【0906】

Sit under the tree next to the village

Two lines of poetry popped up in my head

As a grace, he often underestimated the enemy, and tried his best to close the mountain and not solve the siege

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【0911】

It's another directing class. I was the only non-native speaker in this weird class. The professor had an uncomfortable enthusiasm about this: he wanted to prove that he had noticed my peculiarity. Let's say, I had a disagreement about the scene he was directing, and I said, I don't really understand why this character would do that, and it dawned on him: Is it a language problem?

I said that if I really want to say it, it may be a cultural issue. So then, when he mentioned an American singer, he said, "Everybody knows, oh S, you don't know......"

"Think about your brothers and sisters, ah, S, you don't have ......"

I don't, but I don't need to mention it.

I sat in the hall after class and thought a third time about whether to drop out of this embarrassing course (or write an email to the department complaining about the professor's discrimination). The old gentleman walked over very kindly, and asked in the exaggerated attitude of the typical Californians who are overly affectionate but actually don't care, do you think the course is rewarding?

I said yes, thanks.

Whatever you want, I did learn something, so forget it.

It was a little past one o'clock when I got home from class, and then I found that I couldn't find my phone, probably left it in my friend's car. I thought about looking for it, but I lay halfway on the bed, and slept until four o'clock as if my head had been hammered, and when I woke up, I was still lying on my side.

During this period, I dreamed that my roommate came into my house and tried to drag me up, telling me that there was water upstairs, and when I woke up, I didn't know if it was true. I don't think it's flooded anywhere, probably not.

The actor who was looking forward to the audition in the morning told me in the afternoon that the time conflict would not come, and we were very disappointed while we texted each other that we were very understanding and hoped to have the opportunity to work together in the future, and really, I could feel that she was also very disappointed. Please, sister, my heart is going to break, I can't come to you to audition for anything.

In fact, it is understandable that we both have a predictable tolerance limit, hoping that if the other person performs well enough, we will adjust for the other party, but if we can't achieve it, it will be a waste of time for both parties.

I made an appointment with a few male actors to audition over the weekend, and a few of them haven't returned yet. I wanted to have a meeting with the art section earlier, but the specific requirements were not sorted out. I finished sending the audition information in my hand, and I felt physically and mentally exhausted. I simply started looking at the list of Asian actors on the site in order, and asked one by one if I would be interested in being an actor for my project for free. When I first started doing this kind of thing, I was very embarrassed, and I had to have materials that I could get my hands on. Later, I finally realized that I was afraid that everyone would receive dozens or hundreds of such messages every day, so I got up casually. This hopeless thing seemed to have no end, but I looked at it and found that the list was at the bottom, and it was gone.

At 10 o'clock in the table, please define "forgetting to eat and sleep": independent production.

The meat in the fridge was frozen, and I found a box of mushrooms and asparagus, and the butter squeaked and squeaked for a while, and it looked quite delicious, but I felt like my stomach was going to come out of my chest, and I was so hungry that I was so hungry. So he took out a bag of braised beef noodles from the cabinet, tore it open and threw it into the pan.

Five minutes later, I sat down in front of a pot of instant noodles mixed with asparagus and pondered, feeling a little regretful. At this time, there was a ding, the email rang, and my heart was very broken, really, is there a moment when I was more vulnerable to receiving a work email in the face of a pot of instant noodles late at night, I was shocked and almost jumped.

It was the actor who invited her to send her page. I hesitated for three minutes to phrase my words, feeling like I had missed the opportunity to respond in good faith.

Forget it, let's eat my asparagus first.

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XSWL, this friend did a group performance at Ocean's Twelve, and I almost popped my eyes out when I saw the first line of Resume that said Directed by Steven Soderbergh. I remembered the resume of a little boy I had seen before, and the top one was that he had entered the interview with Steven Spielberg.

Life is so hard! It sounds funny, but it's pretty good when you think about it

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【0914】

Recently my social skills have improved, of course maybe they have regressed, and it's a bit strange to say that I have found that I have the ability to be rude.

Today I interviewed an actor, and it was a middle-aged character. The time of the appointment between the two sides has been changed several times, and the last meeting is at 9 o'clock in the evening. I tried the lines a few times, and soon it was ten o'clock, and I wanted to say goodbye, but it seemed that I never found the right opportunity. He asked me what I thought of a movie, and I stared at the table for about ten seconds.

The silence seemed awkward at first, but then I felt peaceful. So he took it up himself, and soon we said goodbye.

Oops, I'm going to be one of those difficult weirdos to get along with. I think. But it doesn't seem that bad. I felt like I had gotten rougher, and some of my old delicate emotions no longer hurt me so often.

Of course, I'm still not rough enough. I emailed him and said he got the role. Actually, I haven't tried all the candidates yet. This undoubtedly has something to do with the kindness he took the initiative to release to me. I'm too easily influenced. But I think if I change my mind in two days, it will be rude, but it won't hurt him.

It's really hard to assemble yourself into a calm person. I don't know if I'll be able to do it in the end. But I'm in a better state of mind now. I think even if I can't do it, it doesn't hurt.

Alas, happy Mid-Autumn Festival everyone.

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【0914】

1. It's three o'clock. Still anxious.

2. I'm still sad in my heart. I always feel like I'm doing something that's very contrary to my personality.

3. It must be very difficult for people to find their own creative path. There must be sacrifices.

4. After completing this project, I want to take on more preliminary work.

5. I'm too much to breathe. Sometimes, though, it's hard to tell the line between passion and eagerness.

6. In fact, people's performance is quite easy to distinguish. But how to deal with it is another matter.

7. I really want to write an essay.

8. A lot of people don't have what it actually looks like, so believe in yourself.

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【0916】

After going to the audition, I went home and lay down for two hours

Open a box of grapes and eat it for dinner

I finally had lunch today, or fries and roasted cucumbers, and I ate half of it last time, and the actor misremembered the audition time, so I dropped my meal and ran, which was three days ago

Tired and delirious, pressing his head in the back seat, the uber driver asked me, are you okay

It's finally confirmed that the female lead is not unexpected, and the male lead is also available

I really like that guy, so please don't have any surprises

Half of the 14 roles were set

Makeup and costumes were found

The mix and composition were not found

Go to the location on the weekend

Actually, I should have gone to see it with the venue, but I haven't negotiated the price yet

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"The Nineteen Things That Hung Ahead"

Things to test:

A: I want to rain outside the window

B: The ceiling is too low, and there may be nowhere to put the lamp/Can the lamp be shaken?

C where to engage in sand

How to do tunnel D/change it to an elevator door?

How to make E props

Can you ask an actress to dye her hair

When there are so many crazy things, it seems that it is more difficult to maintain a sense of morality. I'm very cold to people right now.

Alas.