Zhao Minli died in a foreign country, Cheng Cheng and Qin Yan went on a long trip to attend Zhao Minli's funeral, and there were not many people who attended the funeral, all of whom were Zhao Minli's confidants and friends before his death.

Cheng Cheng knew that Zhao Minli wanted to be quiet when she flew to New Zealand, and now when she leaves, she is also very quiet, and there are no strangers around, only people who know her.

Liao Yuanqing gave Zhao Minli a sea burial, and when the boat slowly pushed into the distance, Cheng Cheng couldn't help but shed tears again, the corners of her eyes were moist, and she raised her hand and was about to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes, Qin Yan had already gently wiped away the tears for her.

Watching the boat carrying Zhao Minli slowly being washed away by the seawater, the sea water was very calm, but Cheng Cheng's heart and eyes were not calm.

"Tell me how she passed away, I remember that she was in good spirits when she left the country, how could she leave suddenly in such a short time."

Liao Yuanqing's figure standing at the front was motionless, his eyes were only the boat on the sea, and his voice was a little hoarse, as if someone had stuffed a handful of sand into his sand throat.

"It's all my fault, he has already told me to let me go back to China and stop disturbing her, but I didn't listen to her and continued to follow her, maybe it was because I was so angry that she left so suddenly."

Liao Yuanqing's voice was full of self-blame, his fist hung weakly at his side, he felt as if his entire backbone had been cut off from it, if it weren't for the fact that the boat carrying Zhao Minli hadn't left his sight, he might have collapsed to the ground in the next second.

Hearing his words, Cheng Cheng remained silent, but Qin Yan said in a calm voice, "Don't say that, her physical condition is not good, and there is no one to talk to in a foreign country, and there is also mental pressure, you can't be blamed for this, don't put all the responsibility on yourself." ”

Liao Yuanqing knew that Qin Yan was comforting himself, he turned around and shook his head weakly at Cheng Cheng, his eyes were bloodshot, as if he hadn't slept with his eyes closed for several days and nights, his face was tired.

"Thank you, but I know it's all my fault." Even though Cheng Cheng has said that all this has nothing to do with Liao Yuanqing, Liao Yuanqing still insists on taking all the responsibilities and all the faults on himself, as if he is a sinner through the ages, even the Yellow River can't wash away the sins on him.

Cheng Cheng and Qin Yan didn't know how long they stood on the beach, until the boat carrying Zhao Minli finally floated out of their sight, slowly became a point in the sky, and slowly disappeared, at this time Cheng Cheng mentioned going back.

But Liao Yuanqing still stood still, standing there as if it was like a bridge stone, the wind could not move the sea.

Cheng Cheng walked over, Zhao Minli left, she felt uncomfortable, Liao Yuanqing's heart was also very uncomfortable, she comforted Liao Yuanqing, "Go back, it's slowly getting dark, and when it comes to the night, it's Zhao Minli's favorite time to be quiet, let's not give her too much attention here." ”

Cheng Cheng didn't know if it was her hallucination, she heard a faint hum from Liao Yuanqing's throat.

Qin Yan raised his hand and patted Liao Yuanqing's shoulder, wanting to comfort him, but his heavy and insignificant gesture made Liao Yuanqing's whole person like a tree with broken roots, and suddenly smashed his eyelids towards the ground full of stones, and slowly closed them heavily, Qin Yan's long arms fished so that he did not smash on the angular ground.

It wasn't until Qin Yan and Cheng Cheng sent Liao Yuanqing home that they let him rest for a long time before he woke up slowly, but he kept chanting Zhao Minli's name in his sleep.

That is, when Qin Yan took Liao Yuanqing back, he found that Liao Yuanqing's arms were full of scars, like traces left by himself, neatly arranged on his arms one after another, looking shocking and unbearable, it was hard to imagine how he had survived during this time.

Liao Yuanqing finally woke up, he was weak when he woke up, and his eyelids were gently closed, as if he didn't have the strength to break through the heavy eyelids, he could clearly see that it was Qin Yan and Cheng Cheng who were guarding his bedside, and there was still the smell of food in the room.

"You finally woke up, you haven't slept for a few days and nights, and you haven't eaten well, your physical strength can't support it, I've already boiled chicken soup for you, drink a little chicken soup, replenish your strength." Cheng Cheng gave Liao Yuanqing a bowl of chicken soup, but Liao Yuanqing closed his eyes without appetite and didn't want to drink chicken soup.

"How can you do without chicken soup? You haven't eaten for a day, if you don't eat or drink like this, your body will not be able to support it, Zhao Minli has left, even if she leaves, she must hope that you will live well. Cheng Cheng put the chicken soup on the bedside table.

When he woke up, it was late at night, and the light in the room was on, and the warm light hit his pale skin, but it still oozes the sickly pale of his skin.

"Don't be so stubborn, Zhao Minli is already gone, this is a powerless thing, you can't torture yourself anymore, let's go with her in the end." Cheng Cheng saw that Liao Yuanqing closed his eyes and didn't want to speak, and he didn't want to listen to himself, so she lowered her voice, she knew that Liao Yuanqing's body was very weak now.

If the knot in Liao Yuanqing's heart is not untied, even if he drinks this bowl of chicken soup today, so what, after he leaves, he will go on a hunger strike, without eating or resting.

"When I sent you back just now, I saw those scars on your hands, what happened to those scars, could it be that you cut them with a knife yourself?" Qin Yan glanced at his hand covering the quilt, those scars should have been there for a long time, I don't know when he started to have a tendency to masochism.

At this time, Liao Yuanqing slowly opened his eyes, but he was still weak and weak, "I deserve this, if it weren't for me, Zhao Minli would not have passed away so soon, all of this is my fault, and I have no chance to make up for it, I can only punish myself in this way, let me remember it forever, I did something sorry for Minli." ”

The guilt in his heart completely overwhelmed his belief in living, and if it continued like this, Liao Yuanqing's body would definitely not be able to bear it.

Cheng Cheng stood there quietly when he heard these words, and when he saw the painful look on Liao Yuanqing's face, his eyes were full of guilt and self-blame.

"She may not forgive you, but she may not blame you anymore, have you ever thought about this, since you are still alive, you should live well, you should not punish yourself with the past all the time, when is the time to repay the wrongs." Cheng Cheng continued to persuade Liao Yuanqing, but he didn't listen to what he said.

Qin Yan and Cheng Cheng are not professional psychological counselors after all, Qin Yan suggested to Liao Yuanqing, "You should live well if you are still alive, if you live so painfully, what is the point?" I know that the knot in your heart can't be untied, when you are well, you go to see a psychiatrist, maybe the psychiatrist has a knot that can untie your heart. ”

If you can untie the knot in Liao Yuanqing's heart, this is the best. During this time, because of the news of Zhao Minli's death, Liao Yuanqing was almost out of breath, and at this time, the focus of his eyes was on Qin Yan's face, and he slowly hummed.

"Since you want to untie the knots in your heart, live a good life, eat well, and sleep well, you can get up and eat something."

Liao Yuanqing is very grateful that at this time, Qin Yan and Cheng Cheng are by his side, they don't know how long they have been with him, but they should be very worried about their physical condition, and after struggling for a long time, Liao Yuanqing finally sat up slowly with his hands on the hospital bed.

Cheng Cheng hurriedly picked up the bowl of chicken soup on the bedside table and handed it to Liao Yuanqing, and instructed him, "Drink it slowly, be careful of scalding." ”

The rich aroma of chicken soup aroused Liao Yuanqing's hunger, and he realized that he had not eaten or drunk water for a day, and his mouth was dry and his stomach was very hungry at this time.

"It is impossible to live in the past mistakes, people have to look forward, now that Zhao Minli has left, the living people must live well, and they can't always be troubled by their previous mistakes." Cheng Cheng saw that Liao Yuanqing was finally willing to drink chicken soup, and finally showed a slight relaxed expression.

After drinking the first bite of chicken soup, Liao Yuanqing felt that his stomach was even hungrier, and the speed at which he drank chicken soup became faster, Cheng Cheng not only boiled chicken soup for him, but also made him a few good side dishes.

That Cheng Cheng watched Liao Yuanqing drink a few bowls of chicken soup, and after eating the food again, his face finally had a little ruddy blood, and his dry and flaky mouth was also healed, and he told him a few words to leave.

After Qin Yancheng Cheng returned to China, he had been thinking about Liao Yuanqing's situation in his heart, but they also called Liao Yuanqing, and Liao Yuanqing's condition seemed to have improved a lot on the phone.

But if it weren't for seeing the news on TV, Qin Yan and Cheng Cheng never dreamed that they thought that Liao Yuanqing's improvement was just an illusion that Liao Yuanqing showed in order not to worry them, and he showed them acting.

Qin Yan and Cheng Cheng saw a news on TV that a passerby rescued a patient who had been overly masochistic on the side of the road and sent him to the hospital, and the doctor gave the diagnosis that his current condition was very bad, and if he continued like this, he might not survive for a few months.

Qin Yan and Cheng Cheng saw that there seemed to be a lot more scars on Liao Yuanqing's body, and there seemed to be a fresh scar on his thick neck, which had not yet healed completely.