【0703】

After a month of vacation, work was on the agenda, and I was starting to get anxious again. Yesterday in front of my mom, I almost slapped myself. I couldn't help it, and I hit my leg. My mom was taken aback and thought I had an opinion about her. No, I'm just ashamed of myself. I feel so bad.

Flipping through the diary, I saw this paragraph:

"I often feel like I want to punish myself. When I was still in junior high school, I remember that if I didn't do well on exams, I wouldn't eat. My parents would have been shocked if they heard about it. Nobody taught me that. Even I don't care about grades. It's as if I'm happy to find a reason in my life to do something that has a negative impact. Punishing this thing means more than what it symbolizes.

Where does this hatred of itself come from? ”

Probably due to laziness. My unbridled laziness, my daily procrastination unstruck me from the bottom of my heart. Sometimes I think that if I hadn't published an article on the Internet earlier, I might have matured a little more mentally. Alas, but this is again shifting the blame to someone else. And my failure in personality is not to blame for anything else.

【0708】

Ask

1. Is there any plot progress in this paragraph?

2. Can this dialogue distinguish between the characters' personalities?

3. Is there a personal logic to the character's behavior?

4. Can this narration be avoided?

5. Is this space-time shift necessary?

6. Can this incident be reduced to the core conflict?

7. Is it demonstrating the character's abilities, or is it your knowledge?

8. Are you showing important details, or is it your rhetoric?

9. Can the temporary additions correspond to the whole? Think about it.

10. Is this a strong personal preference? If yes, you can choose to believe it.

【0715】

People who are engaged in creation are more or less mentally troubled. Compared to some of the friends I know, I think I'm really healthy. So whenever I want to complain about something, I feel like I don't have a position. I had to send some chicken soup from time to time. It's itchy through the boots, and I can't get to the point.

Alas, my heart is very broken, but at this point, I can't go on.

【0727】

drank half a catty of bayberry liquor

Drink like a fish

I want to talk to someone and I'm too lazy to talk