Chapter 18: Depression
Lu Ming was busy all day collecting the details of Mu Zili, and when he took a bunch of documents to his little master, he was still quite proud, because he was responsible for taking all the files from her childhood to adulthood, including birth certificates, insurance policies, guardianship certificates, medical treatment forms, and even college entrance examination transcripts and test papers.
"Young master, the information shows that Miss Mu once entered S University as the top liberal arts student in the national college entrance examination." He really didn't expect Miss Mu to be the champion, "Young master, that's the champion, the first place." ”
Xu Yanwu's expression was faint, and he didn't feel anything.
In fact, he already knew, and it was written in his diary.
In high school, she spent a lot of time studying, no holidays, no day and night study, scorching heat and cold, finger sores, and late night revision, all just to get a good grade so that her father could take a look at her.
He said "um", flipped through the information he got from the road name, and the more he flipped through it, the more he felt that the road name would not do anything, was this what he wanted? What he asked for was detailed information about Mu Zili's life, such as what she had experienced? Like what? Hate what? Where are these stereotypical archival information.
"Road name, do you want to go to the tribe of F state? I've heard that the branch there is on the verge of bankruptcy, and you can help you get some blood back, and I've always appreciated your ability. ”
Lu Ming's mind came up with the miserable environment, he smiled, and politely refused: "Young master, this is not necessary, I know my ability, how can I be worthy of such a big responsibility." ”
"I think you can do it, you can do it." Xu Yanwu said with a smile.
Lu Ming felt that the little young master's smile was gloomy, but he didn't know what he had done wrong, so he habitually said, "Young master, I'll go and get the punishment now." ”
Xu Yanwu suddenly turned to a piece of news, the news about the death of Mu Zili's mother.
A month ago, she was mildly depressed, but in just one month it turned severe, and the changes during this period may be directly related to her mother's death.
Xu Yanwu glanced at the name of the road, "You don't have to be punished, go to Ningcheng ......"
The maid assigned to Mu Zili by the name of the road is called Xiaomi.
In his twenties, he is a carefully selected optimist, enthusiastic and diligent, but he has one shortcoming, he talks too much.
Mu Zili lives in her own world, when she saw Xiaomi for the first time, she was busy tearing the sheets, there was nothing sharp and sharp in the room, she thought about it for a long time, and planned to hang herself, but she began to dizzy when she tore half of her head, and her body had no strength.
Mu Zili didn't want to speak, she didn't dare to communicate with anyone now, she didn't know who Xiaomi was and didn't want to know, after resting, she carefully snatched the broken sheets in her hand, and hid herself in a dark corner like a bad guy, like a psychopath.
Xiaomi knew that the person she was about to serve was a depressed person, and this was not the first time, judging from her experience, Mu Zili may be venting, after all, depression will have times when she is anxious, and suicide is also possible, and then she cleaned up those broken pieces and made the bed again.
Mu Zili watched Xiaomi disrupt all her plans, and she finally tore the sheets for a long time, she gritted her teeth and stared, her heart dripping blood.
Millet will talk to her gently, laugh passionately, and tell some jokes, but Millet can't stop laughing while talking, but it doesn't seem funny to her.
After that, Xiaomi will look at her apologetically and ask if this is not funny?
At that moment, she would feel guilty, Xiaomi wanted to make her happy, but she couldn't be happy, she was so sorry for her kindness, thinking like this, she began to be sad and sad, and her eyes were involuntarily sour.
She had always wanted to leave this strange place, but she couldn't get out, and not long after she walked out of the door, a person who claimed to be the name of the road would stop her, saying that she needed treatment, that she needed to stay here, and that the young master he said would help her heal.
Mu Zili is sometimes paranoid, she doesn't think she needs a stranger to treat her, she doesn't want to owe someone else. She wanted to find a quiet place and end her life.
In the next few days, Xu Yanwu would come back from Hongren Pavilion every night full of injuries, he gave up his evening boxing practice and games, and tried to talk to Mu Zili, but she still didn't say a word and hid herself in her armor.
Xia Zhi said that Mu Zili's current state can't live alone.
"Mu Zili, do you want to go back to Ningcheng? Go find your family. When he asked her, Mu Zili was in a daze.
"Since you don't answer, then I'll treat you as if you don't want to go back."
Her eyes stared at the painting on the wall without blinking, the dark lotus pond, Mu Zili looked at it like this, looked into it, no matter who was around her, what she said, she didn't feel it.
Xu Yanwu later accompanied her to look at it and said to himself, "It was painted by the famous impressionist painter Mn, who achieved the pinnacle of the combination of light and shadow, and I grabbed this painting from the auction back then." ”
Xu Yanwu sat barefoot on the ground, his legs straightened, and he propped his hands back, he said: "At that time, I was eight years old, and when I went to the auction for the first time, no one in it knew me, and they all thought that it was a rich kid who came to see the world.
At that time, there were many people who wanted to buy this painting, and I wanted it too. I started bidding with them, patting and patting, and suddenly remembered a funny one, it was better to bid viciously with them, and speculate the price of the painting, and then I stopped when the price was really difficult to go up, you said it was funny, and there were really stupid people who bought it at a price 20 times more than the market value.
There were a lot of robberies and riots abroad, and then I secretly changed the painting while those bodyguards were not paying attention, you can't imagine, now that the stupid guy who took pictures is still hanging this painting at home, looking at it day and night, and I can't put it down, especially that it is actually an imitation. ”
"I know a thing or two about this art stuff, but I just want it, and you know why?" Xu Yanwu suddenly laughed, revealing two tiger teeth, and his originally gloomy face instantly became glorious.
Mu Zili had actually been listening, she just didn't want to speak, and clutched the handle of the sofa tightly, like sitting on pins and needles.
She heard Xu Yanwu's young voice, like melodious music, he said: "Because I like to see what others want but can't get, and when I get it, it's an empty picture, this feeling can make me refreshed and full of fun." ”
Mu Zili turned her head to look at him slowly, and Xu Yanwu's smile was like the brightest sunshine, making her addicted without knowing it.
She couldn't figure out why he wanted to save her, and she couldn't figure out why she wasn't afraid of him anymore, this person named Xu Yanwu told her that she was suffering from depression, called a psychiatrist for her, gave her a place to live, ate and drank well, and gave her millet.
"That's not good." She opened her mouth to speak, and for the first time she didn't feel nervous or afraid.
When Xu Yanwu heard it, he squinted with a smile, a pair of peach blossom eyes seemed to be drunk but not drunk, hazy and gorgeous, and he said, "You spoke." ”
Mu Zili was finally willing to talk to him.
She dodged the light in his eyes and scrambled again.
Xu Yanwu didn't want to persecute her, just a word, this is a good start.
He stood up, took the medicine from the bedside, and walked to Mu Zili with a glass of water, "Take the medicine, you won't feel pain after taking the medicine." ”
Xia Zhi said that the medicine for depression has great side effects, it will make Mu Zili eliminate excess emotions, and she can't experience sadness very deeply, memory loss, drowsiness, weakness, trembling, she will suffer these symptoms one by one, and even have no energy to commit suicide again.