【0922】

It's too hard to mess with

orz

I felt like I had overcome the first difficulty: communicating with the actors.

Stepping into the second difficulty: mentoring the actors.

It's not a "how I want to be" guidance, but the kind of guidance that dares to ask for more.

So much so that when the audition ended, I was always a little skeptical, wondering if I hadn't tapped into the potential of the actor.

【0924】

In class, a message flew in the light and dropped me

He said don't be angry

I said don't worry, I'll talk to someone

I'm a ripe lemon essence too!

The professor was showing us a short video, and I sent the message out. For a while, more than a dozen messages were received at the same time, and they kept dancing.

Look up to the sky and sigh.

The good news is that the PD didn't run. We can talk tomorrow.

Today I looked at three venues and identified two actors. Two new actors were also invited to audition.

【0925】

After talking to PD.

Damn, it's too tangled to think.

OMG.

【0926】

A friend sent me a private message, but set it to disable receiving private messages.

It seems that I have encountered a similar situation before, and I have not returned. Sometimes I don't reply because I don't want to answer personal questions, and sometimes I am too busy to forget about it when I don't reply. Thank you for your understanding.

Some friends have sent me a lot of warm words in private messages, and I may not have replied because I don't know what to say. But I am very touched in my heart, thank you.

I had the heart to summarize a few questions that I had asked before, but I don't have the energy now.

In general, it is difficult for all the more out-of-the-way choices in society to be rewarded immediately, and it is a matter of opinion not to regret it later. I also don't want to encourage everybody to say: just keep it at it. After all, it's all your own life.

Personally, I think the second year is easier to read than the first, and I can handle more things.

Yesterday I went home with my classmate and roommate, and it was past eleven o'clock. I looked at three venues this day, met four actors, and when I was rushing to do my homework in class, I received a message that the gaffer had picked a pick. She was doing a hospice documentary, and during the day a contact told her that someone was going to die, and she ran to the other side of the city to record it, and then ran back to class.

Two people sit in the car and don't drive. She texted, I emailed. In silence, we suddenly began a dramatic conversation.

Her: The air conditioning in the classroom is so low, aren't you cold in a T-shirt?

Me: When you say that, you don't even feel it. It's usually quite cold. Probably there was so much going on today that my brain didn't have time to remind me that I was cold.

Her: I looked at the schedule and I have appointments from Monday to Sunday for all time slots.

Me: I'm a little confused if it's because all professions are so spin-off, or if the film and television industry is a little bit more maddening.

Her: I feel that the level of madness in making movies is still above average, otherwise everyone would not have a weekend, and society should not have exploded.

I laughed at her.

Her: But if you think about it, the results of your efforts are at least what you like, and the same overtime is working every day, isn't that better than many professions?

Me: That's the good side, and the bad side is that for all sorts of things, I seem to be watching myself make it worse and worse. If I didn't like it, the process wouldn't be so painful.

She:...... that's a very good point.

At this time, another roommate posted a picture in the dormitory WeChat group, saying: "There are cockroaches everywhere in the house!" ”

I look at the picture, a dead cockroach lying in a brass water cup with a puddle of water under its belly.

Me: It's not my cup.

Her: It's mine.

So I put my phone down and she started the car.

Well, that's probably the joy of life.

【0927】

I feel that some narratives are gradually becoming private.,Please don't recommend it when you see it in the future.。 Just when I talk to you privately.

- Why LOF can't be folded.

I was chatting with an actress girl today. When asked about any impressive performance experience before, she said that once she played a role, and after taking a risk to kill someone, she broke down and cried while throwing the corpse. When it comes to the key scenes, all the lighting and photography sounds are ready, just waiting for her alone.

"But I can't cry."

"Emotions just disappear all of a sudden, you know? I couldn't cry. I think my grandma is dead, my grandma is good to me, my favorite is grandma, I think grandma is dead, are you uncomfortable? It was uncomfortable, but I still couldn't cry. I thought again that my cat was dead, right here, right in front of my eyes. But the more anxious you are about this kind of thing, the more you can't do it. ”

"Then the director is good, and the director said it's okay, it's really not good, we'll shoot it the next day. When he said that, I was even more stressed. ”

"Later, it was finally filmed, and the director said it. But I always felt like I wasn't emotional. I feel very sorry for the director. Then everyone packed up and walked out of the set, and I took a taxi home. Sitting in the car, I came down with tears in my eyes. That's when the feeling of collapse came. ”

"Later, after the finale, our crew had dinner, and I drank too much and ran to toast the director, and I said I'm sorry to the director, I can perform better. Then I cried as I spoke. The director said, "What are you doing, it's not good." I just cried non-stop. ”

"You know how it feels, I always think I can do better, but it's always after me that I think, 'Ah, I can still play like this.' At the end of the day, I was lying in bed with my mind full of regrets. I was so worried. ”

I said I knew. I often think about it, and once after shooting, I held the footage and watched the shot repeatedly, and sat until dawn.

I said again, but that's the way it is, don't regret it, otherwise there are too many things to regret.

She said that she had any particularly stressful experiences as a director.

I thought about it and said, in the first half of the year, the assistant did not confirm the replies of all the actors, and misspelled the email address of one of the actors. He never received the progress of the shoot and angrily messaged that he was not coming. I didn't find out until 4 a.m. on the morning of the shoot. While apologizing to the actor, he tried to contact other alternative actors. I didn't sleep all night, I rushed to shoot at eight o'clock, and when I was shooting in the afternoon, the photographer told me that I didn't have enough time to shoot all the shots, and now I can only choose a few shots. I looked at the lens watch, but nothing came to my mind. The lights were shining behind me, and everyone was waiting, but I couldn't think anymore.

It sounds dry, because I don't really remember how I felt at the time. Overall, every failure is an opportunity to learn. For example, I've known since then that when you're on the field, it's best to have a backup shot ready, because you can't rely on your brain to work in extreme situations.

One of the professors wrote in an email to us: "Be careful, running out of energy will be your enemy. This is true, but at least it can be solved with diligence.

What can't be compensated for by hard work? I don't quite know yet. I asked this question with the professor of the directing class the other day. I said, for actors, talent or experience, which is more important? I mean, sometimes I see an actor who has a very vivid level of performance, but she doesn't have a similar cultural background and can't fully understand the motivation of the character's actions. Sometimes, when I talk to actors about their characters, they talk about similar experiences in a deep way, and they resonate with the characters. But I don't think their acting skills are outstanding.

The professor smiled slightly and said, this is where the art of directing is embodied. You'll never know unless you try.

I smiled and wanted to hit him. I know he's telling the truth, there is no conclusion to this kind of thing, and all situations will be different depending on the specific factors. For example, what kind of talent, what kind of experience, and even what kind of hard work and communication.

On the other hand, the most challenging thing about movies is that you never know. Every day we make a lot of decisions, this actor or that actor, this location or that location, this hue, this lighting. I didn't sleep all night on Wednesday because I had to decide whether to shoot a particular scene or build it. If you build a house on stage, you have better control over the lighting, cinematography and movement. The downside is that building a house requires a huge upfront investment to have enough realism. If you shoot a real scene, of course, the house will have a sense of reality, but the lighting will be difficult to hide, and in a narrow space, it is difficult to play a role in photography.

I ended by saying that we were going to shoot the real thing. I sent out the message, and everybody said yes, and no one asked me if I wanted to think about it again. Both approaches have their own drawbacks, and both can be remedied by other efforts. And in the end, we will never even know if it is better than the other: because no one will shoot it a second time.

And in the end, we can only lie in bed in the middle of the night, as this girl said, and think, if we could do that, would it be better?

Don't regret it, or there will be too many things to regret.

We said goodbye and she took a taxi home. I got home, thought about it, and started cooking.

This month I made a good habit of sending those disturbing emails while cooking. After cutting the dish, I sent one and asked if a venue would accept an early visit. It's better to say it on Saturday morning, and the other person replies that Saturday is tomorrow, and I don't think it's okay. Listening to his tone, it seems that I am very rude to propose a visit the next day, whatever.

When I saw the minced garlic boiling in oil, I posted another one, asking a union actor who came to audition to play a supporting role for me for free. When I added greens, she sent me a reply and said she agreed.

Today I made cabbage fried meat, and I added a lot of vinegar, and I feel that I have been cooking a little frequently recently, as if I have eaten fat.

【0928】

I was very broken

It feels like life is a collection of countless unresolved issues