On the way back, I sat in a taxi.

In the early hours of the morning, the streets are deserted, and the streetlights are speeding backwards, like a mime speeding away from its own world.

"Xia Yun, marry me......"

Seven years ago, in the hospital ward, I proposed to Xia Yun, who was lying in bed.

She should be in a state of complete confusion, maybe few people would choose to propose in a place like a hospital, right? What's more, she has been lying down for many days, and the whole person is not in such a good state......

"What are you doing, Lu Yanchen?" She whispered on the bed.

"Proposal...... I knelt in front of the window, and opened the prepared ring box in my hand, and there was a small diamond ring lying inside.

It is said to be a diamond ring, which is a simple platinum ring with a small diamond on it, which adds up to only 2,000 yuan.

But it was all my possessions at the time.

When she saw me open the ring box, she realized that I was really proposing, not playing truth or dare.

"Lu Yanchen! I didn't even wear makeup......" her tone changed, "You're so sudden!" ”

"What kind of makeup, you've always been so beautiful in my eyes." I held the ring in front of her and said again, "Xia Yun, will you marry me?" ”

She hesitated: "Did you propose to me because I couldn't have children?" ”

"It's just a reason." I didn't deny it, but I want to explain this logic, "I didn't propose to you because of this incident, but because of this incident, I seriously thought about getting married, no matter from which point of view, now, I want to take on the responsibility of accompanying you in the future, Xia Yun." ”

It was clear that she didn't expect me to answer that, but I knew by her expression that my words had touched her deeply.

She was a little overwhelmed, and I don't think she was ready. Whether it's mentally or physically, now is a relatively bad time for her.

"Your proposal isn't romantic at all, Lu Yanchen." She struggled for a long time, and such a sentence popped out of her mouth.

"I'll make up another romantic proposal in the future, okay?" My hands were a little sore, "Xia Yun, you agree first." ”

"What do you mean to say yes first...... "She burst out laughing, "How can marriage be such a big thing, how can it be child's play, I have to ask you a few questions." ”

"Okay, okay, if you have any questions, just ask." I put my attitude in the right place.

"Why do you want to get married?" She asked me, "Do you think marriage is a necessity in life?" ”

"No, I don't think it's a must." I said, "I think marriage is just a matter of choice, everybody can choose and say no, but when the time comes, it becomes mandatory." ”

When I said this, I felt a faint sadness in my heart.

"Then why would you want to marry me and not someone else?" She gave me a soul torture.

This question, in the past few days when Xia Yun was hospitalized, I asked myself countless times whether I should make this decision or not.

Li Anbang asked me, what if Chen Yiyao comes back?

In fact, the one I miss the most in my heart and can't let go of it the most is Chen Yiyao.

But Chen Yiyao has not been heard from for many years, and at this age, he should already have a boyfriend, or even get married.

The promises made when you are young are often not taken seriously.

The so-called mountain alliance and sea oath were just a world and a planet that belonged to two people at that time.

Now, it's no longer the world of two people......

Where is the mountain? Where is the sea?

"Xia Yun, I want to give you a happy future." I threw away the last trace of hesitation in my heart and said to Xia Yun.

She didn't ask me any more questions, but held out her hand with tears in her eyes and a smile.

The moment the ring was put on my finger, I knew that Chen Yiyao and I were over.

After she was discharged from the hospital, I called Shang Li Anbang and Ah B, and a few people ate a hot pot in our rental house.

That day, Li Anbang was so drunk that he patted me on the shoulder.

"Brother-in-law! Be nice to my sister! He muttered.

"I didn't recognize you as a big brother!" Xia Yun smiled and glanced at him.

Li Anbang stared at Xia Yun for a long time, and then looked at me again.

I just wanted to ask something, but Ah B poured back the wine.

……

The taxi drove to the neighborhood and I got off.

In the community, the dim street lamps carry a hint of warmth, illuminating the way home.

I walked slowly in the neighborhood alone, and occasionally a wild cat came out of the flower bed, staring cautiously at me, the guy who returned late, and then burrowed into the flower bed, silently.

I sat down on one of the benches downstairs.

Now, for some reason, I want to smoke in particular.

I looked around, got up and walked towards the guard's room at the gate.

Through the glass, I saw the doorman watching a TV series with his phone inside.

I knocked on the window, and he got up from his chair, looked at me, and recognized me as the owner of the complex.

"Hello, what's the matter?" He opened the door and asked me.

"Dude, borrow a cigarette and smoke." I smiled shyly.

He was stunned for a moment, and then smiled: "My cigarettes are cheap, you can't get used to smoking, right?" ”

After all, he took a box of cigarettes out of his pocket, took one out and handed it to me.

I put the cigarette in my mouth, and he took out the lighter, clicked on it, and lit it for me.

"Thanks buddy." I waved at him.

Back on the bench downstairs, I took a cigarette in my mouth and didn't smoke it, just let the tobacco burn on its own.

But even so, the thick smoke drifted in from the nose.

The pungent smell enveloped my whole being.

Looking at the building in front of me, which was almost dark, only a few windows in the upper part were lit.

There was an inexplicable panic in my heart.

I don't know what to do.

I don't know where to go.

The mobile phone in his pocket rang again, and in the empty community, the sound was particularly harsh.

It only rang twice, and before I could take out my phone, the sound stopped.

There was the sound of footsteps not far away.

Familiar rhythm, familiar dynamics.

When he was about to walk in front of me, his pace slowed down, as if to confirm that it was me.

I looked up and smiled at her.

"Husband, it's really you."

Xia Yun trotted a few steps.

"How long have you been back? How to sit here? How heavy the dew is at night......"

She crouched down in front of me and put her hands on my knees.

"How do you smoke? What happened? ”

She asked me a series of questions, and her eyes were full of worry and concern.

I didn't know what to do with her.

Although Chen Yiyao and I didn't go to the last step, what's the difference?

My soul has been derailed.

"Give." I pulled out the 500,000 bank card from my pocket.

She took the bank card and looked at me with a confused look in her eyes: "What? Didn't work? ”

I shook my head.

"Xia Yun." I put the cigarette in the corner of my mouth and took a deep breath.

"Let's get a divorce."