally, he finally mustered up the courage to walk through the door, but if he accidentally tripped over the sand on the side of the road and fell, the deep tension and amplified fear threatened to kill him.

Facing fear is so hard, you need the cheering of others, even if you just sit on the side and watch silently, it will make the other person feel at ease.

So, do you know, Gu Mo, I am your eternal backup.

I will not allow you to lose.

Cheng Yunjing looked at Gu Mo's focused face and thought secretly.

Gu Mo felt his eyes, looked at him suspiciously, and smiled at him.

After the movie ended, they went out to pick up the car and prepare to go home, and the refreshing cool breeze of the night was blowing on people's faces.

Gu Mo looked down at his toes, and said softly for a long time, "...... Gu Qin's acting is indeed much better than mine. ”

“…… That's because you're in bondage. What Gu Qin got was not only the memory of your pain, but also the potential that you burst out of because of the pain. ”

Cheng Yunjing sighed and helped Gu Mo open the car door: "You have to know that pain can not only destroy a person, but also make a person." ”

"You really know everything." Gu Mo couldn't help but complain.

"Of course...... So do you want to be nice with me? ”

"No thanks."

"It's too hurtful for you to refuse so quickly......" Cheng Yunjing wailed, and couldn't help but turn his head to look at her.

Love devours the heart, Gu Mo's heart hurts as if it has been inserted.

She trembled and turned pale: "You, what a despicable ......"

"Xiaomo......" Cheng Yunjing looked at her in a panic, hurriedly parked the car on the side of the road, and looked down to check her condition, "What's wrong with you, are you okay......"

Gu Mo was so painful that he almost fainted, and he couldn't hear what Cheng Yunjing was saying at all.

Cheng Yunjing just wanted to help Gu Mo up, but heard her say in a child-like aggrieved tone that she had never seen before: "I'm in so much pain......"

Frightened, Cheng Yunjing stepped back and hit the door glass, and didn't dare to say anything for a long time.

"Where is this...... the other party raised his head and looked at him with a very innocent look, "Big brother...... Are you a kidnapper? ”

"......" kidnapper, I want to call the police now, okay!

"That, little sister...... Cheng Yunjing's language skills have begun to become scarce, "I'm your sister's boyfriend......"

"Boyfriend?" Kate asked suspiciously, "Which sister are you talking about......

"How many sisters do you have?!" Cheng Yunjing felt that he was about to collapse.

"Oh!" Kate suddenly realized: "You are Gu Qin's sister's boyfriend...... Right? ”

"What are you talking about...... Cheng Yunjing said indifferently, "As long as you are willing to go home with me for a while, don't run around the streets." ”

Kate sat cautiously next to him, her face full of nervousness and fear.

"What's wrong?" Sensing the other party's uneasiness, Cheng Yunjing couldn't help but chuckle, "You seem to be very afraid of me." ”

"Sister Gu Qin said, you want me to stay away from you." Kate said to Cheng Yunjing without any scruples, not realizing that she was informing.

"Oh? So what else did she say. Cheng Yunjing asked seemingly indifferently and drove back on the road.

"Well......" Kate became distressed, "I don't think you want to hear it...... She didn't say anything nice. ”

"Yes." Cheng Yunjing couldn't help but want to smoke, and couldn't help it when he thought of driving, "What's your name, how old are you this year?" ”

“…… Kate, I'm twelve years old. She lowered her head and said as if depressed, "I shouldn't have appeared...... But Sister Gu Mo and Sister Gu Qin both went on strike, and then I was pushed out. ”

Cheng Yunjing couldn't help laughing: "It's okay, do you have anything you like, I'll buy it for you." ”

"That's good...... We don't know each other either. Kate hesitated, "And Sister Gu Qin will be angry if she knows." ”

......: "I've known you for six or seven years, okay?!"

Cheng Yunjing rubbed his temples in annoyance: "Then your sister Gu Mo, didn't you tell you anything good about me?" ”

"Sister Gu Mo hasn't mentioned you much, but she always cries because ......of you," Kate stuck out her tongue and said, "I think there may be a complicated love triangle between you." ”

Cheng Yunjing didn't say anything, just looked at the road ahead.

When he got home, Cheng Yunjing brought the reluctant Ketra into the house, like a parent dragging his child to extracurricular tutoring.

"A man like you who acts rudely in direct means, no wonder my sister doesn't like you." Kate looked at him grumblingly, raised her hand and blew on her sore wrist.

The speaker has no intention, but the listener has the intention.

Cheng Yunjing leaned down impatiently and said to Kate, who was sitting on the sofa: "I'll tell you, it's not that your sister doesn't like me, it's that I don't like your sister." ”

Kate was stunned for a moment, looked up at Cheng Yunjing, and then said clearly: "You are trying to cover up, I understand." ”

“…… You're right. Cheng Yunjing leaned aside unbearably, "It's not that you have such a high EQ, who is Gu Mo with her?" ”

"Because she has entered an adolescent that is worse than death, her ability to analyze and process data is polluted by hormones that are constantly secreted." Kate complained mercilessly.

"You're unfathomable...... I didn't understand much. Cheng Yunjing was completely stunned.

"I'm hungry." Kate said suddenly, raised her head to look at Cheng Yunjing, and bloomed with an innocent smile, "You don't want me to tell my sister that you make me hungry." ”

"......" He saw that this was a bear child with the attributes of a little devil.

He stood up and went to cook with a helpless expression, and Kate was bored, so she followed him.

She watched Cheng Yunjing busily cutting green peppers with her head down on the board, picked up the washed apple and took a bite of it.

Cheng Yunjing looked up at Kate, who was eating apples without heart and lungs, and felt that his heart was tired: "How long have you been there?" ”

"I don't know......" she said mutteringly as she chewed an apple, "and suddenly one day I woke up, accompanied by a quiet peace, and a wordless blessing." ”

"Is it because of me......" Cheng Yunjing suddenly had a terrible thought and looked at Kate.

"Probably not." Kate frowned.

"But...... That's how it looks. Cheng Yunjing said in a hoarse voice, his tone full of imperceptible sadness, "You never appeared before, but after being with me, you appeared." ”

"You're ...... Sad. An inexplicable sympathy appeared in Kate's heart, but it was clear that only Gu Mo would have such feelings.

"Of course it's sad...... You're just making me feel guilty. Cheng Yunjing said in a subtle and heavy tone.

"I don't understand, if you really feel guilty, don't do anything that makes you guilty in the first place." It doesn't feel logical.

Cheng Yunjing was speechless.

He has nothing to do with this personality that looks exactly like Gu Mo, but has a calm and poisonous tongue.

"Gu Mo, come back quickly, I beg you, I was wrong......"

Kate turned her head and looked around: "Where is Sister Gu Mo?" ”

She stepped forward and touched Cheng Yunjing's forehead, wanting to see if it was hot: "Are you sick......?"

"It's fine." Cheng Yunjing said angrily, "Hurry up and eat, go to bed after eating, children should go to bed early and get up early." ”

Kate reluctantly picked up the chopsticks: "But I usually listen to fairy tales in bed and wait until I'm sleepy before going to sleep......"

"You had this habit at such a young age?" Cheng Yunjing couldn't help laughing.

Kate was stunned for a moment, looked at Cheng Yunjing, her big eyes were full of confusion, and she felt an indescribable fear of the unknown that transcended age.

She seemed to see Gu Mo and Gu Qin in the depths of her memory, and were smiling at her.

Kate burst into tears of fright, like a hostage about to be torn off by the kidnappers.

Cheng Yunjing looked at her like this, knowing that if she didn't stop it, she might have to change people soon.

He tapped the other man on the shoulder, and Kate looked up at him in horror as if she had woken up from a nightmare.

Cheng Yunjing gently touched Kate's cheek and combed her hair: "Don't be afraid...... It's okay. ”

Kate gradually calmed down and didn't speak, just lowered her head and ate.

Cheng Yunjing sat on the side and looked at her, his eyes were complicated, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

After dinner, Kate washed up and lay down in bed to get ready for bed, but the strange and familiar atmosphere of the room, and the feeling of various spaces mixing together, made her panic.

Suddenly, the door opened, and the outside light came in, frightening Kate to hide under the covers, at a loss.

After Cheng Yunjing closed the door, he walked over and smiled softly at her, and handed her a fluffy rabbit doll: "...... Give it to you, you didn't like it very much before, so I'll put it away. ”